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Friday, December 31, 2010

Bye Bye, 2010

Time passed by like nobody's business. Year 2010 is coming to an end. It has been a good year, I think. Well, as what they say, all good things must come to an end. I guess that's because better things are going to start, eh?

Eventful year it was. Kicked off the year by visiting Sabah for the very first time. I was in my sophomore year in UTP. Joined most events this year (1 Malaysia Chinese New Year, Red Sonata Fiesta, Photofest, The Chronicler, Convofair). Secretary of ELC and Choir Management Team. A part of ELC Singing Team, Flamin' Lips. A bass performer in UTP Choir Group. Performed in Convocation Ceremony for very first time. First time being pranked by friends on my birthday. First time have my own Baju Raya. First time been to Lumut, for the sake of OBS. A lot of first times. All those were good times.

Not to mention there were some bad times. Worst was when my beloved Aunty passed away on 19 June 2010. I still hard to believe that my dear aunt has gone forever. Sometimes, when I have sudden thought of it, I will always be disturbed and remind me how fragile the life is. Nothing else I can do except immortalizing the memories in my mind and hoping it won't fade.

Good times. Bad times. They are now history. Some are worth to be remembered. Some should be forgotten to move on. Self ponder a lot during this holiday. Frankly, there was not even a single time I was hit by boredom. Been reflecting of what I have done throughout the year. Humans are imperfect. We make mistakes from time to time. That's okay, as long as you admit what you have done and promise to improve yourself next time.

A whole new chapter of my life is going to commence soon. It will start by my dearest brother leaving to Petaling Jaya tomorrow, pursing his dream in becoming a chef. Hope he does well there. All I can do is to give him my full support. =)

With this, I end this post and wish you all Happy New Year!


Tuesday, December 28, 2010


(Nal barabwara)

Ddanddaranddan, ddanddaranddan, ddanddaranddan, ddadaddarabba
Ddanddaranddan, ddanddaranddan, ddanddaranddan, ddadaddarabba

[Siwon] Neon alggamalgga alggamalgga neomu yebbeun miinah
Nal michyeotdago malhaedo nan niga jotda miinah
[Heechul] Nuga jeonhaejweo my baby, to my baby naega yeogi itdago malya
Gidalinda malya (Baby, you turn it up now)

[Kyuhyun] Neon, gatabuta, gatabuta mal jom haera miinah
Ni maeumeul gajyeotdamyeon geunyang naneun salmyi winner
[Yesung] I sesangyi ichiran, ichiran, yonggi itneun jareul ddara
Na gateun nom malya

[Ryeowook] Ye male say, yeol beon jjigeumyeon neomeoganda
Eusseug, eusseug, eusseug
[Sungmin] Geunyeoneun gangjeok ggeuddeogeobtda
Bbijjug, bbijjug, bbijjug.
[Ryeowook + Sungmin] Nan eoddeogargga eoddeogargga geunyeomani
Nae gwansimin geol, geol, geol

Bounce to you, bounce to you,
Nae gaseumeun neol hyanghae jabil sudo
Eobseul mankeum ddwigo itneungeol
Break it down to you, down to you,
Nae gaseumi neo, neol gajji
Motandamyeon meomchul georanda (nal barabwara)

Borggamargga, borggamargga, borggamargga na gateun namja
Bonchemanche, bonchemanche, bonchemanche doraseo bwado
Bogobwado, bogobwado, bogobwado na bagge eobtda
Bonamana, bonamana, bonamana (Baby, you turn it up now)

[Donghae] Mweol sargga, sargga, sargga, sargga neoreul wihan seonmul
O, michigetda. Saenggakman haedo joahal ni moseub
[Kyuhyun] Listen girl [Donghae] Joahae
[Kyuhyun] Baby girl [Yesung] Saranghae
[Kyuhyun] Namani neoreul wihan namja
[Yesung] Deureojweo bwa neoreul hyanghan gobaek

[Ryeowook] Nae mamyi say, aeman taeuji malgo jebal
Ggeudeok, ggeudeok, ggeudeok
[Sungmin] I noryeok jeongdomyeon narado guhae
Giteuk, giteuk, giteuk
[Ryeowook + Sungmin] Nan eoddeogarago, eoddeogarago geunyeomani
Nae jeonbuin geol, geol, geol

