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Meeting Michael Schumacher!

2011-12-07T22:11:00.001Z

Life in United Kingdom and interning at Mercedes-Benz Grand Prix Limited has been nothing but extraordinary. Every week surely has something to be worth remembered. A great example would be today, when PETRONAS Motorsport and Mercedes AMG PETRONAS arranged a surprise visit by Michael Schumacher just for 8 of us here!

It all started when all our supervisors requested a meeting so that we would stay at our desks during the meeting. We all thought, well, at least for me and my colleague; it was just an ordinary meeting as we usually have it every week. The funny thing is, before Mike popped into our office, we have just talked about him and asked our supervisor whether we would have the chance to meet him someday. As the meeting went on, a PETRONAS officer came in greeted us and there he is. I was like, “OMG! It’s Michael Schumacher!” I was so speechless at the point as 7-time F1 world champion is just standing right in front of me.

Didn't really have the chance to take photo with him. This is the best shot that my colleague could take. Anyway, we might get to see him again soon during our company Christmas party!

He is so slim in person, about my size. Lol. He only stayed for a while there after interviewing us. Nevertheless, I was overwhelmed despite of the short meeting. Even in my own country I never met any famous sportsmen and yet, I have the chance to shake hands with one of the greatest F1 drivers of all time.

Afterwards, we have a little recording to share our experience of our internship here for the past 2 months. Lol, you know, it is like the one you usually saw on TV when the celebrities were being interviewed. The PETRONAS officer told me that it will be released through ESPN Asia next year. Gosh, can’t wait to see it!

I have no regret! =)

Lady Gaga - Marry The Night (Official Video)

2011-12-02T21:46:00.000Z

Frost

2011-11-23T22:34:00.000Z

"No point in crying over yesterdays,

Because we are yet to see the best of days"

It's been a while I didn't stop by. Interning in MGP is just the same like working here in any way. Despite of the fact that my jobs here are projects-based as I don't have daily tasks, the naps routine that I usually have in campus is really killing me here as I will always get tired whenever I am home. Vendor machine is my best friend in MGP, to get my snickers bar and a cup of hot coffee to keep me alive. Cooking for dinner, online, watching series, playing games and sleeping; routines after back from work and it repeats for every weekdays. I was too demotivated to blog as these hours are the only time that I can have for myself, until today.

It is coming to the end of November before tuning into the last month of the year. I have to write something. Lol. As you can see from the photo above, frost starts to form. It was taken earlier today. It's just getting colder than before. The temperature barely makes it more than 10degrees. Autumn is ending soon and all of us here are wondering when it is going to snow. As much as we are excited like a group of "sakai" kids waiting for it, pray hard it won't jeopardies our end of year vacation. My colleagues say it is nice to have snow for a week but after that, everything will be just miserable since you hardly can travel. I'm yet to get my boots!

Anyway, since we are given two cars, we have been travelling around during the weekends. Weekends are the most awaited days in the week which keep us going during the weekdays! Has visited few cities around England. This country is big enough to explore and there is so much to offer! If you have checked out my album on Facebook, you will know where I have been to.

Week 1: London

Paying 20pounds for train to London, which includes the use of tubes (underground train) to travel around the city.

Eye of London

Palace of Westminster and Clock Tower (Big Ben)

Tower Bridge

Week 2: Oxford

I really love the architecture here!

Radcliffe Camera

Christ Church College, one of the settings for Harry Potter film

Week 3: Alton Towers

One of the largest theme parks in UK!

Week 4: Northampton

These lights were up for Light Night, a marathon for charity

Week 5: Stonehenge and Stowe Landscape Garden

Desktop wallpaper, eh? This shot was taken by me, though. Lol. Paid 7.50 pounds just to be this close to take the photo.

This garden located at Buckinghamshire.

Reflection

The building ahead happens to be a school. A school in a garden.

Week 6: Nottingham and Bleinheim Palace

There was a Malaysian Food Festival held at The University of Nottingham!

The campus

Had Sarawak Laksa! It didn't taste similar but it's good enough for me to consider I am here.

Exploring the city of Nottingham. The traffic here is really twisting!

The Ghost Walk - getting to know the paranormal stories of the town

Robin Hood statue!

Bleinheim Palace

Greatest Britain Palace 2011!

Week 7: Birmingham

German Christmas Market! An annual event in which we were lucky to have a glimpse of it. The crowd was overwhelming! Human congestion!

Birmingham is definitely a paradise for shopping enthusiast!

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While enjoying my every weekend adventure, I'm just so, so excited counting down for the upcoming re-release of my beloved movie which will be on the big screen in April next year! The best part is I am going to watch here (hopefully), in the country where Titanic departed 100 years ago for its fatal maiden voyage.

Life is a never-ending adventure. Cherish my every second on this lovely country. I shall stop here. See you~

*I miss you. Do you miss me? :)

Who's Ross Brawn?

2011-11-01T22:41:00.003Z

‎"No distance of place or lapse of time can lessen the friendship of those who are thoroughly persuaded of each other's worth." - Robert Southey

It has been a month now I am on this foreign land. As much as I enjoy my stay here, to think that I am leaving so many persons behind me at this period, sometimes, at one particular instant, I just miss the beloved ones back in Malaysia.

Anyway, I guess it is about time to share a little bit about my work place. As I have mentioned previously or most of my friends know, I am interning at Mercedes GP. I only get to know that Michael Schumacher and Nico Rosberg are their drivers. Lol, I don't really catch up much with F1 anyway but since I am here, I have to know. Pretty shameful that I am not familiar with a famous figure named Ross Brawn and yet I usually see him passing by our office like any other ordinary human being. Hey, his office is just opposite of mine. He will be away if there is race during the weekend. To think that I never meet Tony Fernandes, a profound Malaysian businessman, the team principal of Team Lotus, at some points, I do feel a little overwhelmed. *wake myself up*

I am working under Reliability Engineering department. I would say it is mostly about quality control; to ensure the parts of racing cars are in good conditions and for this purpose, the parts need to pass through inspection before being used. I have been doing inspection on gears which is one of my routines every week. There are lots of steps but it is part of learning process. If the gears aren't in good conditions, if something happens to the car during the race, whoever is in-charge for inspection will be responsible, that includes me. Lol. Another routine will be laser etching. Parts of the cars should be labelled with part numbers so that we can trace where does the part originate. This is done by laser etching. We are taught to use the laser machine to perform this job. It is not comparable to the equipment that we have in our campus, our UG lab at least. We aren't supposed to take photos inside our work places, mostly. You know, this whole thing is a competition.

Well, somehow, this shot with our supervisor (middle) was taken. His name is David Probyn but we usually call him Dave. He is the head of my department.

Assigned with three projects to accomplish throughout my seven-month stay here, I don't really have other daily tasks to do. The fact that everyone seems to be always so busy with their work, especially my office which is the designer office, I can't really proceed much with my tasks without their help. I always see them glue their eyes on their desktop doing designing job using CATIA, the software that they used. Mine; other than Ms Words and Excel, Adobe Reader, what else can I do? I guess the coolest project that was given to me is to investigate the faulty seal of Nico's car which fails during Japanese GP. Perhaps it is no big deal for the company but this project gives me the exposure of using my chemical background to conduct the investigation. The only drawback is that I barely have the knowledge to use the equipment such as Scanning Electron Microscope, Differential Scanning Calorimeter.. bla bla. There is just so much to learn. Everything starts from zero! Most important thing is, here, you gotta take your own initiatives, you can't wait for others. If not, you will lose in the game. Working until 5.30pm or sometimes stay late, I am sort of worn out during the weekdays. When I reach home, I will really push the job away from my mind to have time for myself. Not to mention our every weekend getaway!

Talking about English people here, well, I am not sure if British did colonise us last time because the culture is really, really different from ours. Opening the door for others to go first, drivers letting the pedestrians to cross the road first, employees greeting you every morning although we are not of the same departments (or we never meet one another before), the consistent use of the word "please" etc. We just have so many to catch up here. Oh ya, the "eff" word is pretty common if you hear curses, once in a while. Haha.

It's getting colder as winter is approaching. Despite of the daylight saving time (DST), the sun sets at 4.30pm in this period. Meaning, it gets dark sooner than usual. They save the day time making the night time seems to be prolonged. Lol.

It's the month of November, remaining 2 months of year 2011. Hoping for special closure for this year. Looking forward for white christmas! :)

Have a lovely day!

Greeting from UK!

2011-10-10T23:45:00.001+01:00

"Language is not the barrier of communication.
The accent is."

A dream that I never dare to dream before come true when I am least expecting it: the opportunity to intern at Mercedes GP PETRONAS Formula One Team which based in United Kingdom! First time stepping out of Malaysia, I gave my very first step to England.

The month of October marks the beginning of my 7-month adventure. The journey began when I took 10.05am flight to London on 1st October 2011. Even the 13-hour flight itself was a new experience. I am used to fly to and fro KL and Bintulu but this flight was a little different. I was wondering what could I do to kill the time, thinking that even a 2-hour flight could actually bore me to the max until I was informed that the plane is equipped with electronic gadgets enabling us to watch movies, listen to songs. I watched Rio and August Rush, which occupied 4.5 hours of the journey. Remaining time I was listening to songs, taking naps and enjoying the scenery out of my window. Get to have a glimpse of parts of the world that I never see before.

First time on a big plane. A little sakai.

This view amazed me. Somewhere between Afghanistan and Pakistan.

Leaving the mainland...

... and reaching England!

Finally touched down at Heathrow International Airport after being on air for 13 hours!

I'M FINALLY IN UK!

Heading to a suburb named Banbury which is 1.5 hours away. Staying in Banbury House Hotel for few nights as our host company didn't manage to find a house for us yet. When we settled down, it was already night time. 1st October 2011 was stretched for extra 7 hours for me due to the time difference. Funny, jet lag didn't really affect much. Perhaps it was due to the fact that I am used to stay awake at night back in UTP. Never knew it could help me in this situation. Lol.

View from my room.

Hunger strikes and it is our mission to hunt for food in the foreign place. As expected, it was freezing cold outside. The temperature gets below 20 degree Celcius, colder than a typical air-conditioned room. Well-prepared with my sweater, we walked down the street of Banbury and eventually stopped by at Pizza Express, our very first meal and dinner in UK!

A dinner that cost me 6.30 pound.

A thing that we shouldn't do when we spend money here is to convert to MYR.

Next day:

Good morning, Banbury, UK.

Our hotel, Banbury House Hotel

Grilled Bacon for my very first breakfast.

Equipped ourselves with camera, it's time to do a little exploring around the town before heading to our work place on the next day. Let the photos do the talking. *lazy to type*

Street view along the road

Going down the street

Catholic Church

Banbury Landmark: Banbury Cross

The "Fine Lady"

Another church.
Saw this in the church's compound.

We are lucky to have a glimpse of the annual event of Banbury Canal Day which will be held on every first Sunday of October!

*ignore my hand*

Exhibitions, the crowd of people. It was really happening in this small town.

Saw these horses passed by on our way back to hotel.

Have to say, even this suburb has so much to offer. I am looking forward to explore the land of Big Ben for my 7-month stay here.

Familiarised ourselves with Banbury, it's about time for our main intention coming here: internship. Being chauffeured to our work place, all the way in Brackley, we get to see our host company for very first time.

Signage at the entrance

The main building. Reminds me of UTP, a little.

My desk

That's all for now. More stories in the next post. *Daily report is a nightmare. A requirement by SIIU.*

I start to love it here! I miss my friends back in Malaysia. Take care, everyone! =)

Journey to the West

2011-09-29T11:50:00.003+01:00

*A post of only words.

"To travel is better than to arrive. It's the journey, not the destination."

It all began when I submitted my resume to Student Industrial Internship Unit (SIIU). The initial deadline was set at the end of February. At the time, I was yet to complete my resume and hence, I missed it. In fact, I didn't have the intention to go for it. I just felt like want to go back to where I belong to. Attended the internship briefing and there is one part the officer was talking about the overseas placement. Talking about the allowance and all. Wasn't that interested to listen to the slot. For next few weeks, friends have been talking about seniors going abroad to have their practical. Oxford, Germany, Austria and so on. Never imagined I would be in their shoes. Seriously.

Checked the elearning. Guess what? The deadline was extended to end of April. By the time, I have done my resume because I planned to submit it during Technology, Education and Career (TEC) which was held in the same month. After giving it some thought, I was like, heck, why wouldn't I give it a shot? No harm applying. Plus, I always believe that things happen for reason. Lol. During the semester break, I get the news that I was shortlisted for an interview to be shortlisted for becoming potential candidates. Meaning, once selected, I am yet to have a placement but I would be considered and the application is all done by SIIU. I passed the interview. I remembered that I have to reschedule my slot because I was having 2-week study leave.

The waiting began. One by one, my friends were getting placement. Getting called for interview and everything meanwhile I didn't receive anything. Japan, Austria, Germany, France etc. All the placements were occupied. I was like, oh, perhaps I have out-listed. Wasn't really have high expectation though. Plus, I already have a placement back in my hometown. Have been considering the pros and cons for both choices, if I get any, going to intern in MLNG is not that bad at all. The time I was ready to stop hoping is also the time when I received an email from SIIU to attend an interview. Okay, there was a glimpse of hope again.

Doing a little research on the company to prepare myself for the interview. There were 20 interviewees and they only required 8. 40% chance to be selected. The interview session went quite smooth though. Frankly, I felt good about it. The thing is, the other students that I met who have been interviewed felt the exact same way. I didn't feel good again. Lol. I didn't put my hope high so that I wouldn't crushed as much. Though hope is frail, it is better than none. Good news came in 1 week later. =)

A little adventure began when I need to have my passport in the first place because I don't have one. Since I came from East Malaysia, I need to have a birth certificate if to apply in West Malaysia. I did bring along my birth cert along with me to the campus so I thought it wasn't a big deal until I realised I have misplaced and forgotten where I have put it! Nearly ransacked the whole room and I couldn't find that piece of paper. No choice but rushing to the nearby Jabatan Pendaftaran Negara to retrieve a new one. The officer mentioned it would took one week to process since I am not from local. Great, SIIU officer has requested the passport details in one week time and I was stuck with this. To make thing worst is I heard from my friends that even the passport would only be done in one week time too. What choice do I have anyway? Back to the campus that day, when I have calmed myself down a little, cleaning up the mess and boom! The birth cert appeared! LOL, it appeared in a file that I thought that I wouldn't have put it there. I went to Immigration Office on the next day itself.

I have visited the office thrice just to get my passport done. First visit was to fill up the application form where the officer said it required 5 working days of investigation before they can process it. Waited for a week and I came to the office for second time. By right I can have my passport done on that day but the machine or whatever they call it, break down. Did I mention that the Immigration Office is quite far away from my campus? I was really thankful to my friends who were willing to bring me there just to do my passport. 2 days later, my third visit, which was on 21st August 2011, finally, I have my very first passport in my hand!

Next was the Visa application. We have to wait for offer letter and supporting documents from the company before applying and we only managed to get them during exam week. Earlier, we have been studying the UK Embassy website. The website is kinda confusing. I was having a hard time to identify what I need to do. From online application, online appointment, payment mode, Visa photo requirement and everything. That's a lot of things which couldn't be taken lightly. Asking from seniors and friends who have been doing this last time lighten the stress a little. After having all the necessary documents, after exam, we went down to VFS Global Malaysia, a UK Visa application centre which located at Wisma MCA. The application went smoothly. No interview was needed for my case. It took a minimum of 5 working days to process and eventually, it was approved.

