Let It Be - The Beatles

When I find myself in times of trouble, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And all the broken hearted people living in the world agree,
there will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see,
there will be an answer, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
there will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
there will be an answer, let it be

Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
there will be an answer, let it be

And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light, that shines on me,
shine until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music, mother Mary comes to me,
there will be no sorrow, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
there will be no sorrow, let it be
let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
whisper words of wisdom, let it be

My First Dean's List Award

Some of us really anticipate this big day to come. Test season and final exam! It was the Dean List Award Ceremony. This is the time where all the extra hardwork and effort that we have put in to achieve excellent results paid off. Well, at least that is what our Head of Foundation Studies, Dr. Balbir said.

As stated in the date of every photo below, it was on 29 October 2008, at Chancellor Hall of Universiti Teknologi PETRONAS (UTP). It was kinda a grand event though. This was my first time to step onto the stage, and to receive the award, some more from our dear rector, Dr. Zainal Abidin Haji Hassim. Experience of a kind, I must say.

The event started with the singing of PETRONAS and UTP song. Followed by Prayer (Doa) Recitation and right after that, it was the time for Dr. Balbir to give out his speech. Only 6 students managed to stand out by achieving CGPA of 4.00 or famously known as four-flat. How I wish I can be one of them but somehow, from what I can see now, it is rather impossible. I am not complaining. No one to blame except myself.

Then, the award presentation began.

Row of Chemical Engineers

Waiting for about one hour before our turn

*no photos taken while taking the award from rector*

The event ended around 4.30pm with the singing of National Anthem. A slight refreshment outside the hall.

DIY Photo Shoot after the ceremony

Chemi-Boys

Chua Wee Kheng, Yong Jenn, me, Chan Yi Herng, Hon Lian Hung

Chemi-Girls
Chin Sze Mei, Laura Tiong Siew Zin

Group photo
Pau Jion Sean (Mechanical Engineer), second from the left
*the rest you know who are them already.

Well, we managed to take photo with Rector after the ceremony though. =)

CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL OUR FRIENDS WHO ARE AWARDED WITH

DEAN'S LIST RECOGNITION!

Love Songs

Just some sort of compilation of songs that keeps on running in and out of my mind since love season is in the air.

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When you have a feeling towards him or her:

Zai kao jin yi dian dian (come a little closer)
Jiu rang ni qian shou (I let you to hold my hand)
Zai yong gan yi dian dian (be a little braver)
Wo jiu gen ni zou (I will follow you)
Ni hai deng she mo (What are you waiting for)
Shi jian yi jing bu duo (No much time left)
Zai xia qu zhi hao zhi zuo peng you (If not, we will always be just friends)
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Bu guo san ge zi (it's only three words)
Bie you yu zhe mo jiu (don't hesitate for too long)
Zhi yao ni shuo chu kou ni jiu neng yong you wo (once you said it, I'm yours)

Lian Ren Wei Man by SHE


Maybe we're friends
Maybe we're more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy
But I think you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just got to get next to you

Next to You by Jordin Sparks

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Now both of you are together:



Guy for the girl
You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walk out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you are leaving me
Breathless......

Breathless by Shayne Ward



Girl for the guy
I want to give you my breath, my strength, my will to be here
That's the least I can do,
Let me cater to you
Through the good
The bad
The ups and the downs
I'll still be here for you
Let me cater to you
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Your heart
So pure your love shines through
The darkness we'll get through
So much of me is you
I want to cater to my man

Cater 2 U by Destiny Child

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You will always be there and are meant for each other:

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby I'm so thankful
I found you

Thank God I Found You by Mariah Carey feat. 98 Degrees

I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel

I'm Your Angel by Celine Dion feat. R. Kelly

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You're here
There's nothing I feel
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are saved in my heart and
my heart will go on
and on........

My Heart Will Go On by Celine Dion



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When it is not possible to turn back........

I told myself that I would make some changes
But the more I change there's one thing that remains the same
I can't seem to shake ya
You seem to really have a hold on me
And everytime that we break up
We turn around and make up
This can't go on now
I gotta move on now
It's not the fact that I don't love you no more
But I gotta break this bad habit
Can't take his bad habit no more

Bad Habit by Kelly (Destiny Child)



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You are alone, all alone...