Bounce to you, bounce to you,
Nae gaseumeun neol hyanghae jabil sudo
Eobseul mankeum ddwigo itneungeol
Break it down to you, down to you,
Nae gaseumi neo, neol gajji
Motandamyeon meomchul georanda (nal barabwara)

Borggamargga, borggamargga, borggamargga na gateun namja
Bonchemanche, bonchemanche, bonchemanche doraseo bwado
Bogobwado, bogobwado, bogobwado na bagge eobtda
Bonamana, bonamana, bonamana na bagge eobtda

[Leeteuk] Nan deudyeo michilgeoya. Pogbarhae beoril geoya
[Heechul] Deo mot chamgesseo geunyeomanyi milgo danggigi
[Eunhyuk] O jinjja michilgeoya Nuga jom malryeobwa bwa
[Siwon] Ireoke himdeul georan geol nuga marhaesseoyaji

[Ryeowook] (It's) True, true nae gamjeongeun gal gosi eobseo
Nege majchweo beoringeol neon jal aljanni
[Kyuhyun] How to keep loving you?
Naega jinjja nege jaralge idaero nal sseogyeo dujima

[Yesung] Gidarinda Miina!
[Shindong] Hope you'll step to me, step to me
[Yesung] Saranghanda Miina!
[Shindong] Bring it, sign to me, sign to me
Hahahaha hahahahaha
[Ryeowook] Geunyeoga imi nal barabol
[Kyuhyun] Junbiga dwae isseotna bwa

Bounce to you, bounce to you
Nae gaseumeun neol hyanghae jabil sudo
Eobseul mankeum ddwigo itneungeol
Break it down to you, down to you,
Nae gaseumi neo, neol gajji
Motandamyeon meomchul georanda (nal barabwara)

Borggamargga, borggamargga, borggamargga, na gateun namja
Bonchemanche, bonchemanche, bonchemanche, doraseo bwado
Bogobwado, bogobwado, bogobwado, na bagge eobtda
Bonamana, bonamana, bonamana, na bagge eobtda

For translation in English, check this site.


Have been YouTubing a lot recently and checking on Korean musics. After being introduced into several groups such as SNSD, Super Junior etc by my friends and brother, I go search and find more. Lol, I am instantly hooked. =D

I guess I can't resist this great wave from Korea. It is truly an overwhelming phenomenon. Although we don't understand the language, it doesn't stop us from enjoying their music. Korean Pop (or K-Pop) is quite happening at the moment, I guess. Some of these singers manage to achieve international success. Apparently, language is not a barrier for them.

Currently listening to Super Junior's and SNSD's. Bonamana is my new addiction. ^^

Super Junior

p/s There is just one particular member in this group, who is not given a solo part. He just sings along in the chorus part and dance in the music video. This happens in few other songs too. Hmm...

Sunday, December 19, 2010

I Look To You

I Look To You (Original singer: Whitney Houston)

As I lay me down,
Heaven hear me now.
I'm lost without a cause
After giving it my all.

Winter storms have come
And darkened my sun.
After all that I've been through
Who on earth can I turn to?

I look to you.
I look to you.
After all my strength is gone,
In you I can be strong
I look to you.
I look to you.
And when melodies are gone,
In you I hear a song.
I look to you.

About to lose my breathe,
There's no more fighting left,
Sinking to rise no more,
Searching for that open door.

And every road that I've taken
Lead to my regret.
And I don't know if I'm going to make it.
Nothing to do but lift my head

I look to you.
I look to you.
And with all my strength is gone,
In you I can be strong
I look to you.
I look to you.
And when melodies are gone,
In you I hear a song.
I look to you.

My levees are broken
Walls come down
Tumbling down on me
The rain is falling.
Defeat is calling.
I need you to set me free.
Take me far away from the battle.
I need you.
Shine on me.

I look to you.
I look to you.
After all my strength is gone,
In you I can be strong
I look to you.
I look to you.
And when melodies are gone,
In you I hear a song.
I look to you.

A powerful vocal performance by Amber Riley, who acts as Mercedes in Glee.


Third week of holidays has ended, this weekend arrives sooner than I thought. This week passed me by surprisingly faster compared to the first 2 weeks. I guess I have good time, eh? Exactly another 5 weeks of break to go.