Okay, I realised this is the account from the time I submit my resume, interview, passport and Visa. Oh well, the adventure of a lifetime, it didn't come by just by a snap of finger. It is kinda grueling as when everything is not confirmed, you would always be haunted by doubt and uncertainty. It is not cool.

Just for your information, I will be doing my internship at Mercedes-Benz Grand Prix Limited which based in Brackley, Northamptonshire, United Kingdom. A small township which is 1 hour and a half drive from London. Mixed feelings right now as I have the chance to go for a journey of self-exploration and learn more new things but also, being separated from the beloved ones here in Malaysia for 7 months. Well, this is just a temporary part of process in learning. This bounds to happen someday, may be not now but perhaps in the future. For me, now is the beginning of this part.

This post will be the season finale and last post here before embarking my new chapter of life somewhere. The month of October marks the beginning of a whole new adventure, not just for me but also to my friends. Hereby I would like to wish my batchmates all the best in their internship. Thailand, Japan, France, Austria, Germany, United Kingdom, United States and of course, not forgetting those in Malaysia. See you all in Final Year! ^^

I start to miss home now. Miss my family. Miss my buddies. Miss my friends. Hoping that later, I will get tired of missing so that I won't be too emotional to fly off this Saturday. Lol. Take care, everyone! See you when I am back! :)

*This post is scheduled to be published at 6.50pm, the time of departure from Bintulu to Kuala Lumpur, beginning of the new adventure! *saje*

A Walk to Remember

2011-09-16T17:30:00.002+01:00

"I'm so glad you made time to see me. How's life? Tell me, how's your family? I haven't seen them in a while..."

Remembered the first day stepping my feet into University Teknologi PETRONAS (UTP) back in 2008 with high-school-innocent look. Meeting new bunch of friends from various parts of Malaysia and the world. First time being so far away from home. It was uneasy at first and was a little homesick but quickly I managed to adapt to the new environment. Not to mention I experienced culture shock although I am a Malaysian myself. Lol. Attending lectures, tutorials, co-curricular classes and so on were parts of academic activities. Hanging out with newly-met friends was how we spending our past times. Friendship grows. Sometimes misunderstandings and mild conflicts happened, it still grows. That was during Foundation.

Semester by semester. Year by year. We survived through freshman, sophomore and currently in our junior year. Time passed by. Things change. Inevitably, friendship changes, too. From strangers become friends. Become closer afterwards, having arguments, then being distant, reaching into the level of being nearly acquaintance. Some make it. Some didn't. It is tough to sustain the closeness when you know one another a little too well; when true colours show. Everyone has limit to tolerate but apparently, some have a little too low. I witnessed how the circle alters and I was once in the shoes as well.

Anyway, things happened. It just happened. I couldn't do much about it. The worst part is it left the wound and God knows only time can heal it although scar will remain there. Slight reminder will induce the same old pain. Nevertheless, I have always believed that things happen for reasons. I embrace this principle to focus on the good in my life and turn every negativity into something positive. I'm grateful that these actually help me to be better and better. :)

The journey here really has taught me a lot, a lot. Learned countless valuable lessons which are not parts of our course structure. It is not something that you can gain from the book. Pre-intern period has given me so many memories to be cherished.

For the next 7 or 8 months, I am going to miss the random conversation that we used to have; the games that we used to play; the songs that we used to sing; the path that we used to walk. Most importantly is the time that we used to spend. Bits of these moments play a significant part in my life because they beautify it and make it more meaningful.

Thanks for the memories. Thanks for being there all the time. It is definitely going to be a walk to remember. Wish you all the best. See you next time. Forget me not. =)

New chapter of my life begins in 2 weeks time. I am excited!

Kuala Lumpur, the Transit City

2011-09-14T12:35:00.001+01:00

Thought want to update about my post-exam moment as my last post in UTP before leaving for internship. I guess I was too tired when I finished my last paper on Sunday after grueling days of studying. Almost take a nap instantly right after the paper and there was once I thought it is Monday when I woke up. Papers on weekends. All the days were pretty messed up. Busy packing after that. Running stairs up and down for more than five times, carrying my stuff to the extent that my arms became numb. Level 3 is a deadly curse when it comes to packing.

That's that and I'm done with my third year second semester. Time flies. Same old, same old. After 3.5 years of academic commitment at UTP, it's about time to do some hand-on work. Looking forward for my 7-month internship which will start in October. Hopefully it is a right choice, though because the job ain't really related to my program of studies. Worry not, I take it as a new challenge in learning something new. Somewhere. Hopefully. :)

The post title is named so as I am currently at KL Sentral, staying here and later, Low Cost Carrier Terminal (LCCT) to fly home tomorrow early in the morning, to the land of Hornbill. It's been months being away from my homeland and I am desperately missing home and can't wait to be there. Earlier in the morning I was doing my Visa application. It went well, I guess and I can only hope that there is no complication during the process to get it approved. If not, I would have to fly back to KL to have it settled. :S

Went KLCC to hang out with my friend to spend the remaining time of the day. Watched Contagion which is surprisingly disappointing despite of the good rating. It is not just the fact that Kate Winslet died in the movie but the plot evolves around a circle. No rising action, no climax. A little overrated.

Okaaay, I'm feeling sleepy now and a hot Starbucks chocolate doesn't help me much to keep me awake.

See you all later.

Face the Books

2011-09-05T15:40:00.001+01:00

It has been more than 2 weeks since the last update of this blog. The last post dated back in mid of August and it is now already early September. How time flies! I barely updated my tumblr too. *Have nothing much to update actually.* I guess I was a little occupied with stuff lately.

Towards the end of August I was literally drowning with so many assignments: individual and group assignments. The so-called "natural" leader has a real hard time when it comes to compiling the assignment before the deadline. Same old, same old. Oh, did I tell you about tests? All these pretty much sum up the towards-the-end moment of this semester.

And here comes the study week together with raya break. Still within the month of Ramadhan, the atmosphere on the campus was so deserted. Cafes were not operating. Majority of the students went back home for the festive seasons and left a bunch of hungry zombies hunting for food. That including me. Nearly relying only maggi to overcome my hunger until friends invited me to share group meals with them. My life was saved. You know, there are so many cats, we can just cook and eat them up. Kidding.

The cat is too cute to be eaten anyway. lol

Realising that this will be last final exams before leaving for internship. New academic semester will only start May next year. Another year before my next final. A good reason for me to really nerd (nerdify?) myself this time. Not to mention I'm having 3 reading subjects. Reading. Reading. Reading. Timetable is not really on my side either. Taking 5 subjects this semester and my first paper starts tomorrow. A day gap and for the remaining 4 days (Thursday - Sunday), I will have papers consecutively and I am done!

Wish everyone all the best. Good luck! :)

Oh, hope it is not too late to wish all my Muslim friends Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf zahir dan batin.

Chemy Raya Dinner 2010

Can spot me in purple baju raya? :)

Not to forget, Happy Merdeka!

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"You are dead to me"

What a way to start my exam frenzy. This is not the worst that I ever get though. Past experience taught me a lot. Hate me if you want because I never hate you. True, I was mad at you but that was the history. Sometimes I do have resentment but I get it over. I never have the intention to flame. I'm letting it out so that I could forgive you. Then, I move on. I always accept you as my friend. My apology if I hurt you although I don't mean to. Good intention sometimes will be falsely interpreted. I understand. Been there, done that. Sorry, I just can't be your perfect friend. It's your choice to remove me. I can't do anything. There is always a great bunch of buddies will surround you. Lacking of me in the list is insignificant. Hereby I wish you all the best and just want to you know, "You will always alive in my mind".

Nuff said.

Let's Be Honest

2011-08-14T17:30:00.002+01:00

How often that you have been honest in your life? Seriously? I am speaking in terms when you have the feeling of resentment towards someone, or something, do you express it directly or choose to hide it? More often than not, we tend to keep everything and suppress it within ourselves, despite of the fact you dislike (or detest) it. So-called want to "jaga hati orang". =)

Well, I do have friends who sometimes speak their minds without being filtered and usually, the words will give you the silent "ouch" moment. These people are being critical and generally pretty firm with their own stands and like to pick up an argument when we are of the different frequencies. Sometimes I just choose to ignore and move on with my own point of views. Lol, I know it sounds like an act of a coward who is so afraid to fight back but hey, I am kind enough to let you win, am I not? Not to mention that it will be a complete waste of time if there is no one is willing to give in. I choose to be the one. Anyhow, everyone has their own personal perspective in certain things and you don't expect everyone to have the same mind like you do.

Talking about people at UTP, to be honest, I have come across few people that sometimes I don't really like. Be it among the committees of events or in the circle of friends. There are just people seem to be not "ngam" with you. As the chinese saying goes, "yuan jia lu zai", you keep bumping into these people quite frequent (more frequent than bump into people that you like. Just saying! XD) and have that awkward moment. Fortunately, the period only lasted for a short while and you can tolerate. The worst part is; we will all continue "gossiping" after that. Lol. What if he/she would have stayed longer, what would you do? Will you just "chao" with some excuses or continue to entertain? If next time you come into another accidental meeting, "oh man, the annoying guy again", your mind whispers but not your mouth. Honestly, it happens to me. =/

But seriously, if some people say such thing to you, how will you react? I mean, they are just being honest, no? As much as I don't like people lying to me, I will also be a bit offended by those who are being a little too honest. There is a wide range of vocabulary, you can choose the nice words and yet, you choose the one that hurt people's feeling. Come across a quote saying that "telling the truth and hurting people's feeling are two different things" is indeed very true. We can always be true to one another as I believe, hiding the truth doesn't permit the need of telling lies.

But being honest to a person that is not worth to be true to? Oh well, we just tolerate then. Real friends can handle the truth. =)

"There are things not meant to be changed.

Instead, they change us."

Final round of tests and assignments for the remaining 2 weeks! Have good news to share (some of you already know) but I need to wait for it to be really confirmed first then I will let you all know. Hope it doesn't give me false promise.

I'm EXCITED!

To end this post, I have this video to share with you all. Enjoy! xD

Happy Friendship Day

2011-08-07T16:50:00.003+01:00

It is first Sunday of August. Not many people actually aware the existence of this "Day". Other than second Sunday of May and third Sunday of June, this day is one of the days that I am looking forward as well. :)

Friendship has its ups and downs. It is just the nature of it. Sometimes it just remains down when no one is willing to give in. I would always wonder why my friends are having conflict and unable to reconcile. When I was in the same shoes, just realised, it wasn't that easy to get out of it. When self ego consumes yourself too much, refusal to compromise, thing won't revert back to when it used to be. Been there, done that.

I guess I am pretty sentimental. I don't know how many times I have involved myself in problems (as if I want to, lol) and despite of the resentment that I have in these friends, over time, reminiscing the memories that we have, slowly, I forgive all their wrongdoings and move on as usual. The period of recovery may differ and we may not be able to relive moment as much as we used to have, I still regard them as my friends. On the other note, this makes me to learn to tolerate better, overlook their mistakes, hoping to keep the friendship. =)

Cease to believe that friends should spend lots of time together to be close. I believe that regardless of the boundaries, time and distance, friends who are being true to another are sufficient in becoming real close friends. No one can be a perfect friend but the least we can do is being a true one. :)

*Remaining 40 days* Looking forward for more great moments for great memories!

Friends Forever! =)

"I know I'll see you again I'm sure

No, it is not selfish to ask for more

One more night, one more day

One more smile on your face

But they can't never have yesterday..."

-Yesterday by Leona Lewis

Drowning

2011-08-04T18:15:00.002+01:00

"everytime I breathe I take you in

and my heart beats again

baby I can't help it

you keep me

drowning in your love..."

-Drowning by Backstreet Boys

Really drowning right now with all these assignments. They ain't those small assignments; 30, 40, 50-paged report to be done. One due next Wednesday, another on next next Friday and the final one will be the last day of the semester. These exclude the mini assignments, tests and quizzes. *and yet I am so free typing this post right now* But this isn't the post that I want to rant about my busy life. Rather, I use this channel to escape from those commitments for a while.

I hate it when it comes to sleeping time because I can't just fall asleep directly like some people do. It takes so much time for me before drowning into my dreams. I just tend to think and ponder about the days that I have been living through: The choices that I have made. The people that I have interacted with. Have I hurt anyone? What I have said? I have to admit: I am an over-thinker. I guess I shouldn't be so mindful of what I or others have done. Sometimes I just want to let go but it is not easy. It's irony to know that deepest scar is not caused by your worst enemy but is by the one who you thought were your dearest friend. Just saying. :)

*switching subject* Parting is a part of life, no matter among family and friends. No one can stay forever, not just due to the fact they are not immortal. Something will surely pull them away from you. I start to believe that parting is necessary, as it will make you to learn to appreciate one another better and enhance their presences within yourself, even though they are not physically with you. People just tend to grow apart and when they are apart. But not when you carry them in your hearts, and hoping that they will do the same thing, too.

This is so random. Happy weekend!

Ipoh Marathon

2011-07-31T18:00:00.001+01:00

Have to admit, I play a little too hard this semester. Back in Foundation, I would go to Ipoh, like once or twice per month. Come to first year, well, the frequency didn't change much. Second year, still the same. Only when it comes to third year (this year itself), I have been visiting Ipoh nearly every week. Started to go "mamak" late at night... and later, this semester, my nightlife has evolved into much crazier activity... *no further comment* I'm spoiling myself, much?

The marathon started on last Tuesday, when we went Ipoh, sort like a farewell outing for my friend, Shian Ee who will be leaving to US for student exchange program. Upon his returning to Malaysia next year, I will still be away for my internship. When it ends, it will be his turn to leave for internship. I guess the next meet up will be during Convocation 2013! >.<

Anyway, went for dim sum lunch and singing karaoke at KBox. Same old same old. Lol, but the dinner experience was new as we dined at Eurohouse. The environment was completely different from the usual restaurants that I have visited. It was not fine dining but I would describe it as semi-club atmosphere. From 5-11pm (Monday-Thursday), if I am not mistaken, is considered Ladies Night and the girls can have free flow of red wine. -.-

The entrance

My meal: Salmon steak. Not bad. It's worth the price!

Five of us: Shian Ee (in the middle), my very first UTP friend that I am going to miss before leaving for internship. =)

To end the night, we all went watch Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 (second time for me since they have not watched it). It's worth for me to watch it again at cinema. It still touches me. It has been a long time for a movie to capture my heart so deeply since Titanic. The triumph of good over evil, loyalty in love and friendship are well-narrated and beautifully concluded in the finale. Have been googling "Harry Potter" and it is interesting to read them. An official big fan of HP! :)

Wednesday: I didn't really have any intention of going down to Ipoh, AT ALL. For some reason, I just did. I would call it an impromptu visit to ZERO. Stay there for 2 hours. To me, it was not enough lo. Boy, I lose count how many times I have visited the place already. XD

Thursday: Planned the day to watch Captain America. It was not a movie that I am really looking forward to watch. Nevertheless, the movie turns out to be unexpectedly good. The story line is pretty fresh and not a typical superhero movie. The humor is totally out of my expectation. The acting of the featured casts are pretty well done. I was fooled by the director few times in predicting the next scene. Just like when the bad guy holds a kid for hostage and the hero chases after them. When he throws the kid into the water, you would expect the hero to save the kid, forget about the bad guy. THAT'S NOT THE CASE. Okay, no spoiler. Overall, it's worth to watch!

Captain America: The First Avenger!

