100 Truths @ Last Day

Look at the date, it is now 28 February. Less than 12 hours to go, it will be 1 March, a whole new month again. Wondering why does time pass so fast? It is like I was not given enough time to do everything even though the fact is that the period for every moment is the same. Guess I was so packed with stuff and time was just gone when I was done. In a way, it is a good thing. On the other side, it is a bad thing because I am not real ready for anything.

Test season is approaching. 3 tests in the upcoming weeks before mid-break starts. Not in the stress mode now. Am trying to relax myself more rather than having breakdown. Enough with the personal problem that I have encountered lately but thinking that things are getting better now, and I am glad. Trying to look at something from a brighter and positive perspective. =)

Won't be going back home during the break since I will be having Soaring The Eagle (STE camp) to attend. Hope it will be fun. The longer stay here makes me more anticipated of the upcoming semester break to go home, and also, to celebrate Gawai Festival back in June. That is long way to go though.

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Tagged by Justin Wai-Khan.

001. Real name → Steward Baba
002. Nickname(s)→ Baba (someone keep calling me "Steba" lately)
004. Zodiac sign → Taurus
005. Male or female → Male
006. Elementary → SJK Sebiew Chinese Bintulu/ SJK (c) Choong Hwa, Gurun, Kedah
007. Middle School → SMK Bandar Bintulu
008. High School → SMK Bandar Bintulu
009. College School --> Universiti Teknologi PETRONAS, Perak
010. Hair color → black
011. Long or short → (refer to the hair or my height?)
012. Loud or Quiet → Loud with closed ones, quite quiet with acquaitances
013. Sweats or Jeans → Sweats
014. Phone or Camera → Phone with camera
015. Health freak → Not really
016. Drink or Smoke? → I drink plain water, sometimes unintentionally inhale smokers' smoke
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → no one capture my heart, yet
018. Eat or Drink → Both
019. Piercings → No
020. Tattoos → No

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → No
024. First best friend → Define "Best friend" =)
025. First award → UPSR getting straight As
026. First crush → No
027. First pet → Dog
028. First big vacation → Went to Kuching when I was in year one (first time using plane)
030. First big birthday → First birthday (after that, the cake gets smaller, and lesser presents)

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → Nope
050. Drinking → Nope
052. I'm about to → bathe. Having Foundation Graduation Dinner
053. Listening to → Red Blooded Women by Kylie Minogue
054. Plans for today → Have fun! Fellowship...
055. Waiting for → MID SEM BREAK!

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids?→ Yes.
059. Want to get married? → Undoubtedly yes.
060. Careers in mind → teacher/lecturer/engineer

WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
068. Lips or eyes → Eyes
070. Shorter or taller? → Almost same height
072. Romantic or spontaneous → Romantic
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → Both
074. Sensitive or loud→ Senstitive
075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship..
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → Neither

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → No. I don't wear glasses. Good eyesight.
081. Ran away from home → No
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → No.
083. Killed somebody → Mosquitoes considered as somebody?
084. Broken someone's heart → No. But my own heart has broken before.
085. Been arrested → by Mom.
087. Cried when someone died → Farewell makes me crying in the bed.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → Not all the time.
090. Miracles → Yes
091. Love at first sight → Not sure
092. Heaven → Yes
093. Santa Claus → I don't have Christimas Tree when I was young
094 Tooth Fairy--> Wondering what can this fairy do for me?
095. Kiss on the first date -> Been single all these while. No first date. Kissing?

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → Guess so.
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → Grateful but can be happier.
099. Do you believe in God → Yes
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people →No idea who to tag.

Have a nice day.

Tagged by Ahmike

Before I continue with this tag, just to say that I am very happy to be one of the lucky ones to be tagged by someone that I know through online (blog, specifically) who calls himself as Ahmike. Hey bro, thanks for remembering me. =)

Here are the rules :
- List these rules on your blog.
- Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog.
- Tell 6 unspectacular quirks of yours.
- Tag 7 people at the end of your blog post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
- Link the person who tagged you.

7 facts about me:
~I will try my best to help someone that I care so much eventhough he or she does not care as much as I do.
~I like school. I still remember that I would have cried if I miss school.
~I am a big fan of Titanic, the movie and history.
~I am a worrying freak. Will check things over and over again.
~I cry easily. Little things can make me happy, easily too.
~I like Mathematics to the max.
~Click here for more facts about me.

6 unspectacular quirks
~Cursing is bad, but I curse a lot.
~I am a lazy guy yet can get good result (well, that is the way my friends see it).
~I sleep until afternoon during weekends.
~Sometimes I cry for no reason. And also, emo-ing for no reason. (actually, there is. I just don't want to admit)
~I am a pessimistic but also an optimistic guy.
~I can hate (not real hate, it is more like feeling angry) and care for someone at the same time.

This time I choose to tag:
1. Chriss (you owe me two tags)
2. Justin
3. CathyC
4. Jzune
5. Mabelebam
6. Mohd. Najwan
7. Zues

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Watching PERFUME: THE STORY OF A MURDERER last night.
In a way, it is quite exaggerating. But the story line is overwhelming. Some of the scenes are explicitly disturbing. Feel bad for the women who were sacrificed just to make a tiny bottle of great perfume. Worth watching, I think.