Watched Narnia with my brothers last Friday.
The movie was alright. Not really a Narnia fan but the story goes pretty well and it doesn't bore me till the end. The only thing bothers me is the cinema itself.
1. It was so dark inside and the seat numbers couldn't be seen.
2. The air-conditioner was not functioning well. It was warm inside the hall.
3. The sound system failed. -_-
4. The ticket price is freaking nine bucks! That's expensive.

But I guess, watching movie in cinema is not really a popular leisure activity in this small town and that explains the poor maintenance of the cinema. I am quite surprised that the cinema still can hold on for that long without going bankrupt.

Saw a blog post commented on Bintulu the other day. This particular blogger says that this town sucks and boring to him. Well, for a guy who used to the luxury life of the city, sorry to say that this town can't always fulfill his needs. For locals, we have been living this way as long as we can remember. We don't have bowling alley. We don't have high-end coffee shops. Certain brand shops are not available. Poor road conditions. We do have lots of pubs and lounge though. lol. The thing is we are used to this already.

Bintulu is progressing, slowly and it's only matter of time that this little town to be really developed. But frankly, sometimes I do miss the old Bintulu because that is what hometown really means to me. Well, change is inevitable, isn't it?

On the other note, Christmas is fast approaching, which falls on coming Saturday. Wah, another 2 weeks 2010 is coming to an end. My dear time, you have been running at a great pace this year, I would say. Anyway, let's set up our christmas tree and celebrate this festive seasons! =D

Before I end, just a random sharing. I watched E! and come across this celebrity.
At first glance, I thought she is Angelina Jolie but apparently, she's not. They do have close resemblance though. Her name is Kelly LeBrock, a popular celebrity back in 80's. Money can't buy beauty, huh? Oh wait, plastic surgery? Lol.
Come across this site where the celebrities aged. This is the list of the stars who don't age well.

Hurm, I know I am legally above 18 but I guess Google Images has to filter the result of the searches. -_-

**A complete ignorance is not the best remedy but at least it is good enough. It is true that wound will heal as time passes but what remains is the scar. Sometimes when have a sudden thought of it, even though just a little, the pain comes back and it usually ends in tears.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010


Downloading series for free, too good to be true, isn't it? There's a price to pay. Wanted to catch up with the new season of Glee and Vampire Diaries, but it takes days just to download one 40-minute episode. It's just like it takes months to have your savings but you can just spend it all in one go. What an analogy. -_-

While waiting (and waiting, and waiting the series to be fully downloaded, one episode at a time), I switch my mode for anime instead. I can download a full season of anime (12 episodes usually) within one day for free and have been watching several series at the moment which comprises both on-going and completed ones.

1. Fortune Arterial

This is one of the on-going anime with another 2 episodes on its way. It is about a student named Hasekura enters a school in which he finds out that the president and vice president of the student council are vampires. Not a horror anime but it's more to romance genre. Looking forward for its ending. My current favourite anime.

2. The World God Only Knows
A game addict who makes contract with a demon from hell (too cute to be a demon, I would say. -_-) to capture loss souls which are trapped in girls. He has to make the girls fall for him in order to release them. Another on-going anime.

3. B Gata H Kei
Completed anime series and done watching. It is about a 15 years old female student, Yamada on the quest in finding, erm, sex partners. lol! Very hilariously explicit. It is an "ecchi" kind of anime.

... and few more on their ways into my laptop. *waiting for glee and vampire diaries as well*
Have to say, I have been indulging myself with eastern (way to the east) entertainment a lot lately although I don't get what they say/sing, most of the time. lol

It's already third week of holidays, another 5 weeks to go. Yeehaa~ I am loving the holidays and Christmas is approaching!

Saturday, December 4, 2010


Oh, it is already 4th December, the very last month of this year. I have been saying this repetitively but yeah, time flies. Another 27 days, year 2010 is coming to an end. Frankly, I am not looking forward for 2011, yet. There are just so many happenings: Engineering Team Project (ETP), Industrial Training and most importantly, my brother is going to embark his new journey in university this coming 2nd January, which falls on his 19th birthday. That's a lot in one year. =S

Oh, talking about ETP, that means I will be in my junior year in 2011. Sophomore year, was, erm, a bit disastrous for me, in term of everything. I involved in quite a number of events for the past 2 semesters and put my studies in jeopardy. I considered myself quite lucky for being able to maintain my performance, I guess, for the first semester. I am not sure about the recent semester though. I can only cross my fingers. Next year, it will be my forth year in UTP. Wonder if I could relive my high school days?