Friday: The bowling gang of my batch invited me to go play bowling, since they might not be going again for next month since it will be fasting period. Played 6 rounds of bowling and we went to sing karaoke, again. I think I am addicted to rap Super Bass at KBox. We sang the song, twice!

*Boom badoom boom boom*

The day ended by visiting Barrom / Club 9. With different gang of course. But DJ was little sucky, I was damn disappointed. Expected it to be better but...

Okay, that marks the end of my 4-day Ipoh Marathon. I think I am all pumped up for the remaining 4 weeks of the semester! kot..

When I am about to lose hope for my overseas internship placement, an email came in last Thursday and asked me to go for an interview this coming Tuesday. At that instant, I see a little glimpse of hope. Not much, but it's there. There are 20 candidates though, for vacancies in which I am not aware of how many there are. Pray hard for me. I am fighting for this. Wish me luck. It is going to be a life-changing interview. Well, if I get it. Even if I don't get it, I have secured a placement back in my hometown, which is a not bad option either. Let's see how thing goes.

1st August of 2011 signifies the beginning of Ramadhan month for the Muslims. It's time for fasting. Last year's Raya memories still remain in my mind so vividly and didn't realise another year has just passed by. Anyway, wish all my Muslim friends Happy Fasting and God bless you all in this holy month.

4 more weeks before study week commences. Not much time left! Happy August, everyone!

"There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
There can be miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe.."

-When You Believe by Whitney Houston and Mariah Carey

Will You Stay?

2011-07-22T16:19:00.002+01:00

“A true friend never walks away

A true will always stay

A true friend looks out for you”

— A True Friend by Ashley Montgomery

Just now my friend asked me to list down five friends that I think I am closed to, in 10 seconds. He said that there's a theory that I can see myself in these friends. I always believe that when you are closed to someone, somehow or rather, you will assimilate his or her personality, without losing yourself, hoping to keep the friendship longer.

1. I totally understand what kind of life he is going through because I have gone through it myself.

2. I am trying to be open as he does, to tolerate with everyone around me.

3. I wish I can have more fun, like him, to be more positive about life.

4. Only if I can be like him, overlooking all the mistakes in others and still treat them well.

5. I treat my friends seriously, just like how she treats hers.

These are the friends whom I can share everything with because they understand me.

No matter how things change, just promise me that you will stay although we won't get to see one another every day. :)

************

The schedules are getting hectic now. Done with week 9 and now we have another 5 weeks before lecture weeks end. These deadlines are really grueling, a typical norm when it enters the second half of the semester. Talking about industrial training, I have already a placement back in my hometown, at Malaysia Liquefied Natural Gas (MLNG). My dad even suggested that he will bring me along, following his shift, working inside the plant. Been there once, it's damn huge inside. A good exposure since I am interested to major in process plant engineering.

I am not sure if I want to continue to wait for overseas placement though. I mean, most of the positions offered are doing research. I don't want to waste my 7-month of internship on something isn't going to be useful in my future career. Have to admit that one of the main reasons that I am applying for it is to have the chance to step out of Malaysia, for once, to explore the outside world while doing work at the same time. But the jobs offered are not the ones that I want. Boy, am I picky?

Decision is very hard to make. Only if it is as easy as tossing a coin. Both choices have their pros and cons. It's the matter of which outweighs which. Despite of the dilemma, deep down I know what I want. When the time comes, it will manifest itself.

Have a good weekend! :)

Oooh, before I end, due to the busy-ness of life that I am having now. I signed up to Tumblr. This site will be a platform for my brief daily update, since I won't have much time to do writings unless I am free enough as I am now. This blogspot remains for my lengthy thought and My Thought. My World is used when I am too lazy to type. :P

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Friendship Circle

2011-07-17T16:15:00.002+01:00

Have you tried the latest product by Google, none other than Google+? It is very, very similar to Facebook, isn't it? Just that it cannot support third-party applications, I think. So, for those who's on Facebook for "The Weather Report" or "MouseHunt", I guess Google+ might be not for you. Lol, just kidding.

Google+ Homepage

Personally, I like the "Circles" where you can group your contacts into. Circle, personally to me, it means unity. There is no finite edge in a circle. Metaphorically, friendship circle means friendship knows no boundaries, and hopefully, there is no ending. Oh well, that is my point of view though.

Circle of Friendship

Reminiscing my midsem break, I have lots of fun when I went down to KL. Departed on 6th July, in which we nearly missed our ETS, we made our first stop at Midvalley. Went Manhattan Fish Market to have dinner with Chua, Hon and Molly. Boy, it has been such a long time I didn't have my meal there. There is none being opened in Ipoh. *wanted to go Delicious Alexis, actually*

Flames Seafood platter!

For the next 2 days, Wai Choong was my tour guide to explore around KL. The trios (me, him and Yen Hua) visited KL Bird Park as our first agenda on 7th July. Always saw the ad in Travel 3Sixty magazine on AirAsia flight for the past 3 years but never really have the chance to visit it. It's claimed to be the world's largest free-flight walk-in aviary. We were welcomed by I-don't-know-the-name birds which fly around us. There are so many species of birds that I never saw before. Get to see newly-hatched chicks (real chicks) in the incubators. Overall, it was an eye-opening visit. "Ok la~"

The birds were busy having their breakfast.

Entrance of the bird park

Next we moved on to Royal Selangor Pewter Factory. Frankly, I never pay attention to its outlets wherever I saw them around KL. It changed after the visit. I am still in awe to know that some of these items are actually hand-made! Carefully crafted by senior employees whom I really respect their diligence and persistence in making every fine piece of work.

Pewter miniature hornbill

The gigantic mug outside the factory

Cendol and Rojak at Melawati for our high tea before our next destination!

Last stop of the day was Batu Caves. My first-time visiting the place, climbing 272 stairs to reach the top and have a look at the sacred place of Hinduism.

Step 1...

...Step 272

inside Batu Caves

The world tallest statue of Murugan, a Hindu deity

Pigeons!

It was a really "birdy" day, have to say.

Wai Choong's parents brought us out to supper. Get to try the popular local hawker stalls, eating naan. Rested ourselves at his place for one night.

8th July: Wai Choong and his dad brought us to go for hiking at the hill nearby. Due to time constraint, we didn't reach the peak but get to see the pond which happened to be water catchment area (kawasan tadahan hujan).

Nature dam!

Having Yong Tao Foo for lunch (Ampang's famous local cuisine), we spent our evening at Pavilion.

Lingering around until 3pm for our movie, Transformers in 3D!

Not really a fan of Transformers, I find it is a little draggy and the flow is rather sinusoidal. Lol. I guess it takes more than just special effect to impress me but don't get me wrong, I do like the effect. Only if it comes with a better storyline (perhaps better script and acting), I could have loved it a little more.

Last shot at the main entrance

The day ended when I went back to Subang later at night to prepare for my last day of the trip.

9th July, I went to Sunway Pyramid to hang out with another friend of mine, who will be leaving to US soon for student exchange program. Having lunch at Sushi Zanmai, karaoke-ing at Redbox and dinnering at Italiannies. Shopping for clothes but my stylist-friend says not much of the shirts suit me. T.T

Sushi Zanmai is currently my favourite sushi outlet!

Spaghetti & Meatballs at Italiannies! *nyum nyum*

Sze Mei, Shian Ee and me

*clubbing session was canceled. Damn frustrated*

That's the end of my midsem break. It was short but enjoyable.

Get to watch Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part 2 last Friday. I am not much a reader myself so I don't really know how the story ends, actually. Personally, I like this better than Transformer's finale. It goes very well till the end and spells casted by the characters are damn creatively epic. I wonder who could write it any better than JK Rowling. It's a must watch and I don't mind re-watch. I'm suck in doing movie review. -.-

10 years since the first installment of Harry Potter and now it all ends. Time flies.

Week 9 commences tomorrow. Another 2 months before leaving for internship. Going to cherish the remaining time to the maximum before parting. Before the time when I am unable to stay, unwilling to leave~

"I invest my utmost trust and sincerity in our friendship,
hoping you will understand me a little,
but not hurting my feeling."

Zero Point Five

2011-07-10T16:30:00.002+01:00

Half way through my very first May semester in UTP. 4-day midsem break has now come to an end. Even 2-month holidays could just pass by within the blink of an eye, not to mention this petty short break. Nevertheless, the academic-free days were fully utilised to the max as I went down to KL to meet my brother and hang out with my buddies. Enjoyed it very much.

7 weeks of lectures, 9 days of study days and 11 days of exam season, 2 weeks of holidays before leaving for internship. No placement at the moment but I am pretty positive I am getting one back in my hometown, it's only matter of time to get the confirmation. Applying for overseas internship placement as well, I can do nothing but waiting for the news. Be it any kind of news, I just want to receive it. Don't really hope to get one due to the tight competitiveness but what's matter to me is that I am deserved to be considered in getting one.

Reading the news about Bersih Rally which was held yesterday. It is overwhelming to think that I was only 30minutes away from the riot in the heart of KL. The intention of asking for a fair and clean election is a good cause but I am not sure about the rally. Malaysia is a so-called democratic country but to think again, will democracy really work for Malaysia? Just a thought, though. Government rely on people and it is not other way round. People have the right to fight for themselves, wishing there are better ways. Still, I admire the 1Malaysia spirit among the protesters. Despite of the teary gas and water shooting by the police, it's touching to know the protesters of different races were actually united and helping one another to fight for the cause.

Embracing the spirit of 1Malaysia, I am now pumped up for the next half of the semester. =)

Location: KL Bird Park

Ipoh International Run 2011

2011-07-03T11:45:00.001+01:00

I never have the intention to join the run until my friends told me about it. The decision was rather quick and impromptu. The registration process was amusing though since I asked my friends to do it for me. It is not my first time to participate in such long-distance run. Back in high school, I used to represent school for marathon, but never get any placement. Lol, my stamina is not really up-to-date as I rarely train . Somehow, I managed to complete those races without having much complication. Ah well, if I could survive 8 hours of whaling and kayaking during OBS, I guess this 10km run shouldn't be a problem.

Didn't really train much for this run. Registered on Thursday afternoon and the race is only 3 days away. Just went for jogging and swimming 2 days before the event and thought that I am already pumped up to run. Lol. Waking up as early as 4.00am to have my breakfast, we headed towards Stadium Indera Mulia with the feeling of, I don't know, excitement or anxiousness?Didn't really get to sleep well and I was a little concerned I might not be able to sustain the momentum to reach the finishing line.

The crowd at the stadium was overwhelming. Seniors citizens to little children of all races filled up the field. It was not my goal to get any placement. Rather, I would be happy enough if I could complete the race within the time limit. For my category, I need to complete the 10km within 80 minutes in order to get the certificate of achievement. An average of 8minutes per kilometer, I thought it is achievable for an indoor guy like me. Flagged off at 7.05am, the run began.

Completed the first 4 kilometers within 25minutes with non-stop running and started to lose momentum bit by bit. Slowing down, the slow-pace running became fast-pace walking. Accumulated enough momentum before continuing. 2km away from the finishing line, the route became crowded with participants of all categories and this drove me to overtake them and when the start/finish banner was visible, I sprinted all the way till the end and completed the race within 60minutes! A pretty good personal achievement for me. =)

Yen Hua, me and Wai Choong: Completed the race with a smile on our faces!

The whole race is all about being mind over body. Thing you thought is not possible is achievable when you put your mind into it. The thought of accomplishing the race and being positive out of impossibility, that is truly breathtaking.

What an eventful weekend. Now I am looking forward for midsem break!

Life is Beautiful

2011-06-28T05:29:00.005+01:00

Mount Kinabalu's peak!

Location: Kundasang, Sabah

Shoot Me!

2011-06-27T16:20:00.002+01:00

Thought I already get over it after one night sleep. Somehow or rather, I was wrong.

I thought we are friends. Is there any need to hide things from me? You think I will mind or mad or something? I tell you, hiding things from me will make me even madder! I’m tired of people hiding things from me. Lying to me. If you want to lie, if you want to hide, seriously, do it well and don’t let me find out. I will still be stupid enough to not to be mad at you.

Our friendship is nothing, is that it? You make me feel that I am a part but by doing this thing, you disappoint me. It’s funny if you want me to mention what you did. To most people, “aiya, small matter..” but when the so-called small matter accumulates, it ain’t that SMALL anymore. I am kind enough to tolerate once, twice, thrice…. I FEEL SO LEFT OUT.

May be I am too naïve. I guess our friendship is all about having fun ONLY but there is no room to tell the truth.

Is it just me or I always face the same issues again and again every year. It’s my own problem kot but well, at least, I tried to change just to get along, without losing myself.

Till the end of the day, I would prefer to have a friend whom I can pour my heart out and just tell him/her everything. Although it means we won’t spend lots time together, it’s the quality of that particular moment matters. The happiness is at least more genuine.

Just a thought.

p/s If there is something you dislike about me. Seriously, say it. I have been flamed before and I don't mind another shot.

Restart

2011-06-12T11:31:00.002+01:00

Well, it has been a week I am back to my beloved Universiti Teknologi PETRONAS (Petroleum?!). Attended my very first lecture of Engineering, Economics & Entrepreneurship and lecturer was teaching chapter 4. Engineers in Society lecturer happens to be my former Engineering Team Project supervisor (He gives our group an "A", yay!). Process Plant Design lecturer is superb: a master of Separation Process and Reaction Engineering. Malaysian Studies is exactly (or nearly) similar to SPM History but the class was a little turn-off. A Canadian teaches Corporate Communication, the most unusual lecturer ever.

A total of 5 subjects for my first May Semester in UTP, there is no labs and tutorials this time, only lectures, 2-hour lecture. Mostly are conceptual and theory courses, urgh, I can foresee this semester is going to be a hard one for me as I am not really into reading kind of subject. It's not my cup of tea. Hard and boring. Struggles await. I would prefer struggle solving Maths problem rather than punching myself for not being able to memorise the details in the textbook. Seriously.

Anyway, my third year first semester has finally come to an end when the result was released on Thursday (in which supposed to be Wednesday but UTP Registrar was unable to be efficient enough to deal with the registration, add/drop and result at the same time, so....). It's better than I thought, though. It dropped but I am contented enough lo. For the first time ever that getting a "B" can actually make my day. Haha, I am not joking. Maintain in Dean's List, I have to work harder this semester before leaving for internship. (Waa, interns soon! >.<)

Tomorrow will be the actual commencement of Week 1 of this semester. The new season officially begins. =)

*Last Friday was the craziest day ever! Thank you, DJ! XD

Embracing New Season!

2011-06-03T16:30:00.003+01:00

Well, I guess it is not an appropriate term for me to use since I have been skipping lectures for the past 2 weeks (New semester starts on 23rd May. What's the date today again? Oh, it's 3rd June! XD). One week holiday, seriously, after going through lectures for 14 weeks and 2 weeks of exam season, students will definitely be worn out at the end. The worst part is that the result is yet to be released and new semester commences. In the need of proper closure before new semester begins! -.-

On the other note, the new implemented trimester system that my Uni is having makes the time flies a little faster this year. Woots, it's already the month of June. 5 months of 2011 passed by, just like that. Another semester to go and I will be having industrial training (i.e. interning). As much as I am looking forward for this October, this whole interning-stuff always reminds me that I am nearly at the end of studies in UTP (for undergraduate, at least) as final year follows when intership period is over. That's the end of next year. (21 December 2012, the world comes to an end, huh? "Habis lah, tak sempat habiskan study. Apatah lagi konvo?" lol )

The fact that I am already turning 21 is still unbelievable because I don't act like one. Very, very young at heart. Like what they say, you can't stop growing old but growing up is optional. The older you get, most of the things you can easily ignore when you were younger, hardly can be ignored at this phase. Ah well, ignorance is bliss, right? I second that statement with a risk, which is it does not always yield desirable result as you expect it to be. It might worsen due to your own utter ego to let it be and eventually spells disasters. I am speaking in general, though.