I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you're gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

I Belong To Me by Jessica Simpson

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So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you


Wait For You by Elliot Yamin

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday

Yesterday by Leona Lewis

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When I saw you, I was afraid to meet you.

When I meet you, I was afraid to love you.

Now I love you, I am afraid to lose you.

If I really lose you, I will miss you!

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Note: This is just a random post and if there is any similarities to the actual event is purely coincidental.

Talent Search: Grand Final

Date: 24 October 2008
Time: 8.00 pm
Venue: Chancellor Complex, UTP

Guest artiste:

ALL THE BEST TO THE FINALISTS especially our batchmate,

VYNER!

-Good luck-

To Mommy, and Terry

2 persons in my life are celebrating their big day today, 23 October.

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MOMMY

(Mommy and uncle)

Mommy, the closest person to me turned 37 this year. Pretty young, isn't she? To be having me, the 18-year-old son, which is the eldest among the five siblings. Back to her time, 19 is considered very matured already to get married compared to nowadays.

Among the five of us, I am the closest and always share everything with her and she will also share her stories with me. Sometimes we also have some sort of open-minded kind of conversation, if you know what I mean. As I told you, I am 18. Despite of the fact that I am always being scolded for my mischief and misbehave, that never change anything between us. Blood is definitely thicker than water, no matter what happens.

I still remember during the last semester, when she and daddy accompanied me for my registration, she was the one who helped to unpack all my luggage and settle up the stuff in my hostel room while I was still listening to a talk. When they about to leave me, mommy held my hand, and..... and........ mommy cried......... *sob* Next few days, she called me. It was a bit odd at first because I didn't hear anything from her before sobbing started fading in. She said she missed me, after seeing some of my stuff that were still left in the house. *sob again.....*

I feel so guilty that I have made her cried twice; once last year and another this year. Just recently actually, during my semester break back in June. I have no intention to hurt her feeling. It is just that sometimes I cannot control myself, my rebellious self where I would start to talk in rude tone to her. After I realised what I have done, the feeling was so awful as she was scolding me and at the same time, she was crying. The whole scene was so emotional and I myself was also shedding tears. Nevertheless, she forgave me in the end, twice as well. I have promised to change myself to be better because deep down in her heart, I know she still loves me and because of that, I don't want that to change because of the silly mistakes that I have done.

Mommy, I wonder if you would be reading this since we don't have internet connection at home but may be someday you will. Just want to say that I am sorry for every bad things that I have done for these 18 years that have hurt you. You were always be there to guide and punish me so that I can be a better me, as what I am today. Without your love, dedication, commitment and caring, I may not be here right now. I realise that I cannot be the "old" me again since I am not by your side as often as before. I promise I will take good care of myself and I won't let Mommy down because I know Mommy puts a big hope on me. No one can change "Baba" in Mommy's heart. I still need you, need you to teach more about this life. LOVE MOMMY ALWAYS. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOMMY! =)

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The another person is a newly-met friend of mine who comes from Seremban, Terry Chu.

We get to know each other via Facebook. To be more specific, it is through the popular application, My Heroes Ability (MHA). For those who have Facebook, for sure you will know what I am talking about. I still remember I was the first one to message him for saying thanks for buffing me (if I am telling you, it is actually "Thanks for sharing the exp...", will you get it?) Okay, some of you may get blur of what I am trying to say. I make it this way, I messaged him to say thank you. Hope that is clear enough. Don't ask me thanks for what as you will be more confused. Only me and him know. Haha.....

To think back again, I am so, so lucky to really to get to know him. If I didn't message him that day, I may not have the chance to meet this great guy. Somemore at that moment, I just have my Facebook account (in fact, I don't even know the existence of Facebook until I met Chriss. Grateful enough to meet Chriss, lucky enough to know Terry. Thank God I found them and to have them in my life!) About one week later, he replied and so, our friendship starts to blossom since then.

