Little Update

My new pet dog, which makes her the third pet in my family. Her name is Ruby, our first ever female pet dog. Still two months old, I guess. Loves to bark, for no reason. A very pampered little puppy, I would say. Dog grows up so fast. She may be friendly with me now but after my next come back, she will not recognise me anymore.



Keep on listening to this Korean song, Nobody by Wonder Girls. I start to explore more about Korean music at the moment. I don't understand what are they singing but I find that their music is kind of nice.

Tomorrow will be going back to my long house for Gawai. Will blog about it if I could. Stay tuned. :)

SELAMAT ARI GAWAI
GAYU GURU GERAI NYAMAI
OO..... HA!

One Week at Home

It is 27 May. Nothing special about today. It is just that I have been 19's club for exactly one month. But, I still behave like the old me, not that "old", it is the another one. Refuse to grow up so fast, well, being childish is fun. Once you become like your dad, you won't expect yourself to behave like what you are now, will you?

I get myself new addiction lately. One of them is Plurking. Wondering if most of you heard about it. If you see at the side bar, Plurk thingy is the one under "My Updates". Plurking is a kind of social network website. You can make friends from there too. Unlike other typical website, you cannot upload photos or create your shoutout, whatever you can do in Facebook or Friendster. You can only like post a message or text (known as "Plurk"), just like updates accordance to the timeline. What is so fun about that? They include this "karma" feature to evaluate your activity in this website. So, the main goal will be like maximizing your karma. The highest stage will be NIRVANA. Plus, you can also respond to those plurks that your friends make, just like you are commenting on your friends' status in Facebook. The one in Plurk is more interactive, with emoticons. By the way, you can modify the layout as well. The one below is mine.

Yes, I am a TITANIC fanatic. What can I say?

Join Plurk here, if you feel want to. Just for the fun of it.

Restaurant City, a new application that I have just added few days ago, in Facebook. It is so addictive even though it seems to be like a simple game. This game just reminds me of The Sims. Can't wait for The Sims 3! Back to the story, the game is about creating your own restaurant, hiring your own employee to run it. Also, trying to get ingredients to serve the meals for your customers.
For those who are playing the game, I need tomatoes!

I get addicted to play O2Jam. I am a no-no piano player but playing this game makes feel like one. But, even I only have 7 buttons to hit, the game is never easy. Keep on playing Identity and Identity II (the lowest level, of course). I don't have Identity III.

This is the picture for those who miss me. :) The picture is taken today.
I just have my hair cut right after I reached home. I prefer short hair over long hair, although I am kind of losing hair at the same time. I am wearing UTP T-shirt as my pyjamas. Long sleeves, what? The guy in red shirt and wears glasses, he is my brother, the second son. Currently in form 5.

*Dad is now back at home after being hospitalized for few days due to Malaria. Glad that everything is fine now.
**You (you know who you are) don't feel bad over anything. You are among the nicest person that I will always remember. ^_^

Fragile Friendship

Guess that the mood for me to write blog only comes when it is midnight. The fact is, I only have the mood to do things around this hour: washing the dishes (if being asked), cleaning the toilet (if being asked), ironing the shirt (if being asked or own will), studying (if have to) et cetera. I think I am a nocturnal creature in the form of homo sapien. Humans wake up at 8am, I wake up at 2pm; they sleep before twelve (should be), I only start to yawn when the sun about to rise. Enough said.

Yesterday I was chatting with a good friend and he was sharing his problem with me. I am a no-no advisor but I am a good listener. It seems like everyone has dilemma when it comes to friendship. Friendship, how would we define it? It is a relationship between two or more persons which requires no conditions to be built upon. We need not trade anything for the friendship we make. All we need is only, well, ourselves and I would say above all is, sincerity. Some are just being mere friends. Some become close of yours, and some turn out to be special ones that you treasure so dearly. Some, well, become more than just friends. There are many level of friendship, I can say. Even so, that does not mean, we cannot care for all. We can. We always can. It is not the matter of time, how long you have known each other or still stay in touch. Friendship comes purely from your heart, the sincerity of making friends. It is the matter how much you still care for one another.

