I Look To You

I Look To You (Original singer: Whitney Houston)

As I lay me down,

Heaven hear me now.

I'm lost without a cause

After giving it my all.

Winter storms have come

And darkened my sun.

After all that I've been through

Who on earth can I turn to?

I look to you.

I look to you.

After all my strength is gone,

In you I can be strong

I look to you.

I look to you.

And when melodies are gone,

In you I hear a song.

I look to you.

About to lose my breathe,

There's no more fighting left,

Sinking to rise no more,

Searching for that open door.

And every road that I've taken

Lead to my regret.

And I don't know if I'm going to make it.

Nothing to do but lift my head

I look to you.

I look to you.

And with all my strength is gone,

In you I can be strong

I look to you.

I look to you.

And when melodies are gone,

In you I hear a song.

I look to you.

My levees are broken

Walls come down

Tumbling down on me

The rain is falling.

Defeat is calling.

I need you to set me free.

Take me far away from the battle.

I need you.

Shine on me.

I look to you.

I look to you.

After all my strength is gone,

In you I can be strong

I look to you.

I look to you.

And when melodies are gone,

In you I hear a song.

I look to you.

A powerful vocal performance by Amber Riley, who acts as Mercedes in Glee.

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Third week of holidays has ended, this weekend arrives sooner than I thought. This week passed me by surprisingly faster compared to the first 2 weeks. I guess I have good time, eh? Exactly another 5 weeks of break to go.

Watched Narnia with my brothers last Friday.

The movie was alright. Not really a Narnia fan but the story goes pretty well and it doesn't bore me till the end. The only thing bothers me is the cinema itself.

1. It was so dark inside and the seat numbers couldn't be seen.

2. The air-conditioner was not functioning well. It was warm inside the hall.

3. The sound system failed. -_-

4. The ticket price is freaking nine bucks! That's expensive.

But I guess, watching movie in cinema is not really a popular leisure activity in this small town and that explains the poor maintenance of the cinema. I am quite surprised that the cinema still can hold on for that long without going bankrupt.

Saw a blog post commented on Bintulu the other day. This particular blogger says that this town sucks and boring to him. Well, for a guy who used to the luxury life of the city, sorry to say that this town can't always fulfill his needs. For locals, we have been living this way as long as we can remember. We don't have bowling alley. We don't have high-end coffee shops. Certain brand shops are not available. Poor road conditions. We do have lots of pubs and lounge though. lol. The thing is we are used to this already.

Bintulu is progressing, slowly and it's only matter of time that this little town to be really developed. But frankly, sometimes I do miss the old Bintulu because that is what hometown really means to me. Well, change is inevitable, isn't it?

On the other note, Christmas is fast approaching, which falls on coming Saturday. Wah, another 2 weeks 2010 is coming to an end. My dear time, you have been running at a great pace this year, I would say. Anyway, let's set up our christmas tree and celebrate this festive seasons! =D

Before I end, just a random sharing. I watched E! and come across this celebrity.

At first glance, I thought she is Angelina Jolie but apparently, she's not. They do have close resemblance though. Her name is Kelly LeBrock, a popular celebrity back in 80's. Money can't buy beauty, huh? Oh wait, plastic surgery? Lol.

Come across this site where the celebrities aged. This is the list of the stars who don't age well.

Hurm, I know I am legally above 18 but I guess Google Images has to filter the result of the searches. -_-

**A complete ignorance is not the best remedy but at least it is good enough. It is true that wound will heal as time passes but what remains is the scar. Sometimes when have a sudden thought of it, even though just a little, the pain comes back and it usually ends in tears.

Otaku?

Downloading series for free, too good to be true, isn't it? There's a price to pay. Wanted to catch up with the new season of Glee and Vampire Diaries, but it takes days just to download one 40-minute episode. It's just like it takes months to have your savings but you can just spend it all in one go. What an analogy. -_-

While waiting (and waiting, and waiting the series to be fully downloaded, one episode at a time), I switch my mode for anime instead. I can download a full season of anime (12 episodes usually) within one day for free and have been watching several series at the moment which comprises both on-going and completed ones.

1. Fortune Arterial

This is one of the on-going anime with another 2 episodes on its way. It is about a student named Hasekura enters a school in which he finds out that the president and vice president of the student council are vampires. Not a horror anime but it's more to romance genre. Looking forward for its ending. My current favourite anime.

2. The World God Only Knows

A game addict who makes contract with a demon from hell (too cute to be a demon, I would say. -_-) to capture loss souls which are trapped in girls. He has to make the girls fall for him in order to release them. Another on-going anime.