Even though we haven't met each other, we shared lots of things together. He shares his experience and I share mine. He seems to be never hesitating whenever I ask for him help. I really cannot thank him enough for what he did for me. All I can do is just to give him support and encouragement for whatever he does. We used to message each other via Facebook. Sometimes, we also chat in MSN. Since both of us have each other's number, sometimes we text too. There's one time after I gave him my number while we were chatting, he called me right after that. I was like so shocked, to call me at that particular instant. I wonder whether he was doing a miss call but anyway, I picked it up. And, so that was the first time we heard each other's voices as in real world. He didn't sound as I expected though (no offense, Terry!). Somehow, that call just brings us closer together in some ways.

I would say our frienship is built completely on trust since we never meet each other, yet. In fact, he is 5 years older than me and was a graduate in IT field. He is currently working with Ericson. At first, I would say our friendship was rather odd since he was way older than me since I don't have friends of his age. Even so, those will be my high school and university seniors. Nevertheless, in spite of difference of our ages, he always says that our friendship is magical and I really treasure this 5-months-old friendship. FRIENDS FOREVER. :)

So, today is his birthday. Just want to take this chance to thank him for everything and also wish him.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TERRY. ^_^

A Song For You.....

I have been looking for this particular song for so, so long. First when I heard this song was during the broadcasted advertisement about the Live&Loud in KL last year. When they played the chorus part, I was hooked. Sadly, that was the only part that I managed to get. Some more I didn't know the title and the singer, it has been a hard time for me to hunt for it. I keep on guessing who was the singer and lurking around YouTube to look for it but never succeeded. I almost gave up.

I am not sure whether this happens to anyone but somehow this is always true for my case. The time when you least expect it, at that time it will come to you. This afternoon, I was just browsing through my friend's handphone music player. And, eventually, I came to a stop for a song, entitled, "Wait For You". If I didn't listen any longer to hear the chorus part as I was about to switch to other songs randomly, I would never know that is the song I was looking for. OMG! Where is it while I was looking for it before? I guess my life works this way. Thing comes when I don't expect it.

And, I just knew that the singer is not a black guy. No, don't get me wrong. I am not being racist or discriminate or something. The flow of the song reminded me of Brian McKnight singing Back At One. No wonder I failed to locate the song in the first place because while I was searching for it, I only thought of black guy singer! Obviously, he is not. Plus, I don't really watch American Idol, so I don't know who Elliot Yamin is.

What matters now is, I finally found it.
Love the song, love the melody, love the lyrics. I adore and treasure the songs that hook me. =)

Wait For You, by Elliot Yamin

*The quality of this video and audio is quite bad. Anyway, I have this song in my playlist.

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
and I'm wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
so now I'm all alone

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they keep runnin' down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

[Chorus:]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy
How can you walk away
(When) Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me?
You're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying

Baby why can't we just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But you're telling me it won't be enough

[Chorus:]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you're keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you
I'll be waiting...

Mahathir Speaks!

As some of you may know, Tun Dr. Mahathir came to UTP last week, on 16 October to give a talk on topic, "National Identity and Power Sharing". Click this if you are curious to know a slight content of the speech.

But, the main reason for me to write this post is to share something that is not being mentioned in the provided link. As we all know, Tun Dr. Mahathir is the most iconic vocal politician in our country. Despite of the talk that he gave that day, some of the students took the opportunity (or should I say, take this advantage, can sense my sarcasm?) to ask for his comments regarding the recent politic fuss.

Okay, I admit that I am not really getting myself updated with this politic stuff. As I said, just want to share what I heard that day. But since it is already about one week ago, I will just highlight some of the UNFORGETTABLE WORDS that remains attached in my minds.

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First Statement:
Student asked: Badawi stepping down in March 2009....?
Dr. M said: ..... he should have stepped down now.....

and the audience seems to be giving him an applause after he said that. At that moment, I was like OMG! What we have done? Clapping? Erm....... Does this signify anything? I am pretty confused though.

Second Statement:
Student asked: Anuar Ibrahim?
Dr. M said: He is day dreaming.

