Pikachu!

Bored of studying. So...

-_-

In remembrance of the creator of Pokemon, Takeshi Shudo.

Separation Process 2

I wonder how many times I have revised my study timetable again and again. I guess the current timetable that I have now is the third time I rearranged it. This is simply because I can't really discipline myself to follow it. Or rather, the timetable just acts as an comforting agent to calm me down so that I won't get stressed easily when the exam is approaching. As I mentioned in previous post, it just to make me feel that I have enough time to study, although not really so. -.-

Separation Process 2, one of the core subjects for this semester. I have all the energy and momentum to study until just now. I guess I just reached my limit and my mind is now saturated with those concepts. Referring to the so-called summary provided by our lecturer, it makes thing worst. It is a real summary of everything of what she has taught. It is not even tips or anything. Giving me false hope. -_-

I wonder why she loves the theory part that much since she included in both of our tests and I screwed up both. Somehow I do believe the reason she is doing this is to make us read everything, rather than just targeting certain subtopics to score in the subject. To a certain extent, I agree with this because my principle in studying is to read everything, whether being tested or not, because that is the main purpose of the education, is it not? My two cents. The only issue is that she allocates quite high weightage on theory while setting the questions. This one, I don't agree. >.<

Mumbling here to kill my time since the mood of studying is not around. And to express my dissatisfaction. I guess the most free time to update blog is during this period, huh?

Using my roomie laptop to update this blog. Asides from deactivating my facebook, I am putting my laptop away as well. "Crazy kah?" my friend responded. I really need to reduce the dependency on laptop now. Back in high school, I didn't even have personal computer at home. Study life was less stressful for me, I have less things to worry about. Less distractions.

Back in idle mode. Ciao~

Study Week

.... or so I thought.

It is now already the fifth day of study week and I only managed to study one subject, in which I have not finished studying it. The weather lately has been so "encouraging" in deviating my study mood away from me. This morning I planned to go to Information Resource Center aka IRC to continue my revision which keeps on being interrupted in the room, especially bed. At the moment I opened my eyes, it was raining outside. Chilling atmosphere. I continued to lie on my bed. Epic failure! -_-

My Final Exam Schedule:

19 November

1500-1800 INTRODUCTION TO MANAGEMENT (CH)

20 November:

0900-1200 PROCESS SAFETY & LOSS PREVENTION (CH)

1430-1730 PROBABILITY & STATISTICS (Undercroft)

22 November:

0900-1200 SEPARATION PROCESS 2 (MH)

23 November:

0900-1100 PROCESS INSTRUMENTATION (MH)

28 November:

0900-1200 REACTION ENGINEERING (MH)

So, it is like another one week to go before final exam commences. My mind keeps on telling me that I still have time to study. Frankly, I am not really a consistent-or-in-advance-study-type student. I prefer last minute because the past experience taught me that no matter how I study, the output is still the same. By any means, I will still get what I deserve. It's hard to force myself to munching all those mumbo-jumbo of the SIX subjects if the time is not right. It is self-torturing. lol

This mindset is kind of wrong. -.-

I deactivate my Facebook account at the moment, by hoping to reduce distraction. It doesn't go really well though. Distractions are still there, due to several factors, which has bothered me. I am in state of disturbed at the moment, where at some point of time, it affects my concentration while studying. Study week doesn't start really well this time but I hope it won't end in such way too. At this time I can only be hopeful.

Looking forward to go home already. Leaving UTP on 28th, flying home in the morning of 29th, as early as 7.30am. =D

Happy studying, everyone!

That Special Feeling...

Love is a very vague subject to be discussed. When people talk about love, the common first impression would be "couple", "lovers", "Jack & Rose" and so on. Well, not to deny that they are completely wrong with their ideas. Love is a topic that is always open to everyone for individual interpretation.

Forbidden love between Jack & Rose, eh?

Wikipedia defines love as the emotion of strong affection and personal attachment. Affection simply means the feeling of fondness towards someone. Attachment, on the other note, refers to the relationships between people. From this definition, it is clearly seen that love does not evolve around romance only. When I talk about love (personally), I would not really relate it to the popular perception. I am not the one who would exclaim "eeyeer..." when love topic is being raised. Not that I am not matured enough to really fall in love but in my own way, love is much more than that, which is simply hard to be put into words.

