That Special Feeling...

Love is a very vague subject to be discussed. When people talk about love, the common first impression would be "couple", "lovers", "Jack & Rose" and so on. Well, not to deny that they are completely wrong with their ideas. Love is a topic that is always open to everyone for individual interpretation.

Forbidden love between Jack & Rose, eh?

Wikipedia defines love as the emotion of strong affection and personal attachment. Affection simply means the feeling of fondness towards someone. Attachment, on the other note, refers to the relationships between people. From this definition, it is clearly seen that love does not evolve around romance only. When I talk about love (personally), I would not really relate it to the popular perception. I am not the one who would exclaim "eeyeer..." when love topic is being raised. Not that I am not matured enough to really fall in love but in my own way, love is much more than that, which is simply hard to be put into words.

For this special post, I would confine my love within special relationship, friendship. =)

My circles of friends, from hometown to UTP!

Friendship, how would we define it? It is a relationship between two or more persons which requires no conditions to be built upon. We need not trade anything for the friendship we make. All we need is only, well, ourselves and I would say above all is, sincerity. Some are just being mere friends. Some become close of yours, and some turn out to be special ones that you treasure so dearly. Some, well, become more than just friends. There are many level of friendship, I can say. Even so, that does not mean, we cannot care for all. We can. We always can. It is not the matter of time, how long you have known each other or still stay in touch. Friendship comes purely from your heart, the sincerity of making friends. It is the matter how much you still care for one another. This is the principle that I uphold when making friends. That's the idea, at least.



Love in friendship, to me, is a special kind of love where sometimes it is hard to express. May be it can be done but not directly, I suppose. Love cannot be shown by single gesture. There are so many factors to be considered in conforming the love that you have is the true sincere one. Don't get astray though. I am still talking about friendship love. If you start to get different ideas, that means we are not of the same frequency. Or may be it is me that is being abnormal?

For a single person (but not available) like me, I am not really into romance relationship right now because it requires high commitment to make it work (as if I know a lot but I do observe people).

Instead, I prefer to have some close friends that I can count on.
The ones who listen to my stories.
The ones who heal my sorrow.
The ones who will give their shoulders for me to lean on during bad times.
The ones who shares happy stories with me.
The ones who doesn't mind I am troubling them in the middle of the night (hope so)
The ones who accept whatever I am doing.
The ones who can bear with my bad habit (in which I should take the initiative to change)
The ones who really understand you.
The ones who will always be there for you.
The ones who wait for you, without complaining.
The ones that, without him or her, you will be feeling empty.
The ones who you are mad at and yet still can care about at the same time.
Above all, they are the one who give you that warmth feeling in the heart.
You might be alone sometimes, it's that special feeling that accompanies you.
That special feeling is simple as friendship love.

The journey in getting a special friend for yourself isn't that easy. Among all the things that I handle, relationship is the hardest one to keep up with because humans are just unpredictable, don't they? If the other side doesn't make any move, you have to take the initiative. If the other side doesn't look for you, so it's you should be the one who do so. It's hard, I know but that is how it works (at least to me). Just like what Celine Dion says, "that's the way it is".

You need not to walk alone with that feeling of loneliness anymore.

Love comes in many ways but currently, this is the one I am holding on to. It's hard sometimes, full of ups and downs but that is what makes the friendship really special. It is truly incomparable. It is that special feeling...

I am contented that I found that special feeling in you...
=)

*Disclaimer: Just want to clarify that when I used to update my blog quite frequent back in my first year of studies, I post a lot on relationship matter. So, if you browse through my old posts randomly and found the similarity in this post, it is still truly yours.
**Some of the photos attached. Credit given to Google images.

The Departed

Mid-sem break has commenced for nearly half a week now, didn’t realize the time passed by so fast. All I have done after reaching home last Saturday was eating, watching TV, playing games, sleeping and not to mention spending time with my family, of course. Totally in stress-free mode. Nothing bothers me at the moment. Really want to enjoy this short break to the maximum. Forget about all those commitments. =)

Until last Monday, I received unpleasant news from my peers. Apparently, one of my schoolmates has passed on as she lost the battle to bone cancer. It was kind of shocking for me because she seems to be just fine to me. Although I didn’t know her well, at least I know who she is and this news is deeply felt. What disturbs me the most is that she is of our age. Life is just so fragile, is it not? At the moment I am still sort of mourning the loss of my aunt back in June who was also passed away due to cancer. This makes me a bit paranoid about death right now as it comes in no time, regardless of age. May their souls rest in peace.

Can’t imagine if this happens to my loved ones. I’m not ready to take it yet…

Okay, set aside the sad mode. Switch one the “excited” mode. Lol. Month of Syawal is coming means that the month of Ramadhan is coming to an end. Huh, how time flies, the fasting period is finishing soon. Have tried fasting for few days and it was not that bad actually. In a way it helps to cleanse my digestive system.

Spending my last day at home, tomorrow will be heading to KK for raya, although I start to miss home already because the next come back will be end of November or early December. 2 months away. Well, home will always be there, waiting for my return.

Signing off. Need to prepare myself. Bye for now.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Let’s embrace the upcoming Syawal.

=)

Eternal Contentment

Okay, it is about time to update my dear blog. I have abandoned for nearly a month already. I used to complain that my friends don't update theirs. Ironically, it is me now don't update mine as often as I used to. Kind of lazy to blog nowadays. If not, I am just too tired. Urgh, just want to express my thought around here right now.