Oh, this semester break will be my last longest break ever. I mean, a real last one as for the next 2 years, I won't be having any long break due to the 7 months internship and this continues until the end of degree studies, which will be in the end of December 2012. Hopefully, I will get a proper job after my graduation. I don't think there is any company gives you that long leave, do they? Well, unless I am a woman, there is a chance of 2-month break if I get pregnant and have a maternity leave. Lol, that's random.

Oh, thanks to my brother, I have been listening to Korean songs ever since I am home. I used to listen to Wonder Girls but apparently, they are not out with any new singles yet. For now, I switch my mode for Girls' Generation instead. This song was released in the beginning of this year. The title of this post, that's the song I am listening to. Very catchy and undoubtedly, the singers are cute. Last time it was "Gee" that brings me to them. I guess they are good with one-word-title song. Lol.
Sexy outfits but not the hair.

Oh, on the other note, Western music nowadays are more into hip hop and clubbing kind of songs which are not really cup of my tea (I do miss clubbing, lol). Seeking for soothing ballad music. Been listening to Katy Perry's now, though. I am not really looking at her when she released her first single, which was "I Kissed A Girl" and I was like, urgh. Apparently, she just gets better. Her new album totally changes my impression towards her. "Firework" is the current addiction.
Snapshot of the music video: Firework out of her chest. -_-

Oh, I am back in playing The Sims 2. My "The Sims 3", apparently is the earliest version and I can't install the expansion packs and it's not free to upgrade it. Of course, I can get the pirated one but, erm, I am just lazy. Lol. But, my brothers managed to install the expansion packs for the previous edition of The Sims and currently playing it. So many features to be explored. So yeah, occupying my time by playing game.

It's snowing. Happy December! Merry Christmas in advance.

Oh, the plan for this semester break is basically to gain weight. Seriously. Trying to expand my appetite and eat more than I usually do. It is easy for some but not for me. =S

I guess that's about all for now. I blog less and less nowadays and I only blog when I am bored and yeah, when I am emo but this is not an emo post. Bad thing though, all people around me think that I am a strongly emotional person due to my posts. To think again, I don't post that much, do I? Occasionally, once in a blue moon, I am experiencing the low point of my life. I guess everyone does. Don't lie. =)

Oh, this marks the eighth "oh" for this blog. Simply, that's the number of "Oh" in last part of the song. Lol, bye for now.
And oh, Happy Holidays! That's ninth.

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
ppareul saranghae
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah
manhi manhihae

*It was the darkest time in my life. Ironically, that was also the time for me to realise the source of brightness, which always makes my day brighter than the midday sun. I am not going to let it go away.

Friday, November 19, 2010

Time & Space

I'm kinda devastated.
I was fine until I get a call.
I'm so disturbed right now.
My EQ really sucks, at the moment.
Can't really take hurtful words.
It's worst when it is from someone that you love.

I just activate my Facebook few days ago.
Hoping for a positive turning point.
Well, I guess not.
Deactivate it.
Once again.
Not to escape.
Just to give me more time and space,
to ponder.
What have I really done wrong?

I take this as a test from God.
For me to learn.
To be better.
To be stronger.

Life is just so vague, is it not?

Tuesday, November 16, 2010


Bored of studying. So...

In remembrance of the creator of Pokemon, Takeshi Shudo.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Separation Process 2

I wonder how many times I have revised my study timetable again and again. I guess the current timetable that I have now is the third time I rearranged it. This is simply because I can't really discipline myself to follow it. Or rather, the timetable just acts as an comforting agent to calm me down so that I won't get stressed easily when the exam is approaching. As I mentioned in previous post, it just to make me feel that I have enough time to study, although not really so. -.-

Separation Process 2, one of the core subjects for this semester. I have all the energy and momentum to study until just now. I guess I just reached my limit and my mind is now saturated with those concepts. Referring to the so-called summary provided by our lecturer, it makes thing worst. It is a real summary of everything of what she has taught. It is not even tips or anything. Giving me false hope. -_-

I wonder why she loves the theory part that much since she included in both of our tests and I screwed up both. Somehow I do believe the reason she is doing this is to make us read everything, rather than just targeting certain subtopics to score in the subject. To a certain extent, I agree with this because my principle in studying is to read everything, whether being tested or not, because that is the main purpose of the education, is it not? My two cents. The only issue is that she allocates quite high weightage on theory while setting the questions. This one, I don't agree. >.<

Mumbling here to kill my time since the mood of studying is not around. And to express my dissatisfaction. I guess the most free time to update blog is during this period, huh?