3. B Gata H Kei

Completed anime series and done watching. It is about a 15 years old female student, Yamada on the quest in finding, erm, sex partners. lol! Very hilariously explicit. It is an "ecchi" kind of anime.

... and few more on their ways into my laptop. *waiting for glee and vampire diaries as well*

Have to say, I have been indulging myself with eastern (way to the east) entertainment a lot lately although I don't get what they say/sing, most of the time. lol

It's already third week of holidays, another 5 weeks to go. Yeehaa~ I am loving the holidays and Christmas is approaching!

Oh!

Oh, it is already 4th December, the very last month of this year. I have been saying this repetitively but yeah, time flies. Another 27 days, year 2010 is coming to an end. Frankly, I am not looking forward for 2011, yet. There are just so many happenings: Engineering Team Project (ETP), Industrial Training and most importantly, my brother is going to embark his new journey in university this coming 2nd January, which falls on his 19th birthday. That's a lot in one year. =S

Oh, talking about ETP, that means I will be in my junior year in 2011. Sophomore year, was, erm, a bit disastrous for me, in term of everything. I involved in quite a number of events for the past 2 semesters and put my studies in jeopardy. I considered myself quite lucky for being able to maintain my performance, I guess, for the first semester. I am not sure about the recent semester though. I can only cross my fingers. Next year, it will be my forth year in UTP. Wonder if I could relive my high school days?

Oh, this semester break will be my last longest break ever. I mean, a real last one as for the next 2 years, I won't be having any long break due to the 7 months internship and this continues until the end of degree studies, which will be in the end of December 2012. Hopefully, I will get a proper job after my graduation. I don't think there is any company gives you that long leave, do they? Well, unless I am a woman, there is a chance of 2-month break if I get pregnant and have a maternity leave. Lol, that's random.

Oh, thanks to my brother, I have been listening to Korean songs ever since I am home. I used to listen to Wonder Girls but apparently, they are not out with any new singles yet. For now, I switch my mode for Girls' Generation instead. This song was released in the beginning of this year. The title of this post, that's the song I am listening to. Very catchy and undoubtedly, the singers are cute. Last time it was "Gee" that brings me to them. I guess they are good with one-word-title song. Lol.

Sexy outfits but not the hair.

Oh, on the other note, Western music nowadays are more into hip hop and clubbing kind of songs which are not really cup of my tea (I do miss clubbing, lol). Seeking for soothing ballad music. Been listening to Katy Perry's now, though. I am not really looking at her when she released her first single, which was "I Kissed A Girl" and I was like, urgh. Apparently, she just gets better. Her new album totally changes my impression towards her. "Firework" is the current addiction.

Snapshot of the music video: Firework out of her chest. -_-

Oh, I am back in playing The Sims 2. My "The Sims 3", apparently is the earliest version and I can't install the expansion packs and it's not free to upgrade it. Of course, I can get the pirated one but, erm, I am just lazy. Lol. But, my brothers managed to install the expansion packs for the previous edition of The Sims and currently playing it. So many features to be explored. So yeah, occupying my time by playing game.

It's snowing. Happy December! Merry Christmas in advance.

Oh, the plan for this semester break is basically to gain weight. Seriously. Trying to expand my appetite and eat more than I usually do. It is easy for some but not for me. =S

I guess that's about all for now. I blog less and less nowadays and I only blog when I am bored and yeah, when I am emo but this is not an emo post. Bad thing though, all people around me think that I am a strongly emotional person due to my posts. To think again, I don't post that much, do I? Occasionally, once in a blue moon, I am experiencing the low point of my life. I guess everyone does. Don't lie. =)

Oh, this marks the eighth "oh" for this blog. Simply, that's the number of "Oh" in last part of the song. Lol, bye for now.

And oh, Happy Holidays! That's ninth.

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

ppareul saranghae

Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah

manhi manhihae

*It was the darkest time in my life. Ironically, that was also the time for me to realise the source of brightness, which always makes my day brighter than the midday sun. I am not going to let it go away.

Time & Space

I'm kinda devastated.

I was fine until I get a call.

I'm so disturbed right now.

My EQ really sucks, at the moment.

Can't really take hurtful words.

It's worst when it is from someone that you love.

I just activate my Facebook few days ago.

Hoping for a positive turning point.

Well, I guess not.

Deactivate it.

Once again.

Not to escape.

Just to give me more time and space,

to ponder.

What have I really done wrong?

I take this as a test from God.

For me to learn.

To be better.

To be stronger.

Life is just so vague, is it not?

Pikachu!

Bored of studying. So...

-_-

In remembrance of the creator of Pokemon, Takeshi Shudo.