For this special post, I would confine my love within special relationship, friendship. =)

My circles of friends, from hometown to UTP!

Friendship, how would we define it? It is a relationship between two or more persons which requires no conditions to be built upon. We need not trade anything for the friendship we make. All we need is only, well, ourselves and I would say above all is, sincerity. Some are just being mere friends. Some become close of yours, and some turn out to be special ones that you treasure so dearly. Some, well, become more than just friends. There are many level of friendship, I can say. Even so, that does not mean, we cannot care for all. We can. We always can. It is not the matter of time, how long you have known each other or still stay in touch. Friendship comes purely from your heart, the sincerity of making friends. It is the matter how much you still care for one another. This is the principle that I uphold when making friends. That's the idea, at least.



Love in friendship, to me, is a special kind of love where sometimes it is hard to express. May be it can be done but not directly, I suppose. Love cannot be shown by single gesture. There are so many factors to be considered in conforming the love that you have is the true sincere one. Don't get astray though. I am still talking about friendship love. If you start to get different ideas, that means we are not of the same frequency. Or may be it is me that is being abnormal?

For a single person (but not available) like me, I am not really into romance relationship right now because it requires high commitment to make it work (as if I know a lot but I do observe people).

Instead, I prefer to have some close friends that I can count on.
The ones who listen to my stories.
The ones who heal my sorrow.
The ones who will give their shoulders for me to lean on during bad times.
The ones who shares happy stories with me.
The ones who doesn't mind I am troubling them in the middle of the night (hope so)
The ones who accept whatever I am doing.
The ones who can bear with my bad habit (in which I should take the initiative to change)
The ones who really understand you.
The ones who will always be there for you.
The ones who wait for you, without complaining.
The ones that, without him or her, you will be feeling empty.
The ones who you are mad at and yet still can care about at the same time.
Above all, they are the one who give you that warmth feeling in the heart.
You might be alone sometimes, it's that special feeling that accompanies you.
That special feeling is simple as friendship love.

The journey in getting a special friend for yourself isn't that easy. Among all the things that I handle, relationship is the hardest one to keep up with because humans are just unpredictable, don't they? If the other side doesn't make any move, you have to take the initiative. If the other side doesn't look for you, so it's you should be the one who do so. It's hard, I know but that is how it works (at least to me). Just like what Celine Dion says, "that's the way it is".

You need not to walk alone with that feeling of loneliness anymore.

Love comes in many ways but currently, this is the one I am holding on to. It's hard sometimes, full of ups and downs but that is what makes the friendship really special. It is truly incomparable. It is that special feeling...

I am contented that I found that special feeling in you...
=)

*Disclaimer: Just want to clarify that when I used to update my blog quite frequent back in my first year of studies, I post a lot on relationship matter. So, if you browse through my old posts randomly and found the similarity in this post, it is still truly yours.
**Some of the photos attached. Credit given to Google images.

The Departed

Mid-sem break has commenced for nearly half a week now, didn’t realize the time passed by so fast. All I have done after reaching home last Saturday was eating, watching TV, playing games, sleeping and not to mention spending time with my family, of course. Totally in stress-free mode. Nothing bothers me at the moment. Really want to enjoy this short break to the maximum. Forget about all those commitments. =)

Until last Monday, I received unpleasant news from my peers. Apparently, one of my schoolmates has passed on as she lost the battle to bone cancer. It was kind of shocking for me because she seems to be just fine to me. Although I didn’t know her well, at least I know who she is and this news is deeply felt. What disturbs me the most is that she is of our age. Life is just so fragile, is it not? At the moment I am still sort of mourning the loss of my aunt back in June who was also passed away due to cancer. This makes me a bit paranoid about death right now as it comes in no time, regardless of age. May their souls rest in peace.

Can’t imagine if this happens to my loved ones. I’m not ready to take it yet…

Okay, set aside the sad mode. Switch one the “excited” mode. Lol. Month of Syawal is coming means that the month of Ramadhan is coming to an end. Huh, how time flies, the fasting period is finishing soon. Have tried fasting for few days and it was not that bad actually. In a way it helps to cleanse my digestive system.

Spending my last day at home, tomorrow will be heading to KK for raya, although I start to miss home already because the next come back will be end of November or early December. 2 months away. Well, home will always be there, waiting for my return.

Signing off. Need to prepare myself. Bye for now.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Let’s embrace the upcoming Syawal.

=)