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HAPPY FIRST ANNIVERSARY!

It has been a year we are together. All the best to everyone.

*DE test is not as hard as I thought.
**Learn to sacrifice for someone you care. Bear the pain and be strong.

=)

My Valentine

The single me has spent my Valentine with my friends in my own Uni.

I was helping my friend to do some paper work for the upcoming Regional Conference Humanities (RCH2009) which will be on next Wednesday. For the first time, I have the opportunity to enter the administration building of our Uni, which is located above our grand library, Information Resource Center (IRC).

View from top floor

Lift

Some of the office

Laura, Wee Kheng, and I, accompanied by our former English lecturer, Mr. Ridhuan Tony Lim were there for almost one whole day to print and organize the documents for the event. Frankly, it has been tiring and boring, to wait for the machine to finish its printing before we pile everything together. The machine is very sophisticated though. It scans, prints, then staples the document. So high tech and advcanced, first time seeing such machine.

Cool, eh?

While waiting, we took photos.

Laura, me, Wee Kheng

Waiting for the machine...

Resting

on-the-floor air conditioner (don't know the exact term)

Some view

Reading one of the printed research paper. (He says it is for Academic Writing)

machine and Laura

Wee Kheng and I

Mr. Ridhuan also brought along his baby son, too. His baby is so cute, makes me miss my "baby" brother at home. Wee Kheng and I have spent some time to play with him.

He refuses to smile.

Baby in his troller

Being naughty

Wee Kheng crawled together with baby

Around 5.45pm, the machine finally was out of toner which required a replacement for the cartridge. But, we didn't have any at that time. So, we stopped and started to leave.

It's been tiring and boring but did enjoy spend our time there though. I will definitely miss the little fella.

Last shot of the day

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Something EXTRA..... What do chemical engineers do when they are bored in a class?

Wondering why, why must the lecturers for my core subjects must be lousy one? Why? I don't really get what my lecturers say, eventhough I pay my full attention.

So, rather than listening to the lecturers, I just grabbed Wee Kheng handphone and took photos.

Boring class.

Pretend only...

Real sleeping.

Studying on her own

Day dreaming

A couple of chemical engineers

Well, life has been real fun, as I always said, so far.

=)

It is Weekend!

I have started to really appreciate my weekend more than ever. Schedule on weekdays really damn busy with all those lectures and walking from one building to another. It is fun but I do need some rest too. The only time that I can do so is WEEKEND. Yes, finally it has come.

Tomorrow is Valentine Day, a day for the couples to celebrate their day. The single me will celebrate my single life. Now being single is a bless, no much commitment to deal with. Studies has put enough pressure on me now. Better focus on my studies and be more active with my Uni events.

Still have FRIENDS, right? =)

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!

*Saw a poster today. It quotes, "Avoid valentine day. It has the characteristics of Christianity and maksiat"
I was like WTF. These people are damn low life or even worse, LIFELESS.
Guess what? I tear the paper into pieces and scattered all around the floor. Who cares?

Busy

Wake up quite early today just to do my own laundry. (save money, kind of resist myself to use the laundry service provided at our hostel, for now.)

Life has been getting more hectic. Being a part of the committee of the upcoming events in UTP, English Carnival and Engineering Design Exhibition (EDX) 23, I have lots of commitment to be done this semester. Next week I have to prepare myself for the quiz, test and presentation. Busy life but I do enjoy it eventhough there are times that I almost have a breakdown.

Oh well, you only have studies life once in a life, should enjoy it to the max!

^_^

What goes wrong?

Not really stress over my studies now. Feel kind of relief after accomplishing those assignments. Yet, still have something wandering in my mind. The heart now feels so heavy. But, no one will ever notice. Even they do, they won't know how to comfort you. That is so pathetic. Being emotional now? What do you think?

I think I have put lots of effort in something but the outcome always disappoints me, to the max! I think they don't really get you. As I said, things only come when you don't expect it. I may feel happy about it though. But, when I need it, where are they?

I may get angry easily when I don't get the things that I want. I think I am lousy to be a bad person. I could not risk myself to be angry over someone. I am very soft-hearted, I suppose. Would not be staying angry for long, even though I want them to know how hurt I am somtime. They have no idea how much I am suffered inside. Wondering whether they are being inconsiderate or what? Perhaps to them, this is just normal. Meaning, I am being abnormal.

But, I am not blaming them for anything. It is my fault, too. Sometimes I am just carried away and get moody. Someone may get notice but they will never know why.

Feel like want to cry out loud but wondering, is it worth it? Start to feel so hopeless.

Cheers.

25 Things about Me

Finally I am done with assignment and report, for now. Look at the time, it is now 2.12 am. Tomorrow I will be having my Differential Equation quiz yet have not doing any revision. Think will do it tomorrow, I mean, later. Doing this tag to relax myself, and to ease my stress.