January 2011 Semester, in my opinion, didn't really go well as I thought it would be, in the beginning. Going through several emotional turmoils and dilemma till mid-semester. There were things I did those I regretted and learned that how much I have hurt people without the intention to do so. I did things with good intentions but I guess the implementations were poorly conducted or worst, the wrong method. In the end, I was the one who did most mistakes (I felt sorry for doing them) and yet, I was still the one who were being hurt the most. It's a lonely feeling when you are feeling so fragile and defenseless. Low point in life, it's inevitable.

Nevertheless, things turn out to be getting better towards the end of the semester, which is something I don't really expect them to be. It's a good thing, I presume. Despite of the loneliness that I had once in a while, I can only feel contented for what I have, instead of feeling down for things that I have not. Gotta find the meaning of life to move on. If there is nothing to look forward to in life, then what's the point of living? =)

Oh well, enough ranting. I am returning to my campus tomorrow. Hope that I can cope with the studies that I have left behind for 2 weeks and plus, I am taking 5 subjects. That's a lot of classes that I have missed! >.<

Before I ended this post, let's recap some of my favourite moments for previous semester:

Celebrated Chinese New Year in KL with my brother. Get to meet new friends.

In front of pavilion.

Visited Wai Choong's house, the only house I visited this year. To add, I am the first UTPian to visit his house for CNY. lol

My last event in UTP of being a part of organising committee: 6th Malaysian Chem-E-Car Competition

Me with my committees. Ceremony and Protocol Department

Celebrated 21st Birthday with my twin!

Mu'ez and me!

The best birthday celebration in UTP ever. Well, not totally in UTP. The day started on the dance floor and followed by treated lunch and few games of bowling. The final agenda (I thought it was) was celebration at Pizza Hut, Batu Gajah, in conjunction with Chem-E-Car appreciation. To end the day, both of us were splashed with F&N Grape drink. Lol, the chain of events of that day still remains vividly in my memory. :)

Last but not least, I went back to my long house for Gawai after didn't make it for the previous years. The flight on 22nd May was worth to be missed. lol

Me with my dear long house (not really long though, only 7 rooms).

Selamat ari gawai ngagai kaban belayan bak serta dunya! Gayu guru gerai nyamai. Oo.... ha!

Reflecting the past, setting new targets, new burning positive spirit, I am going to embrace this new season with a blast, in which was delayed for 2 weeks. lol

My friends in UTP, see ya~

Gaga's Haters and JLo

2011-05-21T16:35:00.004+01:00

All little monsters (just in case you don't know, little monsters refer to Gaga's fans, in which they call her as Mother Monster. I am not sure whether I am a little monster. lol) surely anticipate her upcoming third album, Born This Way which will be out on 23rd May 2011, that is on Monday! Few singles were released earlier prior to the release of the album which include "Born This Way", "Judas" and "The Edge of Glory". "Judas" is currently my favourite track of the album. The music video is super brilliant. It is a masterpiece and the supremacy can't never be challenged. Lol, that's going overboard.

The album cover is little disturbing though. She is really into darkness images lately but her music is still rockin'.

One thing I don't like about Gaga is her haters. Been reading the comments on YouTube, Facebook and any other websites. Those rootless accusations really disgust me. They all call her names, saying her worshipping satan, mocking religion (Christianity in particular) bla bla bla. From wearing meat dress to using fake blood as prop for her performances. She really likes to trigger controversy by producing songs like "Judas" or her "Alejandro" music video which include the symbolism of religion. The most common one is Lady Gaga claims to be an Illuminati puppet, as one of her popular gesture is showing the "All Seeing Eye" by covering one of her eyes.

Seriously, Gaga is still dust in God's eye, just like everyone (well, to those who believe in God). Why would anyone getting so intimidated by her if they have real faith in God? Since when we can judge someone whether he/she will go to hell? That's God's job, not us. I really can't stand seeing these comments pop up. These haters are just plain LAME, trying to get attention by posting such comments. These are the real attention whores. Gaga, well, I never deny the fact she is an attention b***h but she does it beautifully. Lol. I see Gaga as a great entertainer. I enjoy her metaphoric music which can be so inspiring. By the way, haters keep on saying she's copying Madonna. I mean, where's Madonna? I didn't hear she's complaining. Another thing what I like about Gaga is she never lip-sync when performing, which makes her a REAL entertainer, which happens to write or co-write her own songs as well. =D

This makes me ponder though. No matter how sweet you are like Taylor Swift, how decent like Celine Dion, how innocent like Justin Bieber, they all have one thing in common. They all have haters. So, I guess Gaga realises the fact that no matter what she does, there are groups of people will always be displeased. So, she pushes a little beyond the limit to do what she likes, in which I happen to enjoy them. Paws up! (")('')

I miss this Gaga. Though.

It's the new generation..

Of party people...

Let me introduce you..

To my party people..

In the club...

Lol, this happens to be the intro of one my favourite JLo's songs. Not really a fan of JLo. The truth is that her songs barely made any hits previously, in my opinion. That has changed when her latest single, "On The Floor" was released 2 months ago. Incorporating latin beats and with a sample of "Lambada", this video has garnered more than 150millions views currently, surpasses Gaga's "Born This Way" which was released about the same time, earlier actually. This song makes me wanna go club! XD

On the other note, she still looks incredible in her 40's. Having 2 children, she is a truly hot mama. LOL. Her vocal is really not that powerful but she definitely can sing. Tracks from her Love? album are quite good, I would say. "I'm Into You" and "Papi" have that catchy beats that keep me hooked!

Other than Gaga and JLO, I have this another song keeps wondering in my mind.

"Boom Boom Boom Boom Boom....."

Presenting...

NICKI MINAJ - SUPER BASS!

Hehee, enjoy!

p/s I can't adjust the snap shot, I think...

Have a nice day! =)

*Enjoying my semester break and won't be back to UTP that soon although new sem starts on Monday. I am being a bad boy now. Quoting from Dr. Nurul, my dearest TP lecturer. :)

**Waiting for the time to unleash all these....

Happy Mother's Day

2011-05-07T21:27:00.003+01:00

My laptop crashed a while ago. When I restarted my laptop and Window Media Player, it randomly played "Mama" by Spice Girls. Lol, I guess my Window Vista is aware of its surrounding.

"Back then I didn't know why

Why you were misunderstood

So now I see through your eyes

All that you did was love

Mama I love you.

Mama I care..

Mama I love you .

Mama my friend.

You're my friend~"

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO MY BELOVED MOM

and to all the great mama in the world.

May all of you be blessed with

joys and happiness

with the loved ones.

I like this photo of my mom. She sits there just like a queen, queen of the family. ♥

Currently in exam mode. I have so much to share for the past happenings. Stay tune for juicy updates! Lol, all the best to all who are taking exams. See ya!

With much love,

Steward

*Currently in love with Jennifer Lopez! #jlo

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My Heart Will Go On

2011-04-24T20:39:00.005+01:00

“It’s been 84 years.

I can still smell the fresh paint.
The china had never been used.
The sheet had never been slept in….”

Remember these lines? Well, perhaps the next line will stir up your memory a bit..

“I’M THE KING OF THE WORLD!”

Late evening yesterday, for some reason, when my player randomly played “My Heart Will Go On” (it always does, lol), I just remembered how the song has always been so soothing every time I am listening to it for the past 14 years, and still counting. Compared to songs released nowadays, the popular original soundtrack of Titanic will never get old.

Was chatting with a friend and talking about childhood. Just like any other normal people, I have my own personal preference of cartoons/series. I watched Power Rangers, Dragon Ball, Doraemon etc. Those were the times when I need not to worry about the world. When I was younger, I wish I could be a grown-up in no time. At this point of time, how much I wish the time would have passed by a bit slower back then. Anyway, back to the story, among all these things, the most vivid childhood memory would be the time when I fall for “My Heart Will Go On”, my very first love and still is. I remembered the time I always sing this song every night before I sleep. I still remembered when I always play with my toy as “Titanic” and sing the song along. Lol.

One of my favourite scenes in the movie: the sinking

First time watching the movie when I was 9, the perception changes when I grow older. Back then I might feel “eeew” as there are so many kissing scenes between Jack and Rose. Watching it now (in which I just did), I view it from other perspectives, in a more matured way. Humanity. Friendship. Loyalty. Love. How far you can go to preserve these? Does the fictional love story of Jack and Rose really exist? Does true love exist? By the way, I always come across this line, “If you really love him/her, let him/her go.” What say you?

Titanic, a fusion of historical fascinating actual event and forbidden unstoppable fictional love story are basically the reasons why I love this movie. TITANIC FOREVER!

And I just love the soundtracks! All of them.

Okay, move on to my next agenda for this post. This month is coming to an end and this is my second post. I was so caught up in many things and I didn’t really have the urge to blog. I have so much wanted to share but too little time (or maybe I don’t feel like sharing them now. May they eternalize in my memories). It is coming to the end of this semester. It’s 14th week already! How time flies!

Eventful semester it has been. So many happenings when the semester commenced 13 weeks ago. It didn’t really start nicely. When I was going through half of this period, it didn’t really go well either. Fully recovered (or still recovering) from these has slowly changed me, in some ways. I really learned big lessons from the mistakes that I have done. I’m not putting something that is so dearly precious to me in jeopardy again for very stupid mistakes. Sometimes I whined why these bad moments hit me but these were the times that actually make me to be stronger each day. Good moments, I am thankful for them and it is something that I’m looking forward to keep me living. Sometimes I hold on. Other times, I choose to let go and move on. I did and I feel great.

Life is short, eh? Don’t waste it. Grab every opportunity offered and don't let them slip away.

I shall stop right here. Let’s see how this very last week ends. =)

*I am not in the position to judge people. Everyone is. We observe. We hear what people do but we can just talk about it. Or maybe we shouldn’t.

Hiatus

2011-03-23T12:05:00.003Z

Miss you people!

Will be back to blogging soon! =)
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Sabah Trip (Part 2)

2011-01-18T16:55:00.005Z

**There is quite a number of photos in this entry. Slow internet connection may lead to slow loading of this post. You have been warned. Lol.

For previous trip, click here: Sabah Trip (Part 1)

Day 1 (3 January 2011)

Using 1.30pm bus departed from Bintulu and reached Miri around 5.00pm. Oh, the bus actually delayed for 20 minutes, I just remembered. Bus journey from Bintulu to Miri is typically 3 hours but if you drive there by your own car, it can be less than 2 hours! Lawrence came and picked me up at the station. Resting for a while at his home and we went to Merdeka Mall, a newly-opened mall in Miri. The main supermarket there is Tai Kiong. A lot of food franchises that I never come across like Chicago Chicken (I think) and oh, only that I remembered clearly. Stopped by at Starbucks before heading back.

Day 2

Flight at 10.55am, Lawrence brought me to an Indian-Muslim cafe to have our breakfast. Boarding time at 10.20am and it's time to fly. Using Air Asia and the journey is only 25 minutes to reach Kota Kinabalu. At the airport, I was greeted by Fazlee with an envelope in his hand welcoming me. Lol. We stayed home for the whole day.

Day 3

We went to Kompleks Yayasan Sabah or also known as "Menara Tun Mustapha". Tun Mustapha is being remembered as the pioneer of the development for the state of Sabah. Visited the gallery which portrays his lifetime achievement.

The iconic building of Sabah

View from bottom

Tun Mustapha Gallery

Having our lunch at the 18th floor of the tower, a revolving restaurant, @mosphere restaurant. Bad timing I guess, the restaurant only revolves at certain time period. If I am to recall it correctly, it is 12.3opm-1.30pm, 3.30pm-4.30pm and 7.30pm-8.30pm. We reached there around 1.20pm, only get to experience 10 minutes of it. Well, it is better than none at all. The lunch is buffet style and only costs RM18.00++ per pax. It's reasonable.

A glimpse inside the restaurant

The entrance towards the building

View from our table

Day 4

Umi~~~

Visited the popular beach in KK, Tanjung Aru Beach. Too bad the weather was very cloudy, couldn't see the sunset. Very windy but the waves weren't that great.

Walking along the beach till the day gets dark and have a break at the food court nearby. The ABC, didn't really suit my liking though. I am just saying.

Get to see the traditional dance performance at the nearby mini stage. Apparently, there will be free show on certain days and we went on the right day. Have to say, it is kinda similar to what we have here in Sarawak.

Bamboo dance, I think.

Day 5 (7.1.2011)

Highlight of the trip. Going to Kundasang to have a view of Kinabalu peak.

Stopped by at Pekan Nabalu, a place where you can buy souvenirs, range from shirts, caps to key chains.

Litte township of Nabalu

We stayed at Celyn Resort which located all the way on the hill. As far as I am concerned, there are two types of accommodation, Valley Wing and Kinabalu Wing. We chose Kinabalu wing which costs RM200 per night. The room is smaller than we thought but the facilities provided are satisfying, I guess.

Celyn Resort

We are surrounded by the green environment The view of the green valley is really breathtaking.

Can you notice the falling rain in this picture?

View from the corridor

Our room number

Covered by thick mist or cloud, the atmosphere really chills. Both of us can't help but to be couch potato nearly the whole day: sleep, watch TV and the cycle repeats.Oh, I remembered we watched Enchanted that night. Lol!

View during evening time

Oh, blackout occurs at night in which I think it is done on purpose. Well, they need not air-conditioners there and we think that we were one of the only two occupants at the resort for that day.

By the way, it was the 21st birthday of my tour guide, who is also my dearest friend. =)

Day 6

Wake up at 5.30am and slowly, I get to see the peak of Mt. Kinabalu for very first time at 6.00am.

5.45am

6.00am

6.30am

It is quite a distance from our resort but for first-timer, it is good enough, I guess. This view is only available for one hour in a day, from 6.00am - 7.00am. After 7.00am, it will be gone covered by the cloud again until the next day.

After 7.00am..

At 11.00am, we were picked up by Fazlee's dad who came with his colleague and their family. We went visited Kinabalu Park which unfortunately was closed for some sort of maintenance the other day. In the end, we just took more photos at the entrance of the park.

Entrance of Kinabalu Park

Me & my dearest tour guide

Stopped by Kundasang Market and I bought strawberries for home.

Day 7

I choose this day to have my shopping spree around KK city. Bought a pair of new shoes, one cargo paints and a pair of shirts. Also, souvenirs for family who are expecting them all the way from home.

Day 8

We were out for nature adventure again. This time we went to Poring Hot Spring which is around 3 hours away from the city. Well, the name of the place speaks for itself of what it's famous for.

Natural boiled water

Public bath, in which gives you the chance to experience the nature heater

Also, it is popular for its canopy walk. For those who are fear of height are not advisable to give it a try but if you ask me, it isn't really that tall at all. Perhaps the shakiness of the suspension bridge gives you the fright, not the height.

I am fortunate enough to get to see the blooming Rafflesia , the biggest flower in the world. It's a rare opportunity to come close to this fauna as it only blooms for 7 days after budding for more than 9 months.

Rafflessia bud

Blooming Rafflesia

After it dies..

Day 9

Last day of the trip. Coincidentally, result was out on the same day. Perfect timing for retail therapy as we hang out at 1Borneo. Grand finale of the vacation. Lol.