Well, not every friendship has good ending despite the beginning is so wonderful.
Back in primary school, I used to have a very close buddy. We spent most of time together; in class, recess time, everything. Both of us would always stick together. Even back at home, we usually phoned just to crap stuff. Even though I was away to Peninsular for 2 years, our friendship never faded when I returned. And this closeness remained until form 3. The entire sudden, thing started to change. It is not me who changed, it was him. Ever since PMR, he totally became another person. He seemed to lose his way. I can no longer recognize who is him. He is not a friend that I used to know. And so, our closeness started to diminish, day by day. Form 4 and 5, we didn’t spend much time as before. I am not sure whether I have to feel sad that our friendship has to be this way, until today even though none of us has wronged each other. No one betrayed anyone. It is just that, I don’t know what to say. He is the one who changes, not me. I still can recall that he added me in Friendster but I didn’t even know it was him since he was using nickname and the profile picture, is so different compared the last time I ever met him. I hardly hear from him now. Anyway, do hope he is doing fine now although each of us is going separate way. Guess everyone has his choice. He has his and I have mine. Only he himself can help him, no one else.

When I think back, everything is just so odd. I mean, you are so close to someone. Wait, let me do the correction. You WERE so close to someone and within a short time, distant between two friends can just progress unnoticeably, until a certain extent that, we hardly talk anymore. Just like being acquaintance, back to square one. This is very saddening and disappointing, I would say. Those who get to experience this, would not feel really good when thinking about it. Friendship is fragile, don’t you think? If both parties take thing for granted; being ignorant and blind (when I was used to be); no one is being considerate and sensitive and list goes on, relationship won’t really last long. Ask yourself: short-term friendship or long-term relationship? It is all your choice.

Sometime I am worried. Sometime I am scared, eventhough I have special friend that I truly trust. Somehow I do know that he won't change. May be I think too much. I always tell myself that all I need to do is to believe. If I don’t believe, I won’t get anything. If I believe, I won’t lose anything either.

This is just my thought. You know that I always care. =)

*When we are close, we are busy. When we are free, we are distant. Even so, you never fail to make me laugh. And, I am still laughing. Thank you for making my day. :)
**Friendship is a promise made in the heart. Silent. Unwritten. Unbreakable by distance. Unchangeable by time. Don't ever break the promise.

January 2009 Memories

Every semester has been a memorable one, including this semester. I have gone through quite a lot in this 4 months time. Things that I get to experience, moments that I get to cherish. I get to live every single second that I have, I suppose. My mindset changes ever since I stepped into undergraduate studies. It is kind of drastic change, I can say. Not physically, but in terms of mentality and emotionally. I am still an emotional guy though, that is my inborn personality.

Frankly, my Foundation life was a miserable one, I would say, especially the second semester. Guess that I hold on for too long, and that is the culprit that causes the hurt, pain, loneliness, whatever pathetic term that you could think of throughout that period. It was a hard time. Nevertheless, as time goes by, I learn to be stronger, day by day, to endure the unpleasant feeling. I really have to thank my friends who are always there for me. I thank to God that I have someone to turn to when I was down. The ones who have changed me, indirectly, and become the positive and confident of me today, I hope. Even so, the first half of this semester, I mean, before the mid semester break, the Foundation drama almost repeated itself though but, at least I have learnt to bear with those. Think that I am still blind and innocent, thought that thing can go as you want it to. Apparently, that is not the way it works, unfortunately.

Alright, let go all those negative stuff and remember those good moment. Well, since this is my very first semester for my undergraduate studies, meaning that we get to spend more time with our own coursemates compared to Foundation. This is true when it comes to lab session. ME, EE, PE & CV won't be dealing with toluene, hydrochloric acids, GC et cetera, do they?

Our very first lab session - Physical Chemistry Lab

Towards the end of February, we were having Foundation Graduation Dinner at Water Sanctuary Resort (something like that). Nice venue but not the food. Somemore it was raining that day, and it didn't make thing any better. Well, it didn't stop us from taking pictures though.