Not sure how long will this post be ever since the last post. Apparently, I have not talked about my new semester yet. So, let's start. It's already in the mid of the forth week of second year second semester. That line again, "how time flies" keeps on popping into my mind. Talking about the subjects, a total of 18 credit hours which comprises 6 courses:

1. Reaction Engineering

2. Separation Process 2

3. Introduction to Management

4. Process Safety & Loss Prevention

5. Probability & Statistics

6. Process Instrumentation

The schedule this semester is damn hectic. I don't mind about early morning class but I don't really like the idea that the class ends so late in the evening. My lecture marathon ends at 6pm, 5pm and 7pm respectively for the first three days of lecture. It's torturing. *_* Thankfully, there is no class in the Friday evening, can rest well and prepare for the weekend.

Maths is my favourite subject so, I enjoy the PROBSTAT class most. Our lecturer is really funny, have that a grandpa kind of figure to me. The rest, are just okay. Some lectures can be so boring. Typical lo.

Studies set aside. Talking about non-academic commitments. I have 4 clubs/event commitment this semester. Crazy! First and foremost is my dear English Language Club.
I am the secretary for this new term. The workload isn't that much but I dearly passionate about ELC. So, it is not really a burden for me.

Also, currently holds the position of co-editor of Heart of Tronoh (HOT), the very first newsletter in our campus. It is a collaboration of ELC, MEDTECH and SRC. Thought of quitting next semester. Still under consideration.

Next, unbelievably, UTP Choir Group.

I am in the Management Team, acts as the secretary, and also sort like PIC for disciplinary actions to look after the members commitment towards the group. Actually I went for the audition. I wanted to sing but sadly I didn't pass. T.T Plus, there are lots of members are having my kind of voice which is tenor for the boys. Sigh, no chance lo.

This one is kind of last minute. I am also a part of CONVOFAIR 2010 committee, under my roommate's department, Exhibition.
Zero experience. Not used to do the calling and stuff. It isn't really my thing. Hope I have done well so far for the first timer. *cross fingers*

What else I can update here? Oh ya, you might be wondering what's with the post title? May be not. Well, it is something like lifetime goal of mine, in which I believe I won't get there but I am going through the journey that leads me there. It can be either be sweet or bitter. As I said, you have to go through the journey of bitterness to know how sweet life can be. Tired of being emotional, I need to implement this in my head so that I can be more open hearted to perceive what I am facing now.

Enough ranting. Hope you are updated with my latest post. Wish to know more about my recent updates just visit my Facebook page lo.

Bye for now. See ya!

**Being mad and care about you at the same time just drive me nut. I am not really sure what to do sometimes. And now, I am missing you~

Over The Rainbow

Hello, people! Finally I am back in campus. Been here since Wednesday night, reached my room exactly at 10.30pm, earlier than I thought. Again, my roommate was not around when I am there, he is a busy man. The thing is, I started to experience pre-semester boredom. Nothing much I can do right now while all my friends are so busy with their commitment but not me. It leaves me feeling so empty and lonely.... T.T

Anyway, my second year second semester commences next Monday. Kind of excited, well, I always feel that every time time school reopens and when in the mid of semester, I will complaint how stress I am with all those work. Lol. I hope not for this time. Need to change this little mindset. Want to perform better this semester, although the courses are kind of tough this time. Well, nothing is impossible. =)

Have a song to share here. I guess those who watched Glee sure know. It's Over The Rainbow. Not really sure who's the original singer but I like Glee's version a lot.

somewhere over the rainbow

way up high

there's a land that i heard of

once in a lullaby

somewhere over the rainbow

skies are blue

and the dreams that you dare to dream

really do come true

some day i'll wish apon a star

and wake up where the clouds are far behind me

where troubles melt like lemon drops

away above the chimney tops

that's where you'll find me

somewhereover the rainbow

bluebirds fly

birds fly over the rainbow

why,then,oh why caan't i?

somewhere over the rainbow

skies are blue

and the dreams that you dare to dream

really do come true

*Miss talking to you... =(

**This empty space of mine is so huge and complicated. Hardly to be filled up completely. Sad.

***listening to the song***

Thank you, SEPRO!

Anticipation has finally come to an end when the result of my last semester was released yesterday. Feel like it was two days ago though since I was staying awake until midnight on Thursday which eventually transitioned to the following day. Lol.

I get what I deserve. I am grateful enough that I still manage to get into Dean's List for the fifth time. Huh, last semester was a hard one for me. I was kind of losing my way before final exam. Lazy to recall back much of it because it is all history now.

You might be wondering what's with the title of this post. Ah well, SEPRO which stands for Separation Process was formerly one of my nightmares last semester. I screwed up my quizzes and tests. Assignments, all were copied blindly from my friends. True, I am not lying and this resulted in very low mark for my overall coursework. At that point, I was sort of depressed. It was the lowest among all and to ace in this subject is just like wanting the pigs to fly.

Somehow or rather, I didn't give up just yet. I managed to catch up during study week and just realised that there was nothing hard for this course. I was regret that I didn't study earlier. When it comes to final exam, I managed to answer all the questions without encountering any blank point. I am not boasting. =)

Just to tell you, I need score at least 90% in final in order to get that A in this subject. Sound rather impossible and guess what? I made it. =D

Despite of the disappointment of other courses, getting that A in SEPRO is all that matters because it makes me believe there is always hope, no matter what kind of circumstances. All you need to do is to believe.

Done with my story. Haha. Another 4 days before leaving home. Savouring every single moment of it. See ya!

*GPA is just numbers, after all. It is a little bonus for you by giving the sense of excitement for your temporary achievement.