One of my favourite malls throughout Malaysia!

Second purchase of Starbucks drink after 3pm get 50% off. Double joy of the day!

Take a snap of toilet which requires RM1 to get in. The so-called VIP toilet.

Day 10

Flight at 12.00pm to Miri, touched down at 12.35pm. Picked up by Chrispian and met Serena with his friend, which become a new friend of mine, Jason. So yea, we hang out for a day in Miri. I planned to go back home on this day itself, but somehow persuaded to stay for a night. Played Monopoly Deal for very first time. I forgot the name of the place we hang out that night but it is next to the club, Cherry Berries with loud music playing. Frankly, I was tempted to go in. -.-

Day 11

Visited Taman Awam Miri for very first time. Pathetic me, been to Miri for so many times but I never have the chance to go there.

Later in the afternoon, we (me, Serena and Lim) left Miri around 3.oopm and finally reached home around 5.30pm. Oh, Jason drove us back and he is really, really a good driver.

That's the end of this entry. It took me 2 days to complete it, with all those photos together. Wonder when will be my next adventure. Anyway, it was a great time with great friends! =D

Emo!

2011-01-13T16:28:00.008Z

I found this pic from Google Images and it links to another blog. But I guess the pic speaks for itself where it originates.

SilentDark.net

Haha, I guess that is one of very first impressions of my friends around me, University friends at least because my high school friends never think so. May be I really become "emo" after entering UTP. -_-

Nah, the content of this post is nothing to do with it. In fact, just want to briefly update my current status. Lol. I just got home around 5.30pm yesterday (it has passed 12 midnight when I am typing this) after being away for more than 10 days. Have been traveling to Miri and Sabah (Kota Kinabalu particularly, for second time). Details later. Experiencing post-vacation effect, keep on thinking why is the time passed by so fast during good times and it creeps incredibly slow during bad times? It is just a game of the mind, I presume and I can do nothing about it. Haih..

It has been 2 weeks ever since new year starts and I'm leaving home in another 8 days time, to be exact is next Saturday. My holiday is coming to an end and hate to think about it but I have to face it still. Very first chapter of my life for this year has unfolded and so far so good. I won't expect things will stay calm for long time. Nevertheless, I need to be contented for what I have now. Life is unpredictable. I have learnt to expect the worst before going through the worst. Looking forward sometimes can be quite hurtful as thing may not turn out the way you want it to and subsequently, you are devastatingly disappointed. So, sometimes, need not looking waaay forward. It's a no-no pessimistic thought, I think.

Okay, this has sounded a bit "emo". Heck!

Sneak preview of my vacation.

Mount Kinabalu peak is behind it! =D

(but... no surprise la really since all of you how it is like already.)

Something to share.

This was a very famous Akita dog in Japan back 1n 1930's. It was not the skills that make him famous. It was loyalty to his master that leads to remembrance of him. He always waited for his master's return at train station and this has become a part of his routine. Even after his master death, he still continued to do so for 9 years, waiting for his master until he died. His name is Hachiko. Apparently, an American movie is made inspired by this true story.

Never seen it released in Malaysian's cinema. Wanna watch!

Dog can be this loyal. Can human do it too..?

Bye Bye, 2010

2010-12-31T09:08:00.006Z

Time passed by like nobody's business. Year 2010 is coming to an end. It has been a good year, I think. Well, as what they say, all good things must come to an end. I guess that's because better things are going to start, eh?

Eventful year it was. Kicked off the year by visiting Sabah for the very first time. I was in my sophomore year in UTP. Joined most events this year (1 Malaysia Chinese New Year, Red Sonata Fiesta, Photofest, The Chronicler, Convofair). Secretary of ELC and Choir Management Team. A part of ELC Singing Team, Flamin' Lips. A bass performer in UTP Choir Group. Performed in Convocation Ceremony for very first time. First time being pranked by friends on my birthday. First time have my own Baju Raya. First time been to Lumut, for the sake of OBS. A lot of first times. All those were good times.

Not to mention there were some bad times. Worst was when my beloved Aunty passed away on 19 June 2010. I still hard to believe that my dear aunt has gone forever. Sometimes, when I have sudden thought of it, I will always be disturbed and remind me how fragile the life is. Nothing else I can do except immortalizing the memories in my mind and hoping it won't fade.

Good times. Bad times. They are now history. Some are worth to be remembered. Some should be forgotten to move on. Self ponder a lot during this holiday. Frankly, there was not even a single time I was hit by boredom. Been reflecting of what I have done throughout the year. Humans are imperfect. We make mistakes from time to time. That's okay, as long as you admit what you have done and promise to improve yourself next time.

A whole new chapter of my life is going to commence soon. It will start by my dearest brother leaving to Petaling Jaya tomorrow, pursing his dream in becoming a chef. Hope he does well there. All I can do is to give him my full support. =)

With this, I end this post and wish you all Happy New Year!

HELLO, HELLO

2011!

Bonamana

2010-12-28T15:05:00.005Z

Bonamana

(Nal barabwara)

Ddanddaranddan, ddanddaranddan, ddanddaranddan, ddadaddarabba

[Siwon] Neon alggamalgga alggamalgga neomu yebbeun miinah

Nal michyeotdago malhaedo nan niga jotda miinah

[Heechul] Nuga jeonhaejweo my baby, to my baby naega yeogi itdago malya

Gidalinda malya (Baby, you turn it up now)

[Kyuhyun] Neon, gatabuta, gatabuta mal jom haera miinah

Ni maeumeul gajyeotdamyeon geunyang naneun salmyi winner

[Yesung] I sesangyi ichiran, ichiran, yonggi itneun jareul ddara

Na gateun nom malya

[Ryeowook] Ye male say, yeol beon jjigeumyeon neomeoganda

Eusseug, eusseug, eusseug

[Sungmin] Geunyeoneun gangjeok ggeuddeogeobtda

Bbijjug, bbijjug, bbijjug.

[Ryeowook + Sungmin] Nan eoddeogargga eoddeogargga geunyeomani

Nae gwansimin geol, geol, geol

Bounce to you, bounce to you,

Nae gaseumeun neol hyanghae jabil sudo

Eobseul mankeum ddwigo itneungeol

Break it down to you, down to you,

Nae gaseumi neo, neol gajji

Motandamyeon meomchul georanda (nal barabwara)

Borggamargga, borggamargga, borggamargga na gateun namja

Bonchemanche, bonchemanche, bonchemanche doraseo bwado

Bogobwado, bogobwado, bogobwado na bagge eobtda

Bonamana, bonamana, bonamana (Baby, you turn it up now)

[Donghae] Mweol sargga, sargga, sargga, sargga neoreul wihan seonmul

O, michigetda. Saenggakman haedo joahal ni moseub

[Kyuhyun] Listen girl [Donghae] Joahae

[Kyuhyun] Baby girl [Yesung] Saranghae

[Kyuhyun] Namani neoreul wihan namja

[Yesung] Deureojweo bwa neoreul hyanghan gobaek

[Ryeowook] Nae mamyi say, aeman taeuji malgo jebal

Ggeudeok, ggeudeok, ggeudeok

[Sungmin] I noryeok jeongdomyeon narado guhae

Giteuk, giteuk, giteuk

[Ryeowook + Sungmin] Nan eoddeogarago, eoddeogarago geunyeomani

Nae jeonbuin geol, geol, geol

Bounce to you, bounce to you,

Nae gaseumeun neol hyanghae jabil sudo

Eobseul mankeum ddwigo itneungeol

Break it down to you, down to you,

Nae gaseumi neo, neol gajji

Motandamyeon meomchul georanda (nal barabwara)

Borggamargga, borggamargga, borggamargga na gateun namja

Bonchemanche, bonchemanche, bonchemanche doraseo bwado

Bogobwado, bogobwado, bogobwado na bagge eobtda

Bonamana, bonamana, bonamana na bagge eobtda

[Leeteuk] Nan deudyeo michilgeoya. Pogbarhae beoril geoya

[Heechul] Deo mot chamgesseo geunyeomanyi milgo danggigi

[Eunhyuk] O jinjja michilgeoya Nuga jom malryeobwa bwa

[Siwon] Ireoke himdeul georan geol nuga marhaesseoyaji

[Ryeowook] (It's) True, true nae gamjeongeun gal gosi eobseo

Nege majchweo beoringeol neon jal aljanni

[Kyuhyun] How to keep loving you?

Naega jinjja nege jaralge idaero nal sseogyeo dujima

[Yesung] Gidarinda Miina!

[Shindong] Hope you'll step to me, step to me

[Yesung] Saranghanda Miina!

[Shindong] Bring it, sign to me, sign to me

Hahahaha hahahahaha

[Ryeowook] Geunyeoga imi nal barabol

[Kyuhyun] Junbiga dwae isseotna bwa

Bounce to you, bounce to you

Nae gaseumeun neol hyanghae jabil sudo

Eobseul mankeum ddwigo itneungeol

Break it down to you, down to you,

Nae gaseumi neo, neol gajji

Motandamyeon meomchul georanda (nal barabwara)

Borggamargga, borggamargga, borggamargga, na gateun namja

Bonchemanche, bonchemanche, bonchemanche, doraseo bwado

Bogobwado, bogobwado, bogobwado, na bagge eobtda

Bonamana, bonamana, bonamana, na bagge eobtda

For translation in English, check this site.

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Have been YouTubing a lot recently and checking on Korean musics. After being introduced into several groups such as SNSD, Super Junior etc by my friends and brother, I go search and find more. Lol, I am instantly hooked. =D

I guess I can't resist this great wave from Korea. It is truly an overwhelming phenomenon. Although we don't understand the language, it doesn't stop us from enjoying their music. Korean Pop (or K-Pop) is quite happening at the moment, I guess. Some of these singers manage to achieve international success. Apparently, language is not a barrier for them.

Currently listening to Super Junior's and SNSD's. Bonamana is my new addiction. ^^

Super Junior

p/s There is just one particular member in this group, who is not given a solo part. He just sings along in the chorus part and dance in the music video. This happens in few other songs too. Hmm...

I Look To You

2010-12-19T12:47:00.001Z

I Look To You (Original singer: Whitney Houston)

As I lay me down,

Heaven hear me now.

I'm lost without a cause

After giving it my all.

Winter storms have come

And darkened my sun.

After all that I've been through

Who on earth can I turn to?

I look to you.

After all my strength is gone,

In you I can be strong

I look to you.

And when melodies are gone,

In you I hear a song.

I look to you.

About to lose my breathe,

There's no more fighting left,

Sinking to rise no more,

Searching for that open door.

And every road that I've taken

Lead to my regret.

And I don't know if I'm going to make it.

Nothing to do but lift my head

I look to you.

And with all my strength is gone,

In you I can be strong

I look to you.

And when melodies are gone,

In you I hear a song.

I look to you.

My levees are broken

Walls come down

Tumbling down on me

The rain is falling.

Defeat is calling.

I need you to set me free.

Take me far away from the battle.

I need you.

Shine on me.

I look to you.

After all my strength is gone,

In you I can be strong

I look to you.

And when melodies are gone,

In you I hear a song.

I look to you.

A powerful vocal performance by Amber Riley, who acts as Mercedes in Glee.

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Third week of holidays has ended, this weekend arrives sooner than I thought. This week passed me by surprisingly faster compared to the first 2 weeks. I guess I have good time, eh? Exactly another 5 weeks of break to go.

Watched Narnia with my brothers last Friday.

The movie was alright. Not really a Narnia fan but the story goes pretty well and it doesn't bore me till the end. The only thing bothers me is the cinema itself.

1. It was so dark inside and the seat numbers couldn't be seen.

2. The air-conditioner was not functioning well. It was warm inside the hall.

3. The sound system failed. -_-

4. The ticket price is freaking nine bucks! That's expensive.

But I guess, watching movie in cinema is not really a popular leisure activity in this small town and that explains the poor maintenance of the cinema. I am quite surprised that the cinema still can hold on for that long without going bankrupt.

Saw a blog post commented on Bintulu the other day. This particular blogger says that this town sucks and boring to him. Well, for a guy who used to the luxury life of the city, sorry to say that this town can't always fulfill his needs. For locals, we have been living this way as long as we can remember. We don't have bowling alley. We don't have high-end coffee shops. Certain brand shops are not available. Poor road conditions. We do have lots of pubs and lounge though. lol. The thing is we are used to this already.

Bintulu is progressing, slowly and it's only matter of time that this little town to be really developed. But frankly, sometimes I do miss the old Bintulu because that is what hometown really means to me. Well, change is inevitable, isn't it?

On the other note, Christmas is fast approaching, which falls on coming Saturday. Wah, another 2 weeks 2010 is coming to an end. My dear time, you have been running at a great pace this year, I would say. Anyway, let's set up our christmas tree and celebrate this festive seasons! =D

Before I end, just a random sharing. I watched E! and come across this celebrity.

At first glance, I thought she is Angelina Jolie but apparently, she's not. They do have close resemblance though. Her name is Kelly LeBrock, a popular celebrity back in 80's. Money can't buy beauty, huh? Oh wait, plastic surgery? Lol.

Come across this site where the celebrities aged. This is the list of the stars who don't age well.

Hurm, I know I am legally above 18 but I guess Google Images has to filter the result of the searches. -_-

**A complete ignorance is not the best remedy but at least it is good enough. It is true that wound will heal as time passes but what remains is the scar. Sometimes when have a sudden thought of it, even though just a little, the pain comes back and it usually ends in tears.

Otaku?

2010-12-14T07:32:00.007Z

Downloading series for free, too good to be true, isn't it? There's a price to pay. Wanted to catch up with the new season of Glee and Vampire Diaries, but it takes days just to download one 40-minute episode. It's just like it takes months to have your savings but you can just spend it all in one go. What an analogy. -_-

While waiting (and waiting, and waiting the series to be fully downloaded, one episode at a time), I switch my mode for anime instead. I can download a full season of anime (12 episodes usually) within one day for free and have been watching several series at the moment which comprises both on-going and completed ones.

1. Fortune Arterial

This is one of the on-going anime with another 2 episodes on its way. It is about a student named Hasekura enters a school in which he finds out that the president and vice president of the student council are vampires. Not a horror anime but it's more to romance genre. Looking forward for its ending. My current favourite anime.

2. The World God Only Knows

A game addict who makes contract with a demon from hell (too cute to be a demon, I would say. -_-) to capture loss souls which are trapped in girls. He has to make the girls fall for him in order to release them. Another on-going anime.

3. B Gata H Kei

Completed anime series and done watching. It is about a 15 years old female student, Yamada on the quest in finding, erm, sex partners. lol! Very hilariously explicit. It is an "ecchi" kind of anime.

... and few more on their ways into my laptop. *waiting for glee and vampire diaries as well*

Have to say, I have been indulging myself with eastern (way to the east) entertainment a lot lately although I don't get what they say/sing, most of the time. lol

It's already third week of holidays, another 5 weeks to go. Yeehaa~ I am loving the holidays and Christmas is approaching!

Oh!

2010-12-04T12:40:00.001Z

Oh, it is already 4th December, the very last month of this year. I have been saying this repetitively but yeah, time flies. Another 27 days, year 2010 is coming to an end. Frankly, I am not looking forward for 2011, yet. There are just so many happenings: Engineering Team Project (ETP), Industrial Training and most importantly, my brother is going to embark his new journey in university this coming 2nd January, which falls on his 19th birthday. That's a lot in one year. =S

Oh, talking about ETP, that means I will be in my junior year in 2011. Sophomore year, was, erm, a bit disastrous for me, in term of everything. I involved in quite a number of events for the past 2 semesters and put my studies in jeopardy. I considered myself quite lucky for being able to maintain my performance, I guess, for the first semester. I am not sure about the recent semester though. I can only cross my fingers. Next year, it will be my forth year in UTP. Wonder if I could relive my high school days?