Using my roomie laptop to update this blog. Asides from deactivating my facebook, I am putting my laptop away as well. "Crazy kah?" my friend responded. I really need to reduce the dependency on laptop now. Back in high school, I didn't even have personal computer at home. Study life was less stressful for me, I have less things to worry about. Less distractions.

Back in idle mode. Ciao~

Friday, November 12, 2010

Study Week

.... or so I thought.

It is now already the fifth day of study week and I only managed to study one subject, in which I have not finished studying it. The weather lately has been so "encouraging" in deviating my study mood away from me. This morning I planned to go to Information Resource Center aka IRC to continue my revision which keeps on being interrupted in the room, especially bed. At the moment I opened my eyes, it was raining outside. Chilling atmosphere. I continued to lie on my bed. Epic failure! -_-

My Final Exam Schedule:
19 November

20 November:
1430-1730 PROBABILITY & STATISTICS (Undercroft)

22 November:

23 November:

28 November:

So, it is like another one week to go before final exam commences. My mind keeps on telling me that I still have time to study. Frankly, I am not really a consistent-or-in-advance-study-type student. I prefer last minute because the past experience taught me that no matter how I study, the output is still the same. By any means, I will still get what I deserve. It's hard to force myself to munching all those mumbo-jumbo of the SIX subjects if the time is not right. It is self-torturing. lol
This mindset is kind of wrong. -.-

I deactivate my Facebook account at the moment, by hoping to reduce distraction. It doesn't go really well though. Distractions are still there, due to several factors, which has bothered me. I am in state of disturbed at the moment, where at some point of time, it affects my concentration while studying. Study week doesn't start really well this time but I hope it won't end in such way too. At this time I can only be hopeful.

Looking forward to go home already. Leaving UTP on 28th, flying home in the morning of 29th, as early as 7.30am. =D

Happy studying, everyone!

Sunday, October 24, 2010

That Special Feeling...

Love is a very vague subject to be discussed. When people talk about love, the common first impression would be "couple", "lovers", "Jack & Rose" and so on. Well, not to deny that they are completely wrong with their ideas. Love is a topic that is always open to everyone for individual interpretation.

Forbidden love between Jack & Rose, eh?

Wikipedia defines love as the emotion of strong affection and personal attachment. Affection simply means the feeling of fondness towards someone. Attachment, on the other note, refers to the relationships between people. From this definition, it is clearly seen that love does not evolve around romance only. When I talk about love (personally), I would not really relate it to the popular perception. I am not the one who would exclaim "eeyeer..." when love topic is being raised. Not that I am not matured enough to really fall in love but in my own way, love is much more than that, which is simply hard to be put into words.

For this special post, I would confine my love within special relationship, friendship. =)

My circles of friends, from hometown to UTP!

Friendship, how would we define it? It is a relationship between two or more persons which requires no conditions to be built upon. We need not trade anything for the friendship we make. All we need is only, well, ourselves and I would say above all is, sincerity. Some are just being mere friends. Some become close of yours, and some turn out to be special ones that you treasure so dearly. Some, well, become more than just friends. There are many level of friendship, I can say. Even so, that does not mean, we cannot care for all. We can. We always can. It is not the matter of time, how long you have known each other or still stay in touch. Friendship comes purely from your heart, the sincerity of making friends. It is the matter how much you still care for one another. This is the principle that I uphold when making friends. That's the idea, at least.

Love in friendship, to me, is a special kind of love where sometimes it is hard to express. May be it can be done but not directly, I suppose. Love cannot be shown by single gesture. There are so many factors to be considered in conforming the love that you have is the true sincere one. Don't get astray though. I am still talking about friendship love. If you start to get different ideas, that means we are not of the same frequency. Or may be it is me that is being abnormal?