7 February, it was Sze Mei's birthday. I remember this day because we went to Taiping to watch Chinese Orchestra performance from Taiwan. The last performance was somewhat boring though because it was very long-winded.
Before heading back to campus, I still can recall that we went mamak-ing at the stall by the roadside. What have I ordered? That one I don't remember. I just know that it was around 1am when we have reached our hostel.

Soaring The Eagle, by far, is the most memorable moment for me. I really gain much from the camp. It is not about mere Total Well Being (TWB), I get to know the real meaning of true friendship. =)

I would say this is the camp has changed me ever since, in a positive way. My blindness is faded. Ignorance is diminished. :)

Proceed to subsequent month, well, it is the lovely month, doesn't it? It's April! My birthday month. I would say this year is the best celebration in UTP, even though didn't have a real celebration. It is the moment that I get to spend with friends and the thought that counts. Before I forget, the early of this month, we went to Praise Girls' Home for our Moral Social Work. Since Yi Herng has already blogged about it, I was thinking of uploading the video into YouTube and embedded it here. Well, I only have the chance to do it now. Needless to explain the reason.

I was really impressed by the senior there. Despite that she is being abandoned by her parents, she doesn't complaint. They have strong faith in God. They believe God has plan for them. They love their God as much as God loves them. I really admire their gratitude and faith. We, the fortunate folks, still whine and whine. Everything is never enough for us.

When it comes to May, well, the heat of final exam is on and everyone is going crazed over it. Nothing in particular to talk about it. If you have been reading my old posts, it likes a series of events; from the post I complaint about Oil & Gas till the end of my final. It is all stated there, every detail, every inch of each moment.

The highlight for this semester is that I manage to get myself a special friend. People like to use the term "best friend" but to me, "Special friend" is somewhat preferable. It is so hard to find a friend that really understand you and will never let you down. Everyone makes mistakes sometimes, and hurt your feeling. He never does. Well, this is what makes my friend special. And I only realized after STE. He has always been there. Every moment that I get to spend with him is more meaningful that the time I get to spend with my roomie, like whole day long. Oh well, unfortunately that is the not case if you know who is my roommate. He always makes me feel contented, merely by his presence. Even so, I am scared, from what I see that happens to my friends. Thing could change drastically. Really hope thing won't change. Hope this does not sound weird, but I miss him everyday. =)

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Get this from Justin's blog. And he gets it from someone else.
Best friends are friends,

who will accompany you all the while, no matter what time it is
who will turn up even though you didn't ask
who will wait for your call without asking you to call
who will take initiative to keep in touch with you
who will spend the time with you even though he has something more important to do
who will constantly message you to comfort you
who will worry you more than himself
who will try to diverge your focus to make you happy
who will reply to you even though he already sleeps
who will say sorry because he couldn't make it
who will spread the news for you even though you didn't ask
who will send you regards when you really need it

I am trying to.

January 2009 Semester

This semester marks a whole new beginning in my studies life. A transition from foundation into undergraduate, a total different system with all those courses that I have to take. No more basic subjects like Physics and Chemistry. Now it is about time to know about my program: Chemical Engineering. In the beginning of the semester, I have kind of worried that I may not be able to catch up. Guess it takes time to fit myself in. As time goes by, I start to get to used to it, and slowly, I have really tried my very best in everything. Not to say distractions are available everywhere: Laptop to online, bed to sleep, laziness but THANK GOD no DoTA addiction!

Anyway, this semester I took 7 courses which were:
PHYSICAL CHEMISTRY
ORGANIC CHEMISTRY
DIFFERENTIAL EQUATIONS
MORAL STUDIES
ACADEMIC WRITING
INTRODUCTION TO OIL AND GAS INDUSTRY
TENNIS (Co-curriculum)

PHYSICAL CHEMISTRY
Lecture:
This is the pre-requisite for my courses in my subsequent semesters. A very important subject, in deed. We get to learn all those Dalton's Law, Raoult's Law, whatever Laws (definitely not "lawlaw") from this course. In fact, we have learnt all these since Foundation. I would say Foundation helps Chemical Engineering students a lot because it is like we are doing recap only, with additional facts and details. I won't say this subject is boring, it is just okay. The lecturer, well, I would say, at least is better than my Foundation Chemistry lecturer. He likes to mention the relevance of our course to the industry in which is a good thing. At least we know where could apply this knowledge rather than just mere studying it only. But, there is one incident that I will never forget, in which I think a lecturer should not have done that. There was once that Lian Hung asked him question and he couldn't answer. His reply was, "Are you trying to test me?". Enough said.