Third Statement:
Student asked: Rationals of establishment of current opposition party?
Dr. M said: They are just greedy. They only care about power and money rather than bringing this nation to progression.

Forth Statement:
Student asked: 3 persons arrested under ISA?
Dr. M: The Government didn't do any homework. After realising that they didn't have enough proof to arrest her (Teresa Kok), the government then come out, I think, foolish explanation saying that they are protecting her. [Is he indicating that the government is foolish?]



A further elaboration regarding ISA:
Dr. M said, people only get arrested under this act if any tension is felt that may lead to the jeopardy to the society. But, during the recent arrestment, no tension is felt......erm.... kinda forget what he has said. Main point is, the government simply arrested them secara membabi buta sahaja...
If ISA is being enforced precisely, there is no need to abolish it as some students also ask regarding the abolishment of this act.

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I guess that is about all that I can remember. I am not sure whether he has left such kind comments in his blog though. Oh well, it will be a bit different to listen from him, LIVELY. =)

I hope ISA won't come and arrest me as I am not the only one who listened to the talk. Everyone did.

Final Exam

*click to enlarge*

Final exam table is finally out. The big day will start on 24 November and end on 2 December.

Semester break will be from 3 December until 18 January 2009.

Obviously, this means that it is now the time to plan to study go back home again. =)

Yesterday by Leona Lewis

I fall in love with this song first time I listen to it. It is a beautiful song, with beautiful vocal, melody and lyrics. This song is overwhelming. This song chills me.

Love Leona Lewis!

I just can't believe you're gone
Still waiting for morning to come
When I see if the sun will rise
Without you by my side
Oooo.....
Where we had so much in store
Tell me what is it all reaching for
When we're through building memories
I'll hold yesterday in my heart
In my heart

[Chorus]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday

You always choose to stay
I should be thankful for everyday
Heaven knows what the future holds
Or least where the story goes
I never believe it until now
I know I'll see you again, I'm sure
No, it's not selfish to ask for more
One more night one more day
One more smile on your face
But they can't take yesterday

[Chorus]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday

I thought our days would last forever
(But it wasn't our destiny)
'Cause in my mind we had so much time
But I was so wrong
No, I can believe me
I can still find the strength in the moments we made
I'm looking back on yesterday...........

[Chorus]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday

All the broken dreams
Take everything
They can never have yesterday

A Day Out to Bintulu, the One & Only Mall

It was on 6 October, Monday. Next day I would be leaving for UTP. Just want to spend this day with my beloved family members before heading back. I won't talk much. Let the pictures do the job. =)


On the way... in the car (brother, me, cousin)


~emo picture XD~ (brother)

Before going to the mall, we went to the nearest petshop to buy some food for the hamsters and we found this lazy pussycat doll. Guess what? She never opened her eyes even for one second throughout the time we were there. Just sleep, sleep like a lazy pig. =.="


Anyway, we proceeded to the mall.

Purposely showing my left cheek..... red spots on my right =P

Err... not really yet. We went to this shop to buy some souvenirs for my Uni friends and get myself a bracelet.

Okay, now >>>>> MALL.

No! Photos first. XD

UTP umbrella.... against the wall

At last.....

This small mall is big enough for Bintulu people

Post-lunch at Mary Brown

I saw a tag on the wall, "FREE PUBLIC WIFI........" and I just found out about it that day. I was like WTFH!!!

Have some pearl milk tea.

No much pictures in the mall because it's too small XD

But we spent about 2 to 3 hours inside.

Then, we left.

This was the usual bookstore that provided the Wi-Fi service where I used to online here before but not anymore.

But, the Pearl Milk Tea sold here quite nice. So, I tapao one home for mommy.

They were waiting for me. =.=

Oh well, it's easy to please them, you see. =)

Waiting at the bus stop......

FOR TOO LONG.

So....

We did this.

and

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Finally, the bus came.

I miss this bus. It is way much better than General Bus in Ipoh. Seriously.

Last shot of the day.