Oh, this semester break will be my last longest break ever. I mean, a real last one as for the next 2 years, I won't be having any long break due to the 7 months internship and this continues until the end of degree studies, which will be in the end of December 2012. Hopefully, I will get a proper job after my graduation. I don't think there is any company gives you that long leave, do they? Well, unless I am a woman, there is a chance of 2-month break if I get pregnant and have a maternity leave. Lol, that's random.

Oh, thanks to my brother, I have been listening to Korean songs ever since I am home. I used to listen to Wonder Girls but apparently, they are not out with any new singles yet. For now, I switch my mode for Girls' Generation instead. This song was released in the beginning of this year. The title of this post, that's the song I am listening to. Very catchy and undoubtedly, the singers are cute. Last time it was "Gee" that brings me to them. I guess they are good with one-word-title song. Lol.

Sexy outfits but not the hair.

Oh, on the other note, Western music nowadays are more into hip hop and clubbing kind of songs which are not really cup of my tea (I do miss clubbing, lol). Seeking for soothing ballad music. Been listening to Katy Perry's now, though. I am not really looking at her when she released her first single, which was "I Kissed A Girl" and I was like, urgh. Apparently, she just gets better. Her new album totally changes my impression towards her. "Firework" is the current addiction.

Snapshot of the music video: Firework out of her chest. -_-

Oh, I am back in playing The Sims 2. My "The Sims 3", apparently is the earliest version and I can't install the expansion packs and it's not free to upgrade it. Of course, I can get the pirated one but, erm, I am just lazy. Lol. But, my brothers managed to install the expansion packs for the previous edition of The Sims and currently playing it. So many features to be explored. So yeah, occupying my time by playing game.

It's snowing. Happy December! Merry Christmas in advance.

Oh, the plan for this semester break is basically to gain weight. Seriously. Trying to expand my appetite and eat more than I usually do. It is easy for some but not for me. =S

I guess that's about all for now. I blog less and less nowadays and I only blog when I am bored and yeah, when I am emo but this is not an emo post. Bad thing though, all people around me think that I am a strongly emotional person due to my posts. To think again, I don't post that much, do I? Occasionally, once in a blue moon, I am experiencing the low point of my life. I guess everyone does. Don't lie. =)

Oh, this marks the eighth "oh" for this blog. Simply, that's the number of "Oh" in last part of the song. Lol, bye for now.

And oh, Happy Holidays! That's ninth.

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

ppareul saranghae

Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah

manhi manhihae

*It was the darkest time in my life. Ironically, that was also the time for me to realise the source of brightness, which always makes my day brighter than the midday sun. I am not going to let it go away.

Time & Space

2010-11-19T15:56:00.003Z

I'm kinda devastated.

I was fine until I get a call.

I'm so disturbed right now.

My EQ really sucks, at the moment.

Can't really take hurtful words.

It's worst when it is from someone that you love.

I just activate my Facebook few days ago.

Hoping for a positive turning point.

Well, I guess not.

Deactivate it.

Once again.

Not to escape.

Just to give me more time and space,

to ponder.

What have I really done wrong?

I take this as a test from God.

For me to learn.

To be better.

To be stronger.

Life is just so vague, is it not?

Pikachu!

2010-11-15T16:33:00.003Z

Bored of studying. So...

-_-

In remembrance of the creator of Pokemon, Takeshi Shudo.

Separation Process 2

2010-11-13T08:18:00.003Z

I wonder how many times I have revised my study timetable again and again. I guess the current timetable that I have now is the third time I rearranged it. This is simply because I can't really discipline myself to follow it. Or rather, the timetable just acts as an comforting agent to calm me down so that I won't get stressed easily when the exam is approaching. As I mentioned in previous post, it just to make me feel that I have enough time to study, although not really so. -.-

Separation Process 2, one of the core subjects for this semester. I have all the energy and momentum to study until just now. I guess I just reached my limit and my mind is now saturated with those concepts. Referring to the so-called summary provided by our lecturer, it makes thing worst. It is a real summary of everything of what she has taught. It is not even tips or anything. Giving me false hope. -_-

I wonder why she loves the theory part that much since she included in both of our tests and I screwed up both. Somehow I do believe the reason she is doing this is to make us read everything, rather than just targeting certain subtopics to score in the subject. To a certain extent, I agree with this because my principle in studying is to read everything, whether being tested or not, because that is the main purpose of the education, is it not? My two cents. The only issue is that she allocates quite high weightage on theory while setting the questions. This one, I don't agree. >.<

Mumbling here to kill my time since the mood of studying is not around. And to express my dissatisfaction. I guess the most free time to update blog is during this period, huh?

Using my roomie laptop to update this blog. Asides from deactivating my facebook, I am putting my laptop away as well. "Crazy kah?" my friend responded. I really need to reduce the dependency on laptop now. Back in high school, I didn't even have personal computer at home. Study life was less stressful for me, I have less things to worry about. Less distractions.

Back in idle mode. Ciao~

Study Week

2010-11-12T06:16:00.007Z

.... or so I thought.

It is now already the fifth day of study week and I only managed to study one subject, in which I have not finished studying it. The weather lately has been so "encouraging" in deviating my study mood away from me. This morning I planned to go to Information Resource Center aka IRC to continue my revision which keeps on being interrupted in the room, especially bed. At the moment I opened my eyes, it was raining outside. Chilling atmosphere. I continued to lie on my bed. Epic failure! -_-

My Final Exam Schedule:

19 November

1500-1800 INTRODUCTION TO MANAGEMENT (CH)

20 November:

0900-1200 PROCESS SAFETY & LOSS PREVENTION (CH)

1430-1730 PROBABILITY & STATISTICS (Undercroft)

22 November:

0900-1200 SEPARATION PROCESS 2 (MH)

23 November:

0900-1100 PROCESS INSTRUMENTATION (MH)

28 November:

0900-1200 REACTION ENGINEERING (MH)

So, it is like another one week to go before final exam commences. My mind keeps on telling me that I still have time to study. Frankly, I am not really a consistent-or-in-advance-study-type student. I prefer last minute because the past experience taught me that no matter how I study, the output is still the same. By any means, I will still get what I deserve. It's hard to force myself to munching all those mumbo-jumbo of the SIX subjects if the time is not right. It is self-torturing. lol

This mindset is kind of wrong. -.-

I deactivate my Facebook account at the moment, by hoping to reduce distraction. It doesn't go really well though. Distractions are still there, due to several factors, which has bothered me. I am in state of disturbed at the moment, where at some point of time, it affects my concentration while studying. Study week doesn't start really well this time but I hope it won't end in such way too. At this time I can only be hopeful.

Looking forward to go home already. Leaving UTP on 28th, flying home in the morning of 29th, as early as 7.30am. =D

Happy studying, everyone!

Hikikomori

2010-11-10T15:56:00.004Z

你说你没生我的气了。

但我就是偏偏不明白。

难道你不能够坦白地跟我讲一声吗？

你以为我忘记我们俩的谈话吗？

没回复我的简讯

没接我的电话

敲了门你也不开

你这么做，

很自私。

很任性。

为了你，难过了几天。

无意中激怒了你，我已经很不好受。

你的所做所为，

还以为你生我的气有那么的深。

我一直在想我已犯了很大的错误。

你就是这样，凡事都放在心里。

每次都让我担心你。

也许你有你的苦衷，我不知道。

只是希望你能信我多一些，

有些事我是能接受的。

我仍然都会尊敬你的要求。

看在我们不平凡友谊的份上，

我会耐心地等着。

2010-11-07T14:29:00.003Z

果然

。。。

你真的在生我的气。

现在我真的不好受。

希望你能原谅我的过错。

我诚心诚意的向你道歉

。。。

Bad Habit

2010-11-05T16:15:00.002Z

**A brief post in mandarin. lol

在我脑海里，有那么多“也许”这两个字。

每一个“也许”也只是我的猜测。

就是因为这个坏习惯引起了我们俩小小的争执。

（所谓的争执，也是我单单的猜测罢了.）

为了你，我必须要改掉这个坏习惯。

我不该想这样多。

我也累了。

无论如何，也是要撑着。。。

Titleless

2010-11-04T16:22:00.004Z

I am not sure what I should put the title for this particular post. It has been a while I didn't update my dearest only blog. The previous entry was for the sake of competition. Still, it is a no-no make up story and it comes purely from this bottom of my heart. :)

Moving on, I can't believe that 14 weeks of lecture of my second year second semester has ended. After finishing my last test just now, I feel nothing else but relief, at last I managed to catch a break after tormenting weeks of deadlines that I need to bear with. Assignments, tests, quizzes, reports etc were occupying my task list and thankfully, it was now over and only left with one last battle: FINAL EXAM which will commence on 19 November. Another 2 weeks to go.

Can't wait for final exam! Why? Because I want to go home! Final draft timetable is out today and without any hesitation, I booked my flight ticket back to home, on 29 November, the next day of my last paper. Extreme traveler. Only coming back to UTP on 22 January next year, I am having a month and 3 weeks of holidays. This will be my last long holiday as next year I will be interning. Huh, next year I will be in my third year already... How time flies.

I am currently experiencing post effect.. Excited and yet, moody at the same time. =/

Till for the next update.

TO YOU:

You said I have the freedom to be mad at you. Now, I would like to say same thing to you because I have not been a good friend either. I am selfish. I am inconsiderate. As a friend who really cares about you, I overlook this small matter which actually MATTERS the most. Really hope we can clear this up soon, because I don't feel good right now. =(

I feel deeply sorry. And this is not the first time. Somehow, we just make it through every time but I promise I will really try to change.

You know who you are. :)

That Special Feeling...

2010-10-24T16:38:00.012+01:00

Love is a very vague subject to be discussed. When people talk about love, the common first impression would be "couple", "lovers", "Jack & Rose" and so on. Well, not to deny that they are completely wrong with their ideas. Love is a topic that is always open to everyone for individual interpretation.

Forbidden love between Jack & Rose, eh?

Wikipedia defines love as the emotion of strong affection and personal attachment. Affection simply means the feeling of fondness towards someone. Attachment, on the other note, refers to the relationships between people. From this definition, it is clearly seen that love does not evolve around romance only. When I talk about love (personally), I would not really relate it to the popular perception. I am not the one who would exclaim "eeyeer..." when love topic is being raised. Not that I am not matured enough to really fall in love but in my own way, love is much more than that, which is simply hard to be put into words.

For this special post, I would confine my love within special relationship, friendship. =)

My circles of friends, from hometown to UTP!

Friendship, how would we define it? It is a relationship between two or more persons which requires no conditions to be built upon. We need not trade anything for the friendship we make. All we need is only, well, ourselves and I would say above all is, sincerity. Some are just being mere friends. Some become close of yours, and some turn out to be special ones that you treasure so dearly. Some, well, become more than just friends. There are many level of friendship, I can say. Even so, that does not mean, we cannot care for all. We can. We always can. It is not the matter of time, how long you have known each other or still stay in touch. Friendship comes purely from your heart, the sincerity of making friends. It is the matter how much you still care for one another. This is the principle that I uphold when making friends. That's the idea, at least.

Love in friendship, to me, is a special kind of love where sometimes it is hard to express. May be it can be done but not directly, I suppose. Love cannot be shown by single gesture. There are so many factors to be considered in conforming the love that you have is the true sincere one. Don't get astray though. I am still talking about friendship love. If you start to get different ideas, that means we are not of the same frequency. Or may be it is me that is being abnormal?

For a single person (but not available) like me, I am not really into romance relationship right now because it requires high commitment to make it work (as if I know a lot but I do observe people).

Instead, I prefer to have some close friends that I can count on.
The ones who listen to my stories.
The ones who heal my sorrow.
The ones who will give their shoulders for me to lean on during bad times.
The ones who shares happy stories with me.
The ones who doesn't mind I am troubling them in the middle of the night (hope so)
The ones who accept whatever I am doing.
The ones who can bear with my bad habit (in which I should take the initiative to change)
The ones who really understand you.
The ones who will always be there for you.
The ones who wait for you, without complaining.
The ones that, without him or her, you will be feeling empty.
The ones who you are mad at and yet still can care about at the same time.
Above all, they are the one who give you that warmth feeling in the heart.
You might be alone sometimes, it's that special feeling that accompanies you.
That special feeling is simple as friendship love.

The journey in getting a special friend for yourself isn't that easy. Among all the things that I handle, relationship is the hardest one to keep up with because humans are just unpredictable, don't they? If the other side doesn't make any move, you have to take the initiative. If the other side doesn't look for you, so it's you should be the one who do so. It's hard, I know but that is how it works (at least to me). Just like what Celine Dion says, "that's the way it is".

You need not to walk alone with that feeling of loneliness anymore.

Love comes in many ways but currently, this is the one I am holding on to. It's hard sometimes, full of ups and downs but that is what makes the friendship really special. It is truly incomparable. It is that special feeling...

I am contented that I found that special feeling in you...
=)

*Disclaimer: Just want to clarify that when I used to update my blog quite frequent back in my first year of studies, I post a lot on relationship matter. So, if you browse through my old posts randomly and found the similarity in this post, it is still truly yours.
**Some of the photos attached. Credit given to Google images.

Special Friend

2010-10-01T03:16:00.002+01:00

"Is it me again?"

The words that you said. It makes me feel horrible about myself. I feel bad almost instantly. How can I be that selfish? For the past 2 weeks, ever since the mid-sem break ended, my emotion was a bit unstable.

Has been pondering of what you said to me for the past 2 weeks. I guess we never had this kind of conversation before, coming clean. It makes me to get to know about you, the inner you. The side that people don't see.

Despite of the bad habit of mine, somehow you can still bear with me. That characteristics of yours is really hard to be found in a friend. This is the fact that I love about you, not just for being a normal friend, but a special one. =)

Words of the Day

2010-09-14T15:06:00.002+01:00

Love you!

Back in UTP. Will update about my holiday soon. Now alone in the room. Lonely... -.-

The Departed

2010-09-08T17:38:00.001+01:00

Mid-sem break has commenced for nearly half a week now, didn’t realize the time passed by so fast. All I have done after reaching home last Saturday was eating, watching TV, playing games, sleeping and not to mention spending time with my family, of course. Totally in stress-free mode. Nothing bothers me at the moment. Really want to enjoy this short break to the maximum. Forget about all those commitments. =)

Until last Monday, I received unpleasant news from my peers. Apparently, one of my schoolmates has passed on as she lost the battle to bone cancer. It was kind of shocking for me because she seems to be just fine to me. Although I didn’t know her well, at least I know who she is and this news is deeply felt. What disturbs me the most is that she is of our age. Life is just so fragile, is it not? At the moment I am still sort of mourning the loss of my aunt back in June who was also passed away due to cancer. This makes me a bit paranoid about death right now as it comes in no time, regardless of age. May their souls rest in peace.

Can’t imagine if this happens to my loved ones. I’m not ready to take it yet…

Okay, set aside the sad mode. Switch one the “excited” mode. Lol. Month of Syawal is coming means that the month of Ramadhan is coming to an end. Huh, how time flies, the fasting period is finishing soon. Have tried fasting for few days and it was not that bad actually. In a way it helps to cleanse my digestive system.