For a single person (but not available) like me, I am not really into romance relationship right now because it requires high commitment to make it work (as if I know a lot but I do observe people).

Instead, I prefer to have some close friends that I can count on.
The ones who listen to my stories.
The ones who heal my sorrow.
The ones who will give their shoulders for me to lean on during bad times.
The ones who shares happy stories with me.
The ones who doesn't mind I am troubling them in the middle of the night (hope so)
The ones who accept whatever I am doing.
The ones who can bear with my bad habit (in which I should take the initiative to change)
The ones who really understand you.
The ones who will always be there for you.
The ones who wait for you, without complaining.
The ones that, without him or her, you will be feeling empty.
The ones who you are mad at and yet still can care about at the same time.
Above all, they are the one who give you that warmth feeling in the heart.
You might be alone sometimes, it's that special feeling that accompanies you.
That special feeling is simple as friendship love.

The journey in getting a special friend for yourself isn't that easy. Among all the things that I handle, relationship is the hardest one to keep up with because humans are just unpredictable, don't they? If the other side doesn't make any move, you have to take the initiative. If the other side doesn't look for you, so it's you should be the one who do so. It's hard, I know but that is how it works (at least to me). Just like what Celine Dion says, "that's the way it is".

You need not to walk alone with that feeling of loneliness anymore.

Love comes in many ways but currently, this is the one I am holding on to. It's hard sometimes, full of ups and downs but that is what makes the friendship really special. It is truly incomparable. It is that special feeling...

I am contented that I found that special feeling in you...

*Disclaimer: Just want to clarify that when I used to update my blog quite frequent back in my first year of studies, I post a lot on relationship matter. So, if you browse through my old posts randomly and found the similarity in this post, it is still truly yours.
**Some of the photos attached. Credit given to Google images.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

The Departed

Mid-sem break has commenced for nearly half a week now, didn’t realize the time passed by so fast. All I have done after reaching home last Saturday was eating, watching TV, playing games, sleeping and not to mention spending time with my family, of course. Totally in stress-free mode. Nothing bothers me at the moment. Really want to enjoy this short break to the maximum. Forget about all those commitments. =)

Until last Monday, I received unpleasant news from my peers. Apparently, one of my schoolmates has passed on as she lost the battle to bone cancer. It was kind of shocking for me because she seems to be just fine to me. Although I didn’t know her well, at least I know who she is and this news is deeply felt. What disturbs me the most is that she is of our age. Life is just so fragile, is it not? At the moment I am still sort of mourning the loss of my aunt back in June who was also passed away due to cancer. This makes me a bit paranoid about death right now as it comes in no time, regardless of age. May their souls rest in peace.

Can’t imagine if this happens to my loved ones. I’m not ready to take it yet…

Okay, set aside the sad mode. Switch one the “excited” mode. Lol. Month of Syawal is coming means that the month of Ramadhan is coming to an end. Huh, how time flies, the fasting period is finishing soon. Have tried fasting for few days and it was not that bad actually. In a way it helps to cleanse my digestive system.

Spending my last day at home, tomorrow will be heading to KK for raya, although I start to miss home already because the next come back will be end of November or early December. 2 months away. Well, home will always be there, waiting for my return.

Signing off. Need to prepare myself. Bye for now.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.
Maaf Zahir dan Batin.
Let’s embrace the upcoming Syawal.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Eternal Contentment

Okay, it is about time to update my dear blog. I have abandoned for nearly a month already. I used to complain that my friends don't update theirs. Ironically, it is me now don't update mine as often as I used to. Kind of lazy to blog nowadays. If not, I am just too tired. Urgh, just want to express my thought around here right now.

Not sure how long will this post be ever since the last post. Apparently, I have not talked about my new semester yet. So, let's start. It's already in the mid of the forth week of second year second semester. That line again, "how time flies" keeps on popping into my mind. Talking about the subjects, a total of 18 credit hours which comprises 6 courses:

1. Reaction Engineering
2. Separation Process 2
3. Introduction to Management
4. Process Safety & Loss Prevention
5. Probability & Statistics
6. Process Instrumentation

The schedule this semester is damn hectic. I don't mind about early morning class but I don't really like the idea that the class ends so late in the evening. My lecture marathon ends at 6pm, 5pm and 7pm respectively for the first three days of lecture. It's torturing. *_* Thankfully, there is no class in the Friday evening, can rest well and prepare for the weekend.

