Time & Space

I'm kinda devastated.

I was fine until I get a call.

I'm so disturbed right now.

My EQ really sucks, at the moment.

Can't really take hurtful words.

It's worst when it is from someone that you love.

I just activate my Facebook few days ago.

Hoping for a positive turning point.

Well, I guess not.

Deactivate it.

Once again.

Not to escape.

Just to give me more time and space,

to ponder.

What have I really done wrong?

I take this as a test from God.

For me to learn.

To be better.

To be stronger.

Life is just so vague, is it not?

Pikachu!

Bored of studying. So...

-_-

In remembrance of the creator of Pokemon, Takeshi Shudo.

Separation Process 2

I wonder how many times I have revised my study timetable again and again. I guess the current timetable that I have now is the third time I rearranged it. This is simply because I can't really discipline myself to follow it. Or rather, the timetable just acts as an comforting agent to calm me down so that I won't get stressed easily when the exam is approaching. As I mentioned in previous post, it just to make me feel that I have enough time to study, although not really so. -.-

Separation Process 2, one of the core subjects for this semester. I have all the energy and momentum to study until just now. I guess I just reached my limit and my mind is now saturated with those concepts. Referring to the so-called summary provided by our lecturer, it makes thing worst. It is a real summary of everything of what she has taught. It is not even tips or anything. Giving me false hope. -_-

I wonder why she loves the theory part that much since she included in both of our tests and I screwed up both. Somehow I do believe the reason she is doing this is to make us read everything, rather than just targeting certain subtopics to score in the subject. To a certain extent, I agree with this because my principle in studying is to read everything, whether being tested or not, because that is the main purpose of the education, is it not? My two cents. The only issue is that she allocates quite high weightage on theory while setting the questions. This one, I don't agree. >.<

Mumbling here to kill my time since the mood of studying is not around. And to express my dissatisfaction. I guess the most free time to update blog is during this period, huh?

Using my roomie laptop to update this blog. Asides from deactivating my facebook, I am putting my laptop away as well. "Crazy kah?" my friend responded. I really need to reduce the dependency on laptop now. Back in high school, I didn't even have personal computer at home. Study life was less stressful for me, I have less things to worry about. Less distractions.

Back in idle mode. Ciao~

Study Week

.... or so I thought.

It is now already the fifth day of study week and I only managed to study one subject, in which I have not finished studying it. The weather lately has been so "encouraging" in deviating my study mood away from me. This morning I planned to go to Information Resource Center aka IRC to continue my revision which keeps on being interrupted in the room, especially bed. At the moment I opened my eyes, it was raining outside. Chilling atmosphere. I continued to lie on my bed. Epic failure! -_-

My Final Exam Schedule:

19 November

1500-1800 INTRODUCTION TO MANAGEMENT (CH)

20 November:

0900-1200 PROCESS SAFETY & LOSS PREVENTION (CH)

1430-1730 PROBABILITY & STATISTICS (Undercroft)

22 November:

0900-1200 SEPARATION PROCESS 2 (MH)

23 November:

0900-1100 PROCESS INSTRUMENTATION (MH)

28 November:

0900-1200 REACTION ENGINEERING (MH)

So, it is like another one week to go before final exam commences. My mind keeps on telling me that I still have time to study. Frankly, I am not really a consistent-or-in-advance-study-type student. I prefer last minute because the past experience taught me that no matter how I study, the output is still the same. By any means, I will still get what I deserve. It's hard to force myself to munching all those mumbo-jumbo of the SIX subjects if the time is not right. It is self-torturing. lol

This mindset is kind of wrong. -.-

I deactivate my Facebook account at the moment, by hoping to reduce distraction. It doesn't go really well though. Distractions are still there, due to several factors, which has bothered me. I am in state of disturbed at the moment, where at some point of time, it affects my concentration while studying. Study week doesn't start really well this time but I hope it won't end in such way too. At this time I can only be hopeful.

Looking forward to go home already. Leaving UTP on 28th, flying home in the morning of 29th, as early as 7.30am. =D

Happy studying, everyone!