Spending my last day at home, tomorrow will be heading to KK for raya, although I start to miss home already because the next come back will be end of November or early December. 2 months away. Well, home will always be there, waiting for my return.

Signing off. Need to prepare myself. Bye for now.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Let’s embrace the upcoming Syawal.

After Effect

2010-09-04T02:05:00.003+01:00

Yuhoo, much-awaited mid-sem break is finally here! After the tormenting packed tests for the last Wednesday and Thursday, it is time for me to release myself from the stress-causing university commitments. I guess I deserve this 2-week break for all my hard work. hehe...

Leaving to KL yesterday with Fazlee, Laura & Ruth by train from Batu Gajah. Upon reaching the destination, Laura & Ruth went on with their plans while Fazlee and I went on with ours. Been to 2 malls yesterday, KLCC and Midvalley. I spent almost all my money on food. Penang Laksa, waffles, Starbucks (KLCC), 1901 Hot Dog, Manhantan Fish Market (Midvalley), McDonald, Chocolate (LCCT) and finally Caffe AITAZZA (KLIA). Oh, get to watch Step Up 3 with Fazlee at Midvalley. Story line is a bit empty but the dance scene is astonishing!

Now I am at KLIA, waiting for my 11.35pm flight. Another 2 hours to go! I have been awake since Thursday and didn't get to have proper sleep. My eyes are damn heavy while typing this post but I don't wanna take the risk to fall asleep, I might miss my flight later. -.-

*Holding on*

@.@

Wish all my muslim friends "SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI. MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN".

To others, happy holidays and see you all after the break.

Home, here I come. And, I am really looking forward for this year's Raya!!! =)

**After effect: Loneliness strikes after a long accompany. =')

Weekends in Ipoh

2010-08-28T11:59:00.005+01:00

I have been spending my weekends in Ipoh ever since I came back to UTP. Every time I went to Ipoh to hang out with different groups of friends. lol

First weekend (24.07.2010)

Went out with my roommate, Jonathan. Buying some stock of food for the new semester.

Second weekend (31.07.2010)

Went out with Fazlee. Just did some eating and bowling. Had my first Tutti Frutti!

Third weekend (6.08.2010)

Went out with Chiang Jinn, Pei Ying, Ee Ying and Siew Ching. I was the only boy. Eating and singing karaoke at JUSCO.

Next day went to KL for MPO, with Fazlee, Muez and Akmal.

Forth weekend (13.08.2010)

Meeting up with Justin at JUSCO, a farewell before leaving to US. Along with Yi Herng, Jonathan, Sze Mei and Laura.

Fifth weekend. (20.08.2010)

Had dinner at Royal Golf Club, Ipoh and ate a spaghetti that worths RM18.50! Went there with Yi Herng, Jonathan, Chua, Sze Mei and Hon.

Next day going for Bowling selection at Ipoh Parade in which I failed terribly. =(

Sixth weekend (27.08.2010)

Went out with Fazlee. Despite of the fasting period, he didn't mind about it when I had my breakfast at Starbucks and lunch at Secret Recipe. =) And played a much better game in bowling compared to last week.

Bought my very first REVSPORT shirt!

Next Friday (3.09.2010): KUALA LUMPUR!

*Wah, I guess I have been enjoying myself for the past few weeks. Hehe.

Madness

2010-08-20T18:36:00.003+01:00

*brief update*

Perhaps I was a bit overboard today. This is not the first time it happens though, just that this time I was being a little too expressive. Feeling really bad about it... =(

I guess the closer that you are to someone, the tendency of getting mad is higher. Simply because you care about him/her even more. Huh, how ironic as it sounds, it happens to me. People say ignorance is bliss but I can't really do it. How am I suppose to simply ignore these? As I said, I am mad because I care.

Am I alone in this thing?

*You are just so forgiving. I have no regret regard you as one of my best friends. =)

**Tomorrow going for bowling selection. Wonder how it goes...

Eternal Contentment

2010-08-18T17:49:00.011+01:00

Okay, it is about time to update my dear blog. I have abandoned for nearly a month already. I used to complain that my friends don't update theirs. Ironically, it is me now don't update mine as often as I used to. Kind of lazy to blog nowadays. If not, I am just too tired. Urgh, just want to express my thought around here right now.

Not sure how long will this post be ever since the last post. Apparently, I have not talked about my new semester yet. So, let's start. It's already in the mid of the forth week of second year second semester. That line again, "how time flies" keeps on popping into my mind. Talking about the subjects, a total of 18 credit hours which comprises 6 courses:

1. Reaction Engineering

2. Separation Process 2

3. Introduction to Management

4. Process Safety & Loss Prevention

5. Probability & Statistics

6. Process Instrumentation

The schedule this semester is damn hectic. I don't mind about early morning class but I don't really like the idea that the class ends so late in the evening. My lecture marathon ends at 6pm, 5pm and 7pm respectively for the first three days of lecture. It's torturing. *_* Thankfully, there is no class in the Friday evening, can rest well and prepare for the weekend.

Maths is my favourite subject so, I enjoy the PROBSTAT class most. Our lecturer is really funny, have that a grandpa kind of figure to me. The rest, are just okay. Some lectures can be so boring. Typical lo.

Studies set aside. Talking about non-academic commitments. I have 4 clubs/event commitment this semester. Crazy! First and foremost is my dear English Language Club.
I am the secretary for this new term. The workload isn't that much but I dearly passionate about ELC. So, it is not really a burden for me.

Also, currently holds the position of co-editor of Heart of Tronoh (HOT), the very first newsletter in our campus. It is a collaboration of ELC, MEDTECH and SRC. Thought of quitting next semester. Still under consideration.

Next, unbelievably, UTP Choir Group.

I am in the Management Team, acts as the secretary, and also sort like PIC for disciplinary actions to look after the members commitment towards the group. Actually I went for the audition. I wanted to sing but sadly I didn't pass. T.T Plus, there are lots of members are having my kind of voice which is tenor for the boys. Sigh, no chance lo.

This one is kind of last minute. I am also a part of CONVOFAIR 2010 committee, under my roommate's department, Exhibition.
Zero experience. Not used to do the calling and stuff. It isn't really my thing. Hope I have done well so far for the first timer. *cross fingers*

What else I can update here? Oh ya, you might be wondering what's with the post title? May be not. Well, it is something like lifetime goal of mine, in which I believe I won't get there but I am going through the journey that leads me there. It can be either be sweet or bitter. As I said, you have to go through the journey of bitterness to know how sweet life can be. Tired of being emotional, I need to implement this in my head so that I can be more open hearted to perceive what I am facing now.

Enough ranting. Hope you are updated with my latest post. Wish to know more about my recent updates just visit my Facebook page lo.

Bye for now. See ya!

**Being mad and care about you at the same time just drive me nut. I am not really sure what to do sometimes. And now, I am missing you~

Over The Rainbow

2010-07-23T16:36:00.003+01:00

Hello, people! Finally I am back in campus. Been here since Wednesday night, reached my room exactly at 10.30pm, earlier than I thought. Again, my roommate was not around when I am there, he is a busy man. The thing is, I started to experience pre-semester boredom. Nothing much I can do right now while all my friends are so busy with their commitment but not me. It leaves me feeling so empty and lonely.... T.T

Anyway, my second year second semester commences next Monday. Kind of excited, well, I always feel that every time time school reopens and when in the mid of semester, I will complaint how stress I am with all those work. Lol. I hope not for this time. Need to change this little mindset. Want to perform better this semester, although the courses are kind of tough this time. Well, nothing is impossible. =)

Have a song to share here. I guess those who watched Glee sure know. It's Over The Rainbow. Not really sure who's the original singer but I like Glee's version a lot.

somewhere over the rainbow
way up high
there's a land that i heard of
once in a lullaby

somewhere over the rainbow
skies are blue
and the dreams that you dare to dream
really do come true

some day i'll wish apon a star
and wake up where the clouds are far behind me
where troubles melt like lemon drops
away above the chimney tops
that's where you'll find me

somewhereover the rainbow
bluebirds fly
birds fly over the rainbow
why,then,oh why caan't i?

somewhere over the rainbow
skies are blue
and the dreams that you dare to dream
really do come true

*Miss talking to you... =(
**This empty space of mine is so huge and complicated. Hardly to be filled up completely. Sad.

***listening to the song***

Thank you, SEPRO!

2010-07-17T07:19:00.003+01:00

Anticipation has finally come to an end when the result of my last semester was released yesterday. Feel like it was two days ago though since I was staying awake until midnight on Thursday which eventually transitioned to the following day. Lol.

I get what I deserve. I am grateful enough that I still manage to get into Dean's List for the fifth time. Huh, last semester was a hard one for me. I was kind of losing my way before final exam. Lazy to recall back much of it because it is all history now.

You might be wondering what's with the title of this post. Ah well, SEPRO which stands for Separation Process was formerly one of my nightmares last semester. I screwed up my quizzes and tests. Assignments, all were copied blindly from my friends. True, I am not lying and this resulted in very low mark for my overall coursework. At that point, I was sort of depressed. It was the lowest among all and to ace in this subject is just like wanting the pigs to fly.

Somehow or rather, I didn't give up just yet. I managed to catch up during study week and just realised that there was nothing hard for this course. I was regret that I didn't study earlier. When it comes to final exam, I managed to answer all the questions without encountering any blank point. I am not boasting. =)

Just to tell you, I need score at least 90% in final in order to get that A in this subject. Sound rather impossible and guess what? I made it. =D

Despite of the disappointment of other courses, getting that A in SEPRO is all that matters because it makes me believe there is always hope, no matter what kind of circumstances. All you need to do is to believe.

Done with my story. Haha. Another 4 days before leaving home. Savouring every single moment of it. See ya!

*GPA is just numbers, after all. It is a little bonus for you by giving the sense of excitement for your temporary achievement.

Touchin' Lovin' Squeezin'

2010-07-11T14:59:00.003+01:00

My last entry was 10 days ago. I am leaving home in another 10 days. Holiday is going to over soon.

Currently in love with the songs that was sung by the Glee cast in the Season Finale. The medley is simply awesome.

"Don't Stop Believin'" at the end is really nostalgic for me. It has been a long way for them to go this far, well, if you remember that they sing this song in the first episode. Oh, have I ever mentioned the ELC Glee sang this song during their debut performance, too? Hehe...

Result is expected to be released this Friday. *nervous*

Till then..

*Listening to Adam Lambert's songs...

Boomerang

2010-07-01T16:24:00.004+01:00

Latest birthday gift which I just get it today, by post.

hehe...

Thank you! =)

*LOL, I miss the "K" reply. =D

**Windows Vista really sucks la. Have been thinking of changing my laptop OS several times already. Huhu~

Alejandro

2010-06-30T12:44:00.005+01:00

The last day of June and tomorrow is the first day of July. Talking about July, it just reminds me that new semester is going to start soon. Leaving home on 21st July, meaning I still have another 3 weeks to be at home. I shall maximize the remaining days of freedom by doing something beneficial. I wonder if sleeping for 12 hours in a day counts? Lol, seriously, back in campus, I have been sort of lacking of sleeping and I need to pay those debts. Hoho~ Urgh, what else can I do?

Anyway, as most of my friends know, I am kind of crazy over Lady Gaga. (lol!) In the beginning, I do detested her for being so bizarre in everything. Nevertheless, over time, as my friend suggested, perhaps I have conditioned myself to accept her over the top personalities. I just admire her personal interpretation of arts in the form of music. Some people may find it is disturbing but being a little open-minded, she is just being herself.

Oh, about her latest single, Alejandro. I am addicted! The music video, I do think it is way too disturbing though. I do like the choreography which is better than the one in Bad Romance. But, I prefer Bad Romance music video over this. Lol, both songs are equally entertaining.

Don't call my name

Alejandro

I'm not your babe

Fernando

Don't wanna kiss

Don't wanna touch

Just smoke one cigarette and hush

Don't call my name

Roberto

"Telephone" sucks though. It is disappointing. The video is even worst. *_*

*******************

Came back from jungle tracking and jogging few hours ago. Need to work on my stamina really. If my plan goes well, I will be hiking Mount Kinabalu next year.

4101m high

*gulps*

Let's welcome the month of JULY.

Half of 2010 has passed.

Bye Bye

2010-06-19T12:40:00.003+01:00

This is for my people who just lost somebody

Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady

Put your hand way up high

We will never say bye (no, no, no)

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins

This is for my people who lost their grandmothers

Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times

I didn't get it but you kept me in line

I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes

On Sunday mornings, and I missed you

But I'm glad we talked through

All them grown folk things

Separation brings

You never let me know it

You never let it show because

You loved me and obviously

There's so much more left to say

If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]

I never knew I could hurt like this

And everyday life goes on like

"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"

Miss you but I try not to cry

As time goes by

And it's true that you've reached a better place

Still I'd give the world to see your face

And I'm right here next to you

But it's like you're gone too soon

Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Bye Bye [3x]

Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done

And you never got to see me back at number one

I wish that you were here to celebrate together

I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night

With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight

I thought you were so strong

You'd make it through whatever

It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

I never knew I could hurt like this

And everyday life goes on like

"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"

Miss you but I try not to cry

As time goes by

And it's true that you've reached a better place

Still I'd give the world to see your face

And I'm right here next to you

But it's like you're gone too soon

Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Bye bye [3x]

Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody

Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady

Put your hand way up high

We will never say bye (no, no, no)

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins

This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers

Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

[Chorus]

I never knew I could hurt like this

And everyday life goes on like

"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"

Miss you but I try not to cry

As time goes by

And it's true that you've reached a better place

Still I'd give the world to see your face

And I'm right here next to you

But it's like you're gone too soon

Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

************

Still in disbelief that Aunty has left us.

I still remembered that Aunty was there when we first visit your home few years ago back in Miri.

I still remembered that Aunty was there to pick me up at Miri Bus Station 3 years ago to bring me to SM Sains Miri for Nurturing The Eagle Program.

I still remembered that Aunty was at my home, using my laptop, login into Facebook, playing Restaurant City during last Christmas.

I still remembered that the last time I saw Aunty was 3 months ago, on 20 March, the day I went back to UTP. Aunty was still in good shape, still can talk, still can walk.

From what I saw last time, I thought Aunty is going to be better. Despite of the health condition that wasn't encouraging, I do believe that Aunty will get through this. I was very hopeful until the call that I made to mum that she told me Aunty was diagnosed with forth stage cancer. I was speechless. When mum told me your condition, Aunty seems to suffer a lot and it is hard for me to imagine what Aunty is going through. I know it is only matter of time before Aunty leaving us forever but not this soon.

I am glad get to see Aunty for the last time while still in good shape. Memories and moments spent with Aunty will be cherished forever.

Aunty, rest in peace.

God bless your soul.

Miss you...

='(

Outward Bound Program

2010-06-14T15:17:00.014+01:00

Outward Bound Program is a Leadership Development Program which is made compulsory for all PETRONAS scholars to attend. It is way different if to compared to Soaring The Eagle (STE) that I went for last year. There were no theory indoor classes. All modules were done outdoor, closer to nature.

Departed from UTP at 12.00pm on 5 June 2010, we reached Outward Bound Malaysia, Lumut (OBML) around 1.5 hours later. We were introduced to our instructors for the 7-day course in a simple opening ceremony. On the first day itself, we already took our group photo, the so-called "before" photo. lol

I was put into Mulu watch, under Mr. Azmi as our instructor. My members were Shanggar, Pau, Louisa, Camtu, Fareeda, Alif, Shah, Hariss, Chung, Zul and Joel. "Mulu Fighting" was our motto. =D

Others watches were Tahan and Yong Yap.