Oh dear. Can't write more. I miss them already. :")

*sob*

Daddy's Birthday

I guess I was so excited over the Kuching Trip and almost forgot that we were also celebrating my dad's birthday during the break. It has been almost 2 weeks. It was on 29 September. My daddy's turned 40 this year. No big celebration though, just a simple yet meaningful family occasion. =)


Daddy's birthday cake.


Father and the sons.


"Happy birthday to Daddy......."

FEEDING TIME.... XD

Mommy

the brotherhood. ;)

& me.

Happy 40th birthday, Daddy. I heard from Mommy that Daddy gets the Best Employee of the Year. Congratulation and proud of Daddy.

Love Daddy. =)

Kuching Trip : Family Reunion

Our family went to Kuching on 1st October, not by plane. My father drove instead. It was a 10-hour ride. Sarawak here, doesn’t have north-south highway like Peninsular does. Too broke to have one.

Anyway, all of us have to wake up at 4.3o am with all our heavy eye lids which seem to be so lazy to be opened. We (the brotherhood :) only went to bed at 2.30am. Oh well, we slept in the car. We left at 5.30.

Stopped at Selangau Rest Stop for breakfast. It has been a typical stop for our family whenever we travelled. It is only a humble town but never judge a book by its cover, there are more to be discovered. Selangau is famous for its “Kasam Babi” as my parents will never miss the opportunity to stop there to buy some. As the name speaks of itself, it is non-halal. I myself personally don’t like it also because “kasam” food is somehow too salty for me. If you are confused, kasam is an Iban word which means salted.



Selangau shoptlots


View of the nearest river.... long time I didn't have my boat ride already :(

Later, I slept all the way, for the next few hours before reaching Simunjan junction. What happened throughout the journey, I am not so sure. But I heard there was an accident. Raya holidays, everybody was rushing balik kampung.

This trip was more like Jejak Kasih thingy. My mother managed to contact with her long lost family members after being adopted away for 38 years. Personally, I am not really sure how does it feel for not meeting one another for that long. As for me, even being away for a while just to pursue my studies outside of my hometown already has my emotion gets over me. The feeling is indescribable, I suppose.

Anyway, at Simunjan junction, we got to see her younger brother. Oh dear! The atmosphere was so emotional. Imagine my mommy never gets to see him and I don’t think she can recognize him either. He recognizes my mommy instead because she has posted our family photos to him. When they saw each other, they hugged and as usual, my mommy was shedding tears. I was standing at side, watching them. Control my tears from rolling down…… *sob*

After a little chit chat, we left to Kuching as all other family members were there. Before that, we have a little photo shoot. I look ugly in jeans. =.=”

One hour and a half later, we finally reached 7th Mile, where my aunty lives. Apparently, my grandparents and another uncle were also there. They came all the way from Samarahan just want to see us. And the whole emotional scene was playing again. I still remembered my grandpa said to my mommy, “Don’t cry! Don’t cry! Afterwards I will cry also….” As for me and my other brothers, were still feeling odd though to see the newly-met families.

About an hour later, another Aunty came all the way from Lundu (about one-hour drive from Kuching) to see us too. Gosh! I can say this is truly a whole family reunion. That night, all of us went to have dinner at the nearest restaurant and some photo shoot! =)

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Lo and behold. There is another surprise yet to be revealed. Apparently, I have another uncle who was adopted as well, by my grandpa’s Malay friend. Since it was Raya season, we went to Lundu to visit them. First time I saw my uncle, he is so like a Chinese (in fact, he is) though being raised in a Malay family. He can’t speak Chinese. He told us that, whenever he goes to shops, he should be the first one to do the talking first. No, not being rude or something because others will start talking Chinese to him and of course, he is blur. Look at the photos below. If you never get to know him (the guy in blue shirt), for sure you will think he is a Chinese.





Afterward, we went to look for my cousins. I never get to really know them yet. Only acquaintances.


In the end, mommy managed to see her biological parents and siblings except for her big sister who lives in KL. Most importantly, my mommy gets to contact with them right now after a long time. Now I know how big and beautiful my family is. ^_^

Sorry if this post sounds boring. I am bad in expressing myself.

NEXT: SHOPPING SPREE @ KUCHING