Lab session:
Our lab session is okay, I guess. But the only problem is that each time we are doing our experiments, the topic is the one that we have not learnt, yet. Every time when it comes in doing report, we just simply write what we think is right. And, I don't copy and paste. :)

Tutorial sessions:
I don't pay attention. I always do something else.

Final exam:
This was my last paper, the day I was rushing going home. I didn't really focus much on my revison for this one. My emotion was over me. The question was okay but I have done my best for it. Just waiting for the result. I leave that to God.

ORGANIC CHEMISTRY
Lecture:
Interesting subject. A knowledgeable and enthusiastic lecturer and this cannot be questioned. I only argued over the syllabus. Sometimes he lectured topics that is so unnecessary. Just want to scare us and make our life miserable. He almost left a permanent bad impression in me, and also my fellow coursemates by simply canceling our quizzes with no replacement! And also a sudden pop test just within days. How come such lecturer exist? Eventually, he gave us the replacement and also cancel the test, towards the end of lecture week. Think he is trying to be lovable. He is a good lecturer, actually. But not in teaching.

Lab Session:
Got this one Sudanese demonstrator, have made detest him from our very first lab session. I did nothing wrong (I think) and suddenly he asked me to do some demonstration, sort like a punishment. I was so dissatisfied. Never like him much till now? I am not that bad, later I just let things go. Anyway, interesting lab while playing with those chemicals.

Tutorial Session:
Worst tutorial ever!

Final Exam:
I am dead. So sad.

DIFFERENTIAL EQUATIONS
Maths subject. Love this to the max. The lecturer is the best for this semester, our dear Madam Azizan Zainal Abidin. She has a deep sense of humor despite she has that serious look. First time I saw lecturer using Microsoft Word for her lecture notes which is unconventional. Really thank God to have her as our lecturer. She just reminded me of Madam Hanita back in Foundation. Miss these two lecturers, and the class of course.

Tutorial Session:
She didn't use the tutorial sheets that were given. She just conducted like a normal class, still like the session though.

Final exam:
Heart break. Questions are way harder than past years. Out of my expectation. I still love DE anyway. ;)

MORAL STUDIES
Lecture:
The most pyschotic lecturer. His speech always get my mind distorted. Those who cannot stand may go crazy! The syllabus is not accordance to the textbook. I don't know what to study for my final. He has his own idea of topic. Conflict-Resolution thingy with all those Boolean Logic, Conservative-Liberal Analysis, Formal Logic et cetera are not found in textbook but are being tested in final. Good luck to those who are taking this course next semester. (Pray that I won't need to repeat.)

Final Exam:
Expected, just cook, crap everything. No point studying.

ACADEMIC WRITING
Lecture:
It is the most boring subject but we were fortunate enough to have Mr. Razol to diminish the sleepiness in class. We need much, in deed. Otherwise, Chua will be sleeping during the whole class. This course is still important though, don't take it lightly. We will need it someday.

Final Exam:
APA........APA.............APA.........................APA...............APA?

INTRODUCTION TO OIL AND GAS INDUSTRY
Lecture:
The most disorganised lecture with so many lecturers to teach the course since there is upstream and downstream, different specialization. OnG is interesting but not the implementation. Everything is a chaos. With last minute project (Energy Game) and test during study week makes me hates it. But I could not. Because, they got mention "Bintulu" in the lecture since Bintulu is one of the biggest producer for LNG. So, I love OnG!

TENNIS
Kind of regret taking this course because I am a total noob in this game. Anyway, the class has been very fun though. The coach, our dear Mr. Jam is a nice guy and he makes all of us pass the course. I get to know playing a bit of tennis. Just a bit, don't try to challenge me.

Guess that's about all. All the best for upcoming semester.
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