Feeling so incomplete, if I don't get to see your face. Feeling so incomplete, if I don't get to hear your voice. Feeling so incomplete, if I don't get to chat with you. Feeling so incomplete, if I don't get to spend time with you, even just for a little while. Hate this busy life, somehow set us apart. This emptiness in heart, no else could fill it in better than you do.
Why could I not see? You have been always there. I was so ignorant and blind. Until recently, I realised that you are the only one. Never hurts me. Never fails me. Never makes me down. Always lifting me up, merely just by your presence.
Guess life would have been incomplete without knowing you. God sends you in my way. I'm thankful. I know you are someone that I truly believe that it's worth to turn to.
Was studying half way for Organic Chemistry and suddenly my friend came and told me, "this one won't come out one la. No need read...." Has made me thinking. The fact is, I have been thinking for quite sometimes.
One question: Why do we study? Why do we do revision? Before you answer for yourself, have a deep thought first. Why would you sacrifice the time that you have over books where you could have fun, enjoy your favourite hobbies. As for UTPians, going to Ipoh may be. Do you study for the sake of studying, or for the sake of getting good score in test or exam? Which one is preferably your response? Guess that the second option will be more popular answer.
Actually, it is pretty easy to score in exam, I mean, to get that desirable "A" in your result slip. Who don't want that "A", do you? All you need to do is just to understand the system, with a good strategy, "A" or may be "four flat" is not really far away from you. One easy example will be our dear final exam. In final exam, there are always choices of questions for you to choose, am I right? Almost all courses use the same format. Students can choose to answer which questions that they want to, as it is not compulsory to answer all. Typically, each question will come out from one particular chapter. If the students are smart enough, they could actually abandon some of the chapters while doing their revision if they don't feel like it. The risk is there, but it's worth to take one, I think. Well, at least that is what I think.
Now, the dilemma is the reason for you to study. To get knowledge or just for the marks? About Oil and Gas Test that day, I made some stupid mistakes because when I was doing my revision, I was kind of missing some parts. And my friend asked, "do you read the past year papers?" and I said no. "You should have read it." This makes me ponder, by studying past year papers, you could score high mark since they may come out with the same questions (in fact, it is). You study everything in your notes, yet you score lower. In reality is, you know more compared to those who rely on past year papers and not forgetting tips, folks. Tips is a very popular demand from students. For the sake of what? Can answer the questions in test and get high mark.
Somehow, the point of studying is no longer there. Suppose we study for the sake of knowledge but due to the system, we are forced to study just to get good grade. Sometimes how unfair is that. One grade shows nothing that one person is capable of. Even you get perfect score for your test, that don't make you a wizard or master or anything that you want to call. Let say that you are just plain lucky. You expect what kinds of questions come out in test or exam, and bingo! You study the right thing. Others who seem to get low grade look.... dare not to use the word. Okay, the group of less-smart-people will seem to be very poor just merely because what they have studied is not being tested. That's just it. Well, human is not a robot. You cannot memorize everything and pour all out in exam. That's why I say, it's luck. Bad grade does not mean you are not capable; good grade does not really mean you are knowledgeable. It all depends, up to your own perspective.
As for me, if I have the time, I would have chosen to study everything, every single word that I can find in a textbook even though my friends somehow psycho me, telling me no need to read them, guess you know what's the reason is. But if the exam is near, pressure, and ya, I fall for that system, mindset of getting good grade, I would skip some parts. Sound like contradicting to myself, back to square one. What to do? Life is hard. Making choice has never been easy. All you can do is to go with the flow. That's how the world works.
Long-winded post. Hope it is worth-reading for you to think. Basically, everything is up to you to decide. Just be comfortable with your choice. That's all, peeps!
*Find this song, perhaps I am kind of outdated or whatever it is. Jai Ho by PCD, featured soundtrack for movie Slumdog Millionaire. Very catchy. Has been playing it all night long. Hope you enjoy it.
For UTPians, I know internet connection can be a culprit. That's why we have DC++, right?
*Things seem back to "normal" already. Oh well, the more I care, the more that I suffer. Why should I care? (may be because, I still care, actually...)
Here I am again. Writing this blogpost since it is now my break time. You may think that it is study week, the time we should be studying, it is rather impossible to have time to blog, right? I have thought so, too. Ironically, I have more than enough time to write a single entry for my blog, daily. Wondering, you won’t be staring at your books 24/7, will you? Surely there are times allocated to have break and so. Some may choose to play DoTA; some may go for sports; some may just have plain nap. As for me, I choose to blog. Blogging won’t take much of my time.
Moreover, I discover something, of myself. During day time, my study mood could only last for 2 hours. The spirit only back at night, lasting for about 6 hours. I slept at 4am yesterday and woke up 12pm. Initially, I have arranged my time so that I will be having 8 hours of sleep, 8 hours of study, and the rest will be my other miscellaneous routine. The point is, as long as I have 8 hours enough sleep, 8 hours of study, regardless anytime, I still could catch up with my own revision, actually. Guess the main reason I could not follow my own schedule is due to my body nature which is not resilient to fit my time. He has his own time and I can only follow. This is what happening when used to sleep late and woke up late throughout the lecture weeks. My body has adapted to it, already.
Good thing is, all my papers during finals will be in the afternoon. Timetable is on my side. So, practically, I could continue this routine till the end of my finals, for this semester. Just hope for the best. Guess this is the meaning of “study hard, study smart”. Oh well, everyone has their own definition.
*Going to study Differential Equations after this, my beloved subject. **I miss DE lectures. I miss DE lecturer.
Organic Chemistry textbook remains opened on the bed, together with lecture notes. Have just gone through one chapter. And suddenly, the mood of studying is gone. Just gone with the wind. Don't feel like want to continue. Feel so lazy to proceed to the subsequent chapter. By the way, Acid & Bases is such a boring chapter! Not to say I am good at it, but the concept is too dull for me to know them. Has been exposed to Acid and Bases since form 2, don't feel like want to know more. Enough to know that the product is salt and water.
I am not in the library. I choose to stay in my room today. My bed is in front of me. Don't feel like sleeping either. I am not sleepy. I am not deprived of sleep. Just lack of motivation. Somehow my mind tells me that I still have time to do my preparation, perhaps it is just not today. I have a lot of things yet to be revised. I have not touched Differential Equations, Academic Writing, and Moral Studies. Not even a word. The weather is discouraging also, not so conducive for studying with all those scorching heat. Sound dramatic but it is indeed a bit hot now.
I was just informed that I get selected to become as the assistant head for Journalism department for ELC. Kind of unexpected actually, since I am still a new member and suddenly given a quite big commitment. Anyway, I would really like to say thanks for selecting a nobody like me to become of the committee. It may be just a small post but it means something big to me. Surely will gain lots of experience. (Sound so..... don't know the exact word to describe it.)
Guess that's all, for now.
*Still, don't feel like studying now.
She always calls me "ah kong" or grandpa. Not really sure why though. Anyway,