On second day, we were taught some basic lessons on whaler. Yeah, we would be going for sailing on the next day. I was kind of fascinated by water transportation, really, not to mention ships. Terms like bow, stern, starboard and port side are somewhat familiar to me. Ah, I learn them from my obsession of TITANIC. lol

Anyway, we started our first expedition on the third day morning. Get everything ready, we set sailing as early as 9a.m.

Get to ready to sail! Eh, no. Get ready to row~

Everyone was excited in the beginning and keep on taking photos. Well, not really sailing yet, I would say. It was ROWING. Yeah, rowing the whaler in the middle of the ocean.

Row, row, row your boat~

The whaler

Guess each of us were tough, none of us were getting seasick, just feeling a little dizzy. Rowing for nearly 4.5 hours, we stopped for a while for lunch and we were eating on the boat!

Floating restaurant!

We resumed our journey at 2.30pm if I recalled correctly and we reached our destination around 6.30pm. So yeah, a total of 8 hours of rowing and a little of sailing. It was crazy and sounds impossible but we did it! =) We camped at Shawal Beach for one night before returning to OMBL in the next morning. Oh, it was stormy in the morning but only last for a while.

We still row despite of the unpleasant weather.

This is better than the hot sun. I had severe sunburn throughout the course. =.=

In the evening, it was kayak lesson. Yup, our next expedition was kayaking, surrounds the Pangkor Island! My kayak partner was Hon.

Similar to the time we had for our first expedition, we embarked our journey at 9am. Kayak is more physical demanding than rowing a boat despite of the smaller size of the kayak if to compare to a whaler. In a whaler, there is a group of 12 people on board. One down, at least there are still back-ups to keep it going.

For kayak however, if similar situation happens, only left with one person to move the whole thing. It wasn't that easy. It is not about physical strength anymore. It is all about your positive mindset in resisting negative elements to keep you going with high will power together with extreme optimism despite of seem-to-be-impossible circumstance which can really make you depressed and feel like giving up, in the middle of nowhere, but we both stayed till the end. Have to say, the waves were huge at that time. Sometimes, we hardly see any kayak nearby as it was hidden under the rising waves. 0.0 It was fun though. =D

Not much photos taken while kayaking tho. =(

We reached our destination, Tanjung Sekadeh at 6.30pm. Again, another 8 hours of sea expedition. You wouldn't realise you have been on the sea for that long because all of you have been thinking about is to reach the site as soon as possible and in the end, voila, 8 hours of kayaking!

On the 6th day, we returned to OBML and have our Barbeque Night as a farewell party for all the participants with the instructors. Singing "Auld Lang Syne" will always remind me of the sweet nostalgia. We left for UTP at 9.30am on the last day.

MULU!

Last day

With our dear instructor, Mr. Azmi

Guess that's all I would like to share here. It is more than words. I miss the time there but going there again? Somehow I doubt it. LOL! All the best to other batches. Enjoy yourself there! =)

Credit given to Fareeda for the photos posted here.

I have the OB spirit,

Up in my head,

Deep in my heart,

Down in my knee,

All over me...

******************

I'm finally homed on 12th June 2010. I left immediately on the day I returned from OBML, at night. Leaving alone this time, I reached KLIA at 3.00am and had my supper at Burger King. Wandering around until 11.00am before going for departure hall. And oh, I just realised it is so hard to find a socket in KLIA. If not, I will be bored to death waiting for more than 7 hours there. =.= Ah, I need the socket to charge my laptop. lol

Enjoying my holidays so far and I am kind of into Sudoku lately, to spare my time. Well, till here for now. Happy holidays, people! =)

**Huhu, your thumbnail picture seems to always appear first, randomly. ='(

***World Cup fever is on. I am not real fan of football. But, if World Cup could lead to world peace, there is nothing wrong in embracing the sensation of this football season, yea? Waka-waka is damn catchy! Shakira looks so pretty in the video!

Half Way There

2010-06-04T00:45:00.004+01:00

Last Wednesday marks the end of my second year first semester studies with the Process Heat Transfer paper. Without realising how fast the time has passed me by, I am already half way there in getting my degree. Have been in UTP for 2.5 years, still have another 2.5 years before my life as university student comes to an end. Isn't it too soon? I really need time to adjust to this fast growing pace of life. Have to keep up.

Just a short post update. Tomorrow will be away to OBS in Lumut. Although I am looking forward for this camp, I miss home even more. Can't wait for next Saturday. Just one more week. =)

*The first one I would like to see to come, the last one I would like see to leave. I miss you already. =')

Heat in Motion

2010-05-31T11:45:00.000+01:00

Chapter 1:

Equation of States

Van de Waals Equation

Virial Coefficients

Compressibility Factors

Heat, Work, Enthalpy (Isothermal, Isobaric, Isochoric and Adiabatic Conditions)

Entropy

Chapter 2:

Maxwell Relations

Residual Property

Entropy Balance

Chapter 3:

Energy Balance

Engine Cycle

Carnot Cycle

Brayton Cycle

Chapter 4:

Phase Equilibrium

Mixing Properties

Chemical Potential

Fugacity

Fugacity Coefficient

Activity Coefficient

Chapter 5

Extent of Reaction

Equilibrium Constant

A brief summary of THERMODYNAMICS that I can recall after studying for one semester. The paper was tough and yet I keep myself cool (lol) although I can’t answer some of the questions. Hope for the best la, can’t do anything. At least I tried my best. =)

One more to go!

Sensitive

2010-05-29T12:06:00.004+01:00

Just realise that I am a person who is very, very sensitive towards people around me. A little act by others can cause emotional turmoil. Lol, I am not sure if this phrase "emotional turmoil" does exist. Oh wait, it exists. I just googled. haha.

Being depressed so easily over small matter. Tend to be in "emo" state. Everyone says so. =.= Okay la, I admit that I "emo" too much. I guess I mind too much, sometimes. Can't help it, it just happens. =(

It is exam season eh. Shouldn't let this affect me so much. Keep my mind clear, think of the right thing, aim at the realistic goal. But seriously, Thermodynamics and Process Heat Transfer are damn scary subjects. It is harder for me to conquer these two compared to the last two. Wish me luck! =D

*You always make me mad. In the end, you always know how to make thing right (without knowing that I am mad). So, should I be mad in the first place? Seriously, I don't know. Haiz...

**Perhaps it is true that "I am mad because I care". =)

***Lol, this reminds me that my friend takes this quote from me to be put into her blog.

Calculator Maniac

2010-05-28T09:08:00.004+01:00

Computational Methods or we called it in short, C.M. was the paper yesterday. Had it at Chancellor Hall. Frankly, I was rather disappointed. No, it is not because of the paper itself. The paper was, hmm, up to my expectation. Made some careless calculations though. It is just so typical in Maths subject. I miss the time I used to get perfect score for Add Maths back in high school. XD Hmm, if my steps are counted in marking, I could get 100% score too. =D

Oh, back to the disappointment. Nah, nothing much. It is just that the hall wasn't as icy cold as it used to be. LOL! I was sitting in the front row and I felt nothing despite that the air condition is right in front of me. Prepared my only-bring-it-here-for-exam-in-chancellor-hall-exam jacket was in vain. Okay, I am so blur. I have no idea or what I suppose to talk about. -.-"

Anyway, 2 papers down, another 2 go. Next paper is on Monday. THERMODYNAMICS, nightmare!

And I am slacking right now. This is not good. Roommate is studying hard besides me. :S

Can someone give me some motivation, please? IRC closed today due to Wesak Day, that's why no mood studying lor. What an excuse! >.<

*Computational Methods = C.M. = Calculator Maniac = Careless Mistakes XD

**I need to learn to let go. I can't possibly hold on to everything. I just can't. =(

***Another one week to go leh. Wish the time passes by a bit slower right now.

Optimism

2010-05-25T12:11:00.005+01:00

Every cloud has its silver lining.

Credit given to Google Images for the photo. lol

Just done with my first paper 7 hours ago, which was Separation Process 1. Frankly, it was the first time ever I feel so good after finishing a paper, plus it is final exam paper. Perhaps this is the first time I didn't encounter any blank point while answering the questions just now. Basically, I can answer all of them! Well, not 100% accurate but at least I know what to do. After screwing all the tests and quizzes, finally I know I am doing and what I suppose to do. lol. My coursework mark for this subject is the lowest among all and seriously, there is hardly any chance to get that A. I wish I have studied earlier. Ah, let keep the finger-crossed. =)

1 down, 3 to go! Woohoo~

LET'S KEEP THE OPTIMISM GOING, SHALL WE?

*Being forced fed yesterday. Eating lunch at 2.30pm. Full due to the meal and I was treated with ABC. Having dinner at 7.00pm, only 4.5 hours after that, eating roti prata and treated with "dadih". =.= But I enjoyed it. XD

**I won't give up on you, that is for sure. Don't ever give up! =)

Critical Point

2010-05-23T17:50:00.002+01:00

My friend told me that I am not updating blog as often as I used to. Well, if you have been checking my past posts, back in 2008 and 2009, I updated my blog almost daily: be it random, informative, emotional posts, anything that I would want to blog. As time goes by, the urge of blogging is slowly fading. Just like a graph of function ln x, my passion in blogging is getting less and less. Oh, if you have no idea how the graph looks like, I have the picture to show you. lol xD

As you can see, the gradient is approaching zero. This is just how I feel about it. I guess I am reaching the critical point. Ah, I am talking so "mathematically". Pardon me if you don't understand. hehe...

Not just blogging, this also applies to all my other internet activities. I may be login into my Facebook, but I just merely check on the updates from my friends and leaving posts or comments on Friends' Wall. I no longer play the applications which sometimes I find it is kind of time-wasting. Last time used to play My Heroes Ability and Restaurant City and stayed up whole night playing just for the sake of leveling up. Duh! =.=

Anyhow, I will always keep this blog updated from time to time to keep you all updated. :D If you see the bloggers list in the right column, some of their last updates are like 4-6 months ago. That is even worst. XD Mine at least has a minimum of 2 posts in a month.

Oh ya, my current update. Well, study week has come to an end, a week ago to be exact. As I mentioned in my previous post, I am having 2-week of study week. My first paper will be this upcoming Tuesday. Ah, it is tomorrow! Woohoo~ lol (-.-") Despite of the disappointing coursework marks, I do try to think positively as much as I can for things that happen. It was my fault for not doing well in my studies. No one to blame. No point regret also because it cannot change anything. So, from now on, do my best in everything to cover up the loss (lol) and be optimistic. I am looking forward for my final paper. No guarantee I am well-prepared but at least I try. =D

25 May - Separation Process 1 (Proses Pemisahan 1)

27 May - Computational Methods (Kaedah Pengkomputeran)

31 May - Thermodynamics (Termordinamik)

2 June - Process Heat Transfer (Process Pemindahan Haba)

Saja-saja with the Malay name. XD

2 days after my exam ends, it will be OBS for one week in Lumut. (5 - 11 June). Kind of excited. Just hope I can stand the heat and get through all those vigorous physical activities. Well, I am FIT to go though. lol

I will be flying back home on 12 June. Can't wait, another 3 weeks. This is my main driving force to keep me going right now. =)

I guess this update will stop here. Wish me luck in final, I wish you all luck in final. Strike for the best. Ganbatte yo~

*Went to Ipoh on last Saturday. Budget to spend was RM1oo and in the end, I spent up to RM200. The joy of overspending. lol

**I am not sure why. Just food for thought: Is there anything wrong if to have a close friend? I can't really understand why some people make fun of it as if it is some kind of joke. You think is it easy to manage relationship and keep things together constantly? It is not, I tell you.

I Got You

2010-05-10T18:59:00.001+01:00

It has been a long while I didn't update my blog. *check the date* Gosh, it is more than 3 weeks already. Guess that I was way too busy. Even if I have the free time, I was just too lazy to blog. I need to rest. Plus, I can now access YouTube via LAN. After listening to the same songs again and again over the weeks (still, I love Lady Gaga!), my life is back! =D

Where to start? Oh, I guess most of my readers are aware (at least my friends in real) that I was turning 20 on 27th April. I can't believe that I am already in 20's. I am still feeling young! lol. This year celebration is somewhat different for me compared to last 2 birthdays in UTP. First time I was being pranked on my birthday. Thankfully, it was "clean" and "sweet". A mixture of detergent and cola says it all, that is what I tasted at least.

Photo taken by Hon

They said my response is rather disappointing. In fact, I was sleepy at that time. -.-" Still, thanks guys! (Duh, it is like few weeks ago already. lol)

2 weeks before my 20's day, we had an outing to Ipoh to celebrate the April babies which were Hon and me. The group consisted of Jonathan, Sze Mei, Fazlee, Chua, Yi Herng and Kerry (a non-chemy people, lol). Been hinting that I want to the Body Glove shirt so dearly, so they bought it for me! xD

And so was everyone else buying Body Glove merchandises in which in the end the total bill was up to RM300. I am now a Body Glove member!

Oh, the latest birthday gift that I get, which was 2 days later after my birthday.

Starbucks mug!

Hehe, I have not used it yet. Feel "sayang" to use it... lol. It comes together with a birthday card, too! Thanks, ya! =)

So that was my birthday celebration for this year. When I am typing this post, it is already 2nd day of Study Week. Yup, you heard me, study week finally commences. Damn it, time flies super fast. Study week simply means final exam is coming. On positive note, at least I am now free from dragging tests, quizzes, assignments, reports and so on. This semester I struggled to cope up with my studies. Things ain't that easy anymore. =( I start to feel that second year is the time that really tests your passion in your studies. Frankly, I doubt about mine. I am kind of sick of it already. I am sick of studying. I am mentally tired. T.T I think I am talking about the freaking same thing during this period of time. =.= Hurm, every cloud has its silver lining. I try to believe in this right now. If I can get it through last time, why not now? "haiya, just bear with it la... lol"

Registered for 6 courses this semester, I am only having 4 papers for this final exam. The other 2 courses are coursework mark-based, which are Professional Communication Skills (PCS) and Modern Music. I miss PCS class. It was among the most entertaining session by listening to people's presentation but not during my turn. =.= Modern Music, I was playing trombone and actually get to perform during co-q day! My first ever musical performance, perhaps the only one too. lol

4 papers for final exam may sound good but not the timetable. My paper will only start on the second week itself, which means I have 2 weeks of study week! Personally, I don't really believe in study week. The extra one week is just plain waste of time. My last paper is on 2nd June. I can't go back for Gawai this year! Damn sad la weih, how would you feel if final falls on CNY for Chinese and Hari Raya for Muslims? Thing becomes worst when OBS comes in. My batch is from 5 until 11 June. T.T It is not that I am not looking forward for OBS but the timing was a bit wrong. Haih, too many things come in a single time. I was so disturbed for the past few days. Then again, things happen for reasons. I just need to get through this phase, need to hold on just for a bit longer, thing will be okay in the end. *cross fingers*

Counting the days for final exam, OBS and I am done with January 2010 semester. Looking forward for next semester already though. I am in High Committee for English Language Club and UTP Choir Group. Tentatively, these are the only commitment for the next 2 semesters. It is more than enough. This semester I am kind of regret for taking up so many events. This is one of the factors that I fail to catch up with my studies. Haih....

Enough ranting. Right after this is hitting the book time. Studying mood is ON! I need serious catch-up! Till then...

*You are there during hard time. Thanks for being there when I need you. =)

**Got this song that keeps on playing in my list lately, I Got You by Leona Lewis.