Maths is my favourite subject so, I enjoy the PROBSTAT class most. Our lecturer is really funny, have that a grandpa kind of figure to me. The rest, are just okay. Some lectures can be so boring. Typical lo.

Studies set aside. Talking about non-academic commitments. I have 4 clubs/event commitment this semester. Crazy! First and foremost is my dear English Language Club.
I am the secretary for this new term. The workload isn't that much but I dearly passionate about ELC. So, it is not really a burden for me.

Also, currently holds the position of co-editor of Heart of Tronoh (HOT), the very first newsletter in our campus. It is a collaboration of ELC, MEDTECH and SRC. Thought of quitting next semester. Still under consideration.

Next, unbelievably, UTP Choir Group.
I am in the Management Team, acts as the secretary, and also sort like PIC for disciplinary actions to look after the members commitment towards the group. Actually I went for the audition. I wanted to sing but sadly I didn't pass. T.T Plus, there are lots of members are having my kind of voice which is tenor for the boys. Sigh, no chance lo.

This one is kind of last minute. I am also a part of CONVOFAIR 2010 committee, under my roommate's department, Exhibition.
Zero experience. Not used to do the calling and stuff. It isn't really my thing. Hope I have done well so far for the first timer. *cross fingers*

What else I can update here? Oh ya, you might be wondering what's with the post title? May be not. Well, it is something like lifetime goal of mine, in which I believe I won't get there but I am going through the journey that leads me there. It can be either be sweet or bitter. As I said, you have to go through the journey of bitterness to know how sweet life can be. Tired of being emotional, I need to implement this in my head so that I can be more open hearted to perceive what I am facing now.

Enough ranting. Hope you are updated with my latest post. Wish to know more about my recent updates just visit my Facebook page lo.

Bye for now. See ya!

**Being mad and care about you at the same time just drive me nut. I am not really sure what to do sometimes. And now, I am missing you~

Friday, July 23, 2010

Over The Rainbow

Hello, people! Finally I am back in campus. Been here since Wednesday night, reached my room exactly at 10.30pm, earlier than I thought. Again, my roommate was not around when I am there, he is a busy man. The thing is, I started to experience pre-semester boredom. Nothing much I can do right now while all my friends are so busy with their commitment but not me. It leaves me feeling so empty and lonely.... T.T

Anyway, my second year second semester commences next Monday. Kind of excited, well, I always feel that every time time school reopens and when in the mid of semester, I will complaint how stress I am with all those work. Lol. I hope not for this time. Need to change this little mindset. Want to perform better this semester, although the courses are kind of tough this time. Well, nothing is impossible. =)

Have a song to share here. I guess those who watched Glee sure know. It's Over The Rainbow. Not really sure who's the original singer but I like Glee's version a lot.

somewhere over the rainbow
way up high
there's a land that i heard of
once in a lullaby

somewhere over the rainbow
skies are blue
and the dreams that you dare to dream
really do come true

some day i'll wish apon a star
and wake up where the clouds are far behind me
where troubles melt like lemon drops
away above the chimney tops
that's where you'll find me

somewhereover the rainbow
bluebirds fly
birds fly over the rainbow
why,then,oh why caan't i?

somewhere over the rainbow
skies are blue
and the dreams that you dare to dream
really do come true

*Miss talking to you... =(
**This empty space of mine is so huge and complicated. Hardly to be filled up completely. Sad.

***listening to the song***

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Thank you, SEPRO!

Anticipation has finally come to an end when the result of my last semester was released yesterday. Feel like it was two days ago though since I was staying awake until midnight on Thursday which eventually transitioned to the following day. Lol.

I get what I deserve. I am grateful enough that I still manage to get into Dean's List for the fifth time. Huh, last semester was a hard one for me. I was kind of losing my way before final exam. Lazy to recall back much of it because it is all history now.

You might be wondering what's with the title of this post. Ah well, SEPRO which stands for Separation Process was formerly one of my nightmares last semester. I screwed up my quizzes and tests. Assignments, all were copied blindly from my friends. True, I am not lying and this resulted in very low mark for my overall coursework. At that point, I was sort of depressed. It was the lowest among all and to ace in this subject is just like wanting the pigs to fly.