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I was tagged by Jzune in Facebook but I think I shall do the tag here, in my blog in which I think it is where it belongs to.

I cannot access into my Facebook account at the moment due to typical lame internet connection of my hostel. But somehow the tag question asks to list 25 facts about me.

So, here it goes. (you may know some of them)

1. I am not a boy, not yet a man.
2. I am a Sarawakian.
3. I am a mixed of Iban and Chinese.
4. I speak more in Chinese (Mandarin to be more specific) compared to Iban.
5. I am the eldest with four younger brothers whose age are ranged from 6 to 17 in the year of 2009.
6. I am taking Chemical Engineering in Universiti Teknologi PETRONAS under PETRONAS scholarship. (frankly, still hesitate myself whether I have chosen the right path)
7. I like chocolate (cakes, bar, drinks, you name it) but don’t have chocolate-color attire though.
8. I am damn thin. BMI lower than normal range. I am underweight. Having low appetite.
9. I am a quite big fan of Titanic, the movie and its history, too.
10. I prefer female singers compared to men. High pitch attracts me.
11. I like Mathematics subject more than any other subjects.
12. I hate subjects which need memorizing (even though the teachers keep insisting it is more to understanding which I find it is less true)
13. I am addicted to online, currently especially Facebook.
14. I am not a student who studies all the time but still care much about my result. Am a last-minute kind of person.
15. Just realize that I am a guy who gets stress quite easily and hard to ease it.
16. I always compared myself with others in everything, not jealous but envy.
17. Do feel grateful of what I have at the moment. It can be better but I am contented enough.
18. I am a guy who always thinks negative about everything: studies, relationship, stuff. Pessimistic.
19. I get emotional easily but ironically, easily feel happy too over little things.
20. Things in my life somehow work in a funny way. I am not sure about others who may experience the same thing. When I expect things to happen, it does not. Then, I become emotional. When things happen out of my expectation, the emotional fades and happiness appears. It is just like a chain of event.
21. So, I do believe that “rainbow after the rain”.
22. Always choose to be alone even though I real need a companionship sometimes. (Feel that it is a common sense for others to see that you are lonely. I would say I am quite selfish in this matter. When others get to realize after you voice out, to me, sincerity is gone)
23. There is always someone in my mind when I am alone. Usually it will always be the same person. *secret*
24. Sometimes I feel that I care too much about others but they don’t see it. I am not expecting anything in return though. There is time that I feel disappointed because of this.
25. Has always been single. Never been in a relationship before but not sure whether I really need one now. Valentine is coming soon. Am not desperate, mind you.

Guess this is good enough. As if I am a making a resume for something. That’s all.

Rapid Transition

Somehow life would have a rapid change in a split of a second. Suddenly, I have lots of things to do. It is not that I am not postponing anything (okay, may be I did a bit). Everything just comes in one go. A bit stressful at the moment. Skipping to do my assignments, tutorials and stuff. Not in real mood to do everything.

Everyone feels the same. Some say the courses are so tough. I admit it is true. I am scared myself that I may not be able to catch up. Perhaps my old studying method is no longer effective for undergraduate studies. I may need to synchronize myself to suit the demand of the current situation.

Keep on reminding myself,
"Be strong, Steward. You can do it!"

Perak Government falls. My Uni is in the state. Wondering anything would happen? No time to care about that though.

It is fifteenth day of the month. Damn the time passes damn fast. Anyway, wish everyone

HAPPY CHAP GOH MEI!

It's February

It has been while. Been so packed with stuff. Busy with my whole new life as an undergraduate student. Even so, I am quite enjoyed. Can't believe that I have been in this Uni for one year already. Sooner or later, I am going to graduate soon, if I pass. Well, that is still long way to go.

Having our very first lab session last Monday. This was the very first time for everyone to gather together, I mean, all my coursemate in a single session in which we used to be separated into different groups when we were in Foundation. We were split into four different table for different experiments. Kind of odd is one thing. Another is that all those stuff are things that are yet to be learnt. Wondering how the report outcome will be without having idea what are we going to write about.

Taking photo after we were done with our experiments.

It was Book Fair 2009 on 4 and 5 February which was held at Pocket D. This was the first Book Fair and was organised by English Language Society which most of the committee were among our friends. Was there to support them by playing games, buying souvenirs and stuff. Quite tiring but is the experience and memories that count.

At the same time, it was Minggu Mesra Kampus (MMK) where all the clubs were setting up their booths. Has registered as a member of English Language Society and Institute of Chemical Engineers (IChemE), hope that I would spend my leisure time more beneficially rather than always stuck in the room and sleeping (even though I suppose to be studying). Fill up the time with buziness.

Finally our organic chemistry lecturer is back. Just start his class this week. A guy from Russian, again, accent problem, somehow don't understand his words. May be he is nervous, he seems to be hardly catching his breath when he speaks. I myself can't catch my breath, eventhough I am just listening!

All and all, Differential Equation lecture is the best!

*To CHIN SZE MEI, my roommate Jonathan's soulmate and
LIM CHIN TIAN, a friend from Kedah who is now studying in UTAR

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

=)