Somehow or rather, I didn't give up just yet. I managed to catch up during study week and just realised that there was nothing hard for this course. I was regret that I didn't study earlier. When it comes to final exam, I managed to answer all the questions without encountering any blank point. I am not boasting. =)

Just to tell you, I need score at least 90% in final in order to get that A in this subject. Sound rather impossible and guess what? I made it. =D

Despite of the disappointment of other courses, getting that A in SEPRO is all that matters because it makes me believe there is always hope, no matter what kind of circumstances. All you need to do is to believe.

Done with my story. Haha. Another 4 days before leaving home. Savouring every single moment of it. See ya!

*GPA is just numbers, after all. It is a little bonus for you by giving the sense of excitement for your temporary achievement.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Touchin' Lovin' Squeezin'

My last entry was 10 days ago. I am leaving home in another 10 days. Holiday is going to over soon.

Currently in love with the songs that was sung by the Glee cast in the Season Finale. The medley is simply awesome.

"Don't Stop Believin'" at the end is really nostalgic for me. It has been a long way for them to go this far, well, if you remember that they sing this song in the first episode. Oh, have I ever mentioned the ELC Glee sang this song during their debut performance, too? Hehe...

Result is expected to be released this Friday. *nervous*
Till then..

*Listening to Adam Lambert's songs...

Thursday, July 1, 2010


Latest birthday gift which I just get it today, by post.

Thank you! =)

*LOL, I miss the "K" reply. =D
**Windows Vista really sucks la. Have been thinking of changing my laptop OS several times already. Huhu~

Wednesday, June 30, 2010


The last day of June and tomorrow is the first day of July. Talking about July, it just reminds me that new semester is going to start soon. Leaving home on 21st July, meaning I still have another 3 weeks to be at home. I shall maximize the remaining days of freedom by doing something beneficial. I wonder if sleeping for 12 hours in a day counts? Lol, seriously, back in campus, I have been sort of lacking of sleeping and I need to pay those debts. Hoho~ Urgh, what else can I do?

Anyway, as most of my friends know, I am kind of crazy over Lady Gaga. (lol!) In the beginning, I do detested her for being so bizarre in everything. Nevertheless, over time, as my friend suggested, perhaps I have conditioned myself to accept her over the top personalities. I just admire her personal interpretation of arts in the form of music. Some people may find it is disturbing but being a little open-minded, she is just being herself.

Oh, about her latest single, Alejandro. I am addicted! The music video, I do think it is way too disturbing though. I do like the choreography which is better than the one in Bad Romance. But, I prefer Bad Romance music video over this. Lol, both songs are equally entertaining.

Don't call my name
Don't call my name
I'm not your babe
I'm not your babe
Don't wanna kiss
Don't wanna touch
Just smoke one cigarette and hush
Don't call my name
Don't call my name

"Telephone" sucks though. It is disappointing. The video is even worst. *_*

Came back from jungle tracking and jogging few hours ago. Need to work on my stamina really. If my plan goes well, I will be hiking Mount Kinabalu next year.

4101m high


Let's welcome the month of JULY.
Half of 2010 has passed.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Bye Bye

This is for my people who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my people who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Bye Bye [3x]
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Bye bye [3x]
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye


Still in disbelief that Aunty has left us.

I still remembered that Aunty was there when we first visit your home few years ago back in Miri.
I still remembered that Aunty was there to pick me up at Miri Bus Station 3 years ago to bring me to SM Sains Miri for Nurturing The Eagle Program.
I still remembered that Aunty was at my home, using my laptop, login into Facebook, playing Restaurant City during last Christmas.
I still remembered that the last time I saw Aunty was 3 months ago, on 20 March, the day I went back to UTP. Aunty was still in good shape, still can talk, still can walk.

From what I saw last time, I thought Aunty is going to be better. Despite of the health condition that wasn't encouraging, I do believe that Aunty will get through this. I was very hopeful until the call that I made to mum that she told me Aunty was diagnosed with forth stage cancer. I was speechless. When mum told me your condition, Aunty seems to suffer a lot and it is hard for me to imagine what Aunty is going through. I know it is only matter of time before Aunty leaving us forever but not this soon.

I am glad get to see Aunty for the last time while still in good shape. Memories and moments spent with Aunty will be cherished forever.

Aunty, rest in peace.
God bless your soul